General disclaimer: Paramount owns almost nothing in this universe except characters established on DS9, including Captain Sisko, Major Kira, Miles O'Brien and the O'Brien family, Odo, Dr. Julian Bashir, Jadzia Dax, the Founders and the Dominion. The rest is all mine, including the Melbourne and her crew.

Crossroads
by Catherine Henke

Five years after leaving DS9

Julian sat in his quarters on the U.S.S. Melbourne relaxing for the first time in months. They were just getting back from an extended excursion into the Gamma Quadrant and he was looking forward to some shore leave. Not just any shore leave,' he amended. Shore leave on DS9.' Julian smiled at the prospect of visiting the old station. He hadn't been back since he accepted promotion to the Melbourne. Lt. Commander and CMO,' he thought. It was a good move, besides the fact that DS9 was being turned over to Bajoran administration.' Still, he had to admit he missed the place, the people, his friends. He got up and walked over to the shelves in his room and picked up a photo of the command crew on their last day there. He had kept in touch with every one of them as best as he could but it wasn't the same.

"Sorel to Bashir."

Julian hit his commbadge. "Bashir here, Sorel."

"You said to let you know when we were approaching the wormhole."

"Oh. Thank you, Lieutenant. Bashir out." Julian disconnected the link and picked up his duffel. He walked out and headed to the observation lounge. He entered just in time to see the wormhole blossom open. Julian smiled and watched the familiar scene. So damn beautiful,' he thought. Fifteen seconds later, they were on the other side of the galaxy. Julian grinned as he saw the station. Ah, home sweet home,' he thought. Julian adjusted the duffel and headed down to the airlock.

*******

"Doctor! It's good to see you!"

Julian grinned. "Nerys! How have you been?" He set down his bag and hugged her.

"Just fine, Doctor." Julian opened his mouth to correct her. "Julian," she amended, smiling. Bashir grinned and picked up his duffel. "It's been a long time, Julian," she said. "How's the Melbourne?"

"It's nice. Different from DS9, but," Julian shrugged, "one gets used to it."

"It sounds like you miss this place," Kira commented as they headed towards his temporary quarters.

"I do," he admitted. "It's funny how this place grows on you."

Kira smiled. "So, what do you plan on doing on your leave?" she asked as they reached his quarters. She hit the door command and the doors slid open.

"Relax," he said glancing around. "It's been a difficult couple of months."

Kira nodded. "Well, everything's exactly where you left it," she said. "If you need anything, don't hesitate to call, though."

Julian grinned. "Thank you, Kira." She nodded and walked out. Julian glanced around the room again and smiled tiredly. He quickly unpacked and headed to the Promenade.

*******

Julian was relaxing at the Replimat when he heard a voice calling his name. Julian turned and saw Captain Gloria Marek striding towards him. Julian smiled and nodded a greeting. "Captain. Join me?"

"I'd love to," she smiled. She sank into the chair across from him. "How did you ever serve here for seven years?"

Julian raised an eyebrow. "Complaints?"

"No! No. It's just, well, I've never been one for Cardassian architecture I guess." Julian laughed. "I have a question. I'm supposed to be meeting our new Chief Science Officer at Quark's."

"And you need to know where Quark's is?" Julian smiled, amused.

Gloria sniffed. "Hardly. How could you miss it?" Julian chuckled again. "I was wondering if you wanted to come with?"

Julian paused and then nodded. "Sure. Might as well see who I'm going to be working with."

"Check and see if the two of you will hit it off or not?"

"Exactly." Both officers laughed and stood up. "Lead the way," he smiled.

The two headed off towards Quark's. Glad to see some things never change,' Julian smiled as they walked in. He glanced around, letting the atmosphere of the place sink in. His eyes flitted over to the corner and broke into a wide grin. He still kept the dart board!' Julian heard the Captain call out, "Commander! Over here!" Julian turned and glanced in the direction. He caught a flash of blue and grey before someone stepped in front of the person. Julian glanced back when he heard Quark's voice. "What will you have, Doctor?"

Julian grinned, his mind filling with nostalgia. "What? No hello?"

Quark looked up. "Hello," he said. "Now, what will you have?"

Julian burst out laughing. "The usual," he smiled.

"Julian?!" a familiar voice broke in. At first, he thought it was the captain, but this one was laced with shock and delighted surprise. He spun and found himself face to face with Jadzia Dax. His jaw dropped. "Dax! What are you doing here?" The two embraced. After a moment, Julian stepped back and held her at arms length. She smiled brilliantly, sapphire eyes flashing. "Meeting with my new commanding officer," she replied, coyly.

Julian's eyes widened with shock. "You mean...."

"I'm the new science officer on the Melbourne." Julian grinned broadly, unable to hide his delight.

"I take it the two of you know each other," Captain Marek broke in.

Julian turned to her and nodded. "We served together here on DS9."

"Oh! Well, then I don't have to introduce the two of you," Marek demured. Julian glanced at her and smiled, realizing she had knownall along that they had served together all along. "Good because I have to meet with the commander of this station."

"Give Kira my regards," Dax spoke up. Marek raised an eyebrow and nodded. Julian chuckled softly as she walked off. Dax turned back to him and smiled. "Gods, it's good to see you."

Julian smiled. "It's good to see you too, Jadzia." They sat down at the bar and Julian picked up his ale. Quark walked over. "Jadzia," he practically drooled. "It has been far too long since you've graced my establishment with you're lovely presence. What can I get you?"

Dax laughed. "Just a synthale." Quark smiled and walked off.

"Glad to see some things haven't changed around here," Jadzia smiled. Julian laughed. "So, how've you been?" she asked.

"Good," he replied, taking another sip of his drink.

Jadzia frowned at him and nodded at Quark as he set her drink down in front of her. "Well," she tried again, "why don't you tell me what kind of mission I've signed up for. I heard you just got back from an extended tour of the Gamma quadrant."

Julian nodded, hesitating. "Well, it's very interesting." He paused, not really sure what to say.

Jadzia frowned. "Julian, what's wrong?" she asked softly.

He sighed. "It's just been a very long couple of months," he explained. "It's good to be back in familiar territory."

Jadzia gazed at him. "Well?" she asked.

Julian glanced at her. "What do you want from me, Dax?" he laughed.

"I haven't seen you in five years. I haven't heard from you in a long time. I want to hear what's been going on and why you look like you've lost your best friend?"

Julian's face fell and he took a long sip of his ale. Jadzia paused. "Maybe we could go somewhere else?" she suggested. Julian glanced at her and nodded. Julian dropped a couple credits on the counter an they walked out. "So, where do you want to go?" he asked.

Jadzia shrugged. "I don't know. Somewhere where you will talk to me." Julian sighed and frowned at her.

"Alright," she sighed. "How about my quarters?" Julian paused and then nodded. They walked off toward the habitat ring in silence. Jadzia paused in front of her room and opened the door. Julian stepped in and looked around. "Make yourself comfortable," she said.

Julian smiled and turned to face her. "So, what do you want to hear?"

"Everything. Start with what we're going to be doing," she smiled and sat down on the couch. Julian sat down across from her.

"Well," he began. "We've mostly been exploring. Now that the Dominion threat has been neutralized, we can really begin to explore deeper into the quadrant. We've had a couple first contact missions. We've been on a couple scientific missions. Basically, we have a very loose charter from Star Fleet whenever we go back. But, I guess our main mission is exploratory." Julian smiled. "I have a feeling you're going to love it."

Dax grinned broadly. "I bet it's good to be back though," she said. Julian nodded. "That it is. Usually we just stop at one of the small bases the Fleet has established in the Gamma Quadrant if we need shore leave. But things have been pretty stressful lately so the captain decided that it would be best for the crew if we were to return to friendlier space."

"Friendlier?" Dax probed.

Julian sighed. "Our last mission before coming back here was a first contact. Several things happened while we were there and things got kind of ugly. Let's just say that they probably won't be allying themselves with the Federation any time soon."

"What happened?"

"Well," Julian took a deep breath. "One of our officers was executed for something we would consider to be a trivial offense. No trial. She was just shot on sight."

Dax's jaw dropped. "What did she do?"

Julian's face darkened. "She interrupted the Captain while she was speaking."

"That's it?!"

Julian nodded. "The Kitunian's consider interrupting or offending a senior member of any community a serious offense, one punishable by death." Julian sighed. "We were in a waiting chamber, about to see the minister of their world and the captain was speaking and Leirna, uh, Cmdr. Tarol broke in with a suggestion. One of the guards pulled out his phaser and shot her."

"Oh my god," Dax murmured. "What did she do on the Melbourne?"

"She was the Chief Science Officer."

Dax's jaw dropped. "You mean *I'm* her *replacement*?" Julian nodded. She shook her head shocked. She glanced at Julian. "How well did you know her?" she asked quietly.

"We were friends," he replied.

"Just .....?"

"*Just* friends." Dax shook her head. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pry or anything."

"No, it's alright." Julian smiled slightly. "So, what have you been up to?"

Jadzia smiled. "The usual."

Julian sighed in frustration. "You give me the third degree and then you won't even answer my questions," he griped teasingly.

Jadzia laughed. "I'd say it's fair turnabout," she teased. Julian laughed. "Actually, there isn't much to tell. A lot of research. Nothing really spectacular." She smiled. "I guess that's why I signed up for the Melbourne."

"You missed frontier research," he teased. Jadzia shook her head. "I guess you could say that." She reached for his hand and gave it a friendly squeeze. "I've missed you," she smiled.

Julian smiled in response. "I've missed you too Dax. It'll be great to work together again." Jadzia smiled and nodded.

Later that evening, after Julian had left, Dax was sitting at the window staring out into space. She smiled as the wormhole opened to let a ship pass through. Her thoughts turned toward her next assignment. Star Fleet had given a glowing briefing about how the Melbourne and her crew were among the best in the Fleet, how they had been decorated several times for their efforts and how several planets in the Gamma Quadrant were considering applying for Federation membership due to their efforts. She had signed on because it presented an excellent opportunity for her. Exploring the Gamma Quadrant. She hadn't had that opportunity since being posted on DS9.

She sighed. She hadn't even checked the ships manifest to see who was on staff. She knew Julian had accepted a posting to it after leaving the station but she didn't know he was still there. They had kept in constant contact immediately after receiving their new postings but they hadn't talked in a long time, at least not over subspace. They occasionally sent letters but neither had mentioned anything about their assignments. Jadzia had assumed he had moved on to another posting. And she had lost contact with him after a while. When she saw him standing at the bar talking with Quark, it had brought back a flood of memories. She smiled and got up. She had missed this place, her old co-workers and friends. At least you can have a bit of that comraderie again,' she thought as she got ready for bed.

*******

Julian sat at the Replimat the next morning, enjoying a quiet breakfast. It was still early but the Promenade was as busy as ever. He smiled and let his mind wander until a familiar voice broke through his thoughts. Julian glanced up and smiled. "Odo. Have a seat."

Odo sat down. "Hello, Doctor."

Julian smiled. "How've you been Odo?"

"Fine," Odo replied. "How has your posting to the Melbourne turned out?"

Julian shrugged. "I can't complain. I miss this place though," he admitted. Odo snorted. "No, seriously. I know it seems strange but after seven years here, this place became my home." He glanced around. "It seems like things haven't changed a bit."

"They haven't," Odo replied. Julian paused. Trying to hold a friendly conversation with Odo had always been like pulling teeth for him. Odo stood up. "I should be going. I'm on duty. I simply stopped to say hello."

Julian smiled. "It's good to see you again Odo."

Odo nodded and walked off. Julian smiled and turned back to his breakfast. "Can I join you?" Julian glanced up again and smiled.

"Of course Jadzia." She sat down and smiled. "How'd you sleep?" Julian asked.

"Just fine," she smiled, a part of her half expecting him to hit on her. He simply smiled and took a sip of his coffee. "So," she said. "What are you planning on doing on your leave?"

Julian shrugged. "I really haven't decided yet. Most of the crew mentioned cleaning Quark out at the Dabo wheels."

Jadzia chuckled. "Did you tell them about him?"

Julian grinned. "I didn't have to. You have to meet these people. They aren't your typical Star Fleet crew."

Jadzia raised an eyebrow. "So why don't you introduce me?" she asked.

"Cause no one's here," he smiled. She swatted him. Julian chuckled. They ate in silence for a while. Julian scanned the Promenade again. "Who're you looking for?" she asked.

"Gloria, er, the captain," Julian replied.

Dax's eyebrows shot up. " Gloria'?" she asked.

Julian glanced at her. "Dax!" he protested. "She's an old friend of my mother's. They went to school together."

Dax flushed. "Oh."

Julian stared at her. "I can't believe you thought...." He shook his head. "She's at least twice my age."

Jadzia grinned. "Well, I'm over eight times your age and that never stopped you," she teased.

"Jadzia." He frowned. She laughed. He glanced back out and spotted someone. He raised his hand in a greeting. Jadzia turned to see who was heading over. A young man, about 28, was trotting over. "Hello Liam," Julian said as he reached their table.

"Julian," he smiled. "How's your leave been so far?"

Julian smiled. "All 12 hours of it have been fine. You cleaned Quark out yet?"

"No not yet." Liam turned and smiled at Jadzia. "Hello. I'm Liam Michaels."

"Jadzia Dax," she smiled, extending her hand. Liam smiled and shook it. He turned to Julian. "You certainly move quickly."

Julian flushed. "Dax and I served together here on DS9. We're old friends."

"Oops," Liam laughed. "I'm sorry."

Jadzia smiled and shook her head. "No harm done."

"So what are you doing here? Vacation?"

Jadzia shook her head. "No. I'm the new science officer on the Melbourne."

Liam's eyes widened. "Oh." He turned and glanced at Julian. "Does she know...?" Julian nodded. "I'm sorry," Liam apologized again. "It's just that a lot of people are still upset about what happened. You'll probably be referred to as Leirna's replacement for a while."

Jadzia smiled thinly and nodded. "I assumed as much," she admitted.

Liam nodded. "Well, if you'll excuse me, I can hear the Dabo wheels calling my name." He smiled. "I'll see you later Julian. It was nice to meet you Dax." He nodded goodbye and walked off.

Jadzia turned to Julian. He was staring off into space. "Julian?" He started and faced her. "You alright?" she asked, concerned.

He nodded. "I'm fine. Well, I have no idea where she is. What do you say we go for a walk?" Jadzia smiled and nodded. They started off, pausing at a couple new shops and stopping to talk to a couple familiar faces. Jadzia kept sneaking glances at Julian. He seemed preoccupied with something.

"Penny for your thoughts," she smiled.

Julian turned and smiled. "I was just debating whether to take a day and head to Bajor."

Jadzia smiled. "That would be nice," she admitted. "If you go, mind if I join you?"

"Of course not," he smiled. He glanced in Quark's and saw Liam and a couple other officers at the Dabo wheels. Julian smiled. Dax followed his gaze.

"Why don't we go in?" she suggested. Julian shrugged. They walked in and sank down at one of the tables. Quark walked over.

"Doctor, why don't you go talk to your shipmates over there and persuade them to leave the Dabo tables for a while, huh?"

"They beating you out, Quark?" Julian grinned. Quark sniffed and took their orders. Julian smiled and turned back to Jadzia. She was shaking her head. "What?"

"Nothing," she said. She glanced over his shoulder. "We have company," she said.

Julian turned and saw Meleria and Arnwar heading over. Meleria smiled. "Hello, Julian. Didn't expect to see you up so early. Have you come to help clean the little Ferengi out?"

Julian chuckled and shook his head. "Sorry, Meleria. I'm really not in the mood." He felt Dax nudge his boot with hers. "Uh, Meleria, Arnwar, this is Commander Jadzia Dax, the new science officer. Dax, this is Commander Meleria Braen, the Melbourne's first officer, and Lt. Commander Arnwar B'Ler, Chief of Security."

Arnwar smiled. "Hello," he smiled. Jadzia returned it in kind. Meleria smiled sadly. Dax immediately understood why. "Well," Dax said, trying to shift the subject, "how close are you to cleaning Quark out?"

Meleria brightened a bit. "Oh, he won't have a leg to stand on by the time the week is out."

"Go easy on him Mel," Julian smiled. "He's an old, well, maybe friend is too strong a word." Dax elbowed him. "What?" he protested. She just laughed and stood up. "Well, I don't know about you, but I'm in the mood to gamble for a while. Julian?"

He shook his head, smiling. "No, thanks. I'll just watch." The four headed over to the table and joined up with the others. Julian introduced Jadzia to the rest command staff and watched as she leaned in to place her bet. The Dabo girl spun the wheel and .... "Dabo!" she called. The rest of the command crew turned to Dax, who just smiled and collected her winnings. Julian grinned. "You still haven't lost your touch, have you?" Jadzia grinned at him and shook her head.

*******

"This is quite a station. I can see why you liked it here," Gloria Marek commented.

Julian smiled and shook his head. "Yesterday you were saying the exact opposite," he pointed out.

"Well, I can see some of the allure. It's a busy place. You must have seen a lot of action here. That's not something you get on a starship. I can see why you miss it." She smiled at the younger man. She had known him since he was a little boy. It was a delight to see how he had grown.

Julian smiled wistfully. "Is it that obvious? Even after five years?"

She smiled. "At first, everyone could tell. Since then, I'd say only the people closest to you can really tell. Me, Liam, Leirna...." Julian sighed. Gloria smiled sadly. "You really miss her, don't you?"

Julian hesitated, briefly wondering who she was talking about. "She was a good friend," he replied.

Gloria nodded. "That she was." She took a sip of her drink. "So, tell me about our new science officer. What's she like?"

Julian took a deep breath. "Well," he said, letting it out. "Frankly, she's brilliant. An incredible scientist. I'd hate to see where this station would be without her being here those first few years."

Gloria shook her head. "I know all that, Julian. I mean personality wise. You seem to know her very well."

Julian nodded. "We were good friends."

"Were?" she asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Well, we sort of lost touch awhile back." Julian shrugged. "I still consider her one of my best friends but..."

"I understand. A lot has happened between then and now." Julian smiled thinly. "Speaking of changes...."

"Hello!" Dax walked over. "I hope I'm not interrupting."

"Not at all," Gloria smiled. "Have a seat."

Dax smiled and sat down. "So what were you talking about?"

"You," Julian smiled, taking a sip.

"Oh! Well, don't let me interrupt," she smiled. Julian chuckled and shook his head.

Gloria appraised the two. She prided herself on her ability to read people and she could tell there was a lot of unresolved subject matter between the two of them. "Actually," she spoke up. "I've got to be going. Doctor, why don't you give Dax a tour of the Melbourne." Julian's head snapped up.

Dax smiled. "That sounds wonderful," she glanced at Julian. "If you don't mind."

"Of course not," he said, smiling slightly. They stood up and headed towards the docking ring.

******* Jadzia gazed around the science lab. "This is *mine*?" she gasped. "It's huge!"

"Well, exploration is our primary mission." Julian smiled. "We wouldn't be much of an exploratory ship if we didn't have a state of the art science lab."

Jadzia ran her hands over a console. "This is better than what I had on the Nile!" Julian grinned at his friend's enthusiasm. "So, what's left?"

"Nothing," Julian smiled. "I thought I'd save the best for last."

"What are crew quarters like?" Jadzia glanced at him.

Julian paused and sighed. "Come on," he said.

Jadzia smiled and followed him. They walked through the halls and up two levels until they reached a set of doors. Julian punched in the command and the doors slid open. Dax walked in and looked around. She was standing in a spacious living area. These look a little big for single quarters,' she thought. She glanced at Julian. "So," she said. "Is this what typical quarters look like?" She walked over to a shelf and picked up a photo. She smiled as she recognized it. "I have this in my quarters also," she admitted. Julian smiled and walked over. Jadzia's gaze wandered over the other items and various photos. One caught her eye and she picked it up. Her eyes widened. "Julian," she whispered. "Who...?"

Julian paused. "That's my wife and daughter," he said quietly.

Dax turned and faced him. There was a sadness in his eyes that she recognized. He swallowed and turned around. "Julian," she gaped and then grinned. "Why didn't you tell me you were married?"

Julian sighed. "I had planned on telling you but circumstances prevented it. And then...." She heard his voice catch.

Dax approached cautiously. "Julian? What is it?"

Julian swallowed and shook his head. "Lara, my wife, was killed about two years ago."

Dax's jaw dropped. "Oh, gods. Julian, I-I'm sorry. I...."

Julian turned and smiled weakly. "It's alright. You didn't know." He met her gaze and she smiled sadly. She glanced at the photo. "So, how old is your little girl?" she asked walking back and setting it on the shelf.

"Almost three," he said, allowing himself a brief smile.

"Julian, if you don't mind me asking, where...?"

"Is she?" he finished. Dax smiled and nodded. "With some friends of Lara's. They'll be here tomorrow." Jadzia nodded. She was still shocked. Julian smiled. "I know this is a surprise. I guess it's better I told you now than show up with Cati tomorrow."

Dax smiled and nodded. "So...."

Julian glanced at the chrono. "Are you hungry? It's almost lunch."

Dax paused and nodded, smiling. "Sure. My treat." Julian smiled and they walked out.

*******

"Papa!" Julian grinned and swept the little girl up in his arms. "Hello Catilynn," he smiled. He turned to the couple walking out. "Thanks again Sera, Jarrell. I appreciate it."

"Oh, it was no problem. She was an absolute angel," Sera smiled.

Julian grinned and glanced over his shoulder. "Oh! Sera, Jarrell, this is Jadzia Dax, an old friend of mine. Dax, this is Sera and Jarrell Adaris." Dax smiled and shook their hands. Cati started squirming. "Let me down, Papa!"

Julian smiled and set her down on the ground and she stared up at Dax with wide blue eyes. Dax smiled at the little girl. "Hello," she said, crouching down. Cati smiled back. "Hi," she said.

"Well," Jarrell broke in. "We should be on our way."

"Of course," Julian smiled, turning back. "Thank you again."

"It was no problem. Goodbye Cati."

"Bye!" she called. The couple walked off. "Alright, munchkin. Let's get you settled in," Julian said, scooping her up. Cati giggled happily. Julian glanced at Dax who smiled at him. He smiled in return and they headed off.

Dax studied him as they walked. Cati was chattering to him about her stay and he was listening patiently. This is very, well, strange. He was such the consummate bachelor on DS9. Now I find out he's widowed and has a child.' They arrived at his quarters and Julian shifted Cati to one hip and punched in the door command. The doors slid open and Julian gestured for Jadzia to enter. She smiled distractedly and walked in. Julian stepped in behind her and set Cati down, who immediately ran off to explore the rooms. "What's on your mind Jadzia?" he asked, sinking down on the couch.

Dax smiled and sat down next to him. "I was just thinking how much you've changed in five years," she admitted. Julian glanced in her direction and smiled. He was about to respond when Cati climbed up onto his lap. Julian glanced at her and smiled, gently hugging her. Dax smiled. "This suits you," she said softly. Julian glanced up, startled. She felt a hint of a blush creep into her cheeks but she was saved Cati. "What's your name?" she asked.

Jadzia's attention focused on the little girl. "Jadzia," she smiled. Cati studied her with curiosity. Dax smiled realizing why she was so curious. She glanced at Julian and saw him stifling his laughter. "I'm a Trill," Dax said, supplying the little girl with the answer to her unasked question. Cati smiled happily. Julian chuckled and shook his head.

"She's been told it's impolite to ask people what they are," he explained. "Repeatedly." Jadzia laughed. Cati frowned slightly.

"What?" she asked.

Julian smiled tenderly. "Nothing love. Why don't you go play for awhile and we'll get dinner later."

Cati smiled and scrambled down. "Okay Papa."

Dax smiled, watching the little girl disappear into one of the bedrooms. "Papa?" she asked, smiling.

Julian flushed slightly. "She never called me daddy, even as a baby. It stuck after a while."

Dax giggled. "So," she said, turning to face him. "What are your plans for your leave. You only have four days left."

"So do you," he pointed out, smiling. She smiled and glanced down at the couch. "What?" he asked, gently taking her hand and giving it a friendly squeeze.

Dax glanced up and smiled. "It's nothing."

"Dax, you're getting worse at hiding your emotions as the years go on. What's wrong?"

She hesitated and then sighed. "I suppose you'd rather I not tag along then. I mean, I'm sure you want to spend some time with Cati.."

Julian smiled. "Actually, I wouldn't mind at all." Dax glanced at him, her confusion showing. "I know that the rest of the crew is somewhat uncomfortable with you being Leirna's replacement. I'd rather you didn't spend the rest of your shore leave alone."

"Who said I'd be alone?" Dax asked, indignantly. "Kira and Odo..."

"Are incredibly busy right now, what with Bajor considering applying for Federation membership. That's why the captain had to meet with Kira the other day, to discuss what was going on." Julian smiled. "Besides," he added. "I've missed you. I'd like to hear what's been going on with you. You neatly dodged my questions the other night."

Dax glanced at the door to Cati's room. "Not nearly as much as what's been going on with you."

Julian smiled and shook his head. "I was planning on heading to Bajor tomorrow. You're more than welcome to come along." Dax paused and then smiled. "Alright."

"Good," Julian smiled. "Now, why don't we get some dinner?" Dax smiled and nodded.

*******

Julian sighed and sank down on the bed. It had been a long day and he was exhausted. It had taken a full hour to get Cati calmed down enough to go to bed. Julian shifted and winced. His shoulder was killing him. I'll take a sonic shower tomorrow morning.' Julian sighed and closed his eyes, his thoughts drifting back to yesterday. He had been stunned when Dax had suggested checking out the crew quarters on the Melbourne. It almost sounded like something *I* would have said all those years ago!' Julian grinned. He also remembered how she had reacted when she saw the photo of him, Lara, and Cati. He had wanted to tell her when it happened but they couldn't contact the Alpha Quadrant. They were too deep into uncharted territory. Julian sighed and felt the familiar sadness fill him. Uncharted territory,' he thought. You loved exploring as much as she does, Lara. As much as Leirna did. I'm beginning to wonder it's's worth it.' Julian shifted onto his side and stared at the grey wall. It still hurt as much as it did two years ago. Julian closed his eyes tight. At least you have Cati,' he told himself. Julian smiled slightly. She had been the one ray of light since Lara's death. It had been difficult trying to raise her alone. Leirna had helped. She and Lara had been friends, Leirna had worked under her until Lara had been killed. Afterwards, Leirna offered to help him out with things. And now, Leirna had been killed. Julian shook his head. 'That's in the past. Live in the present. You have a good job, a wonderful daughter, friends. You should be counting your blessings.'

Julian heard a soft shuffling sound and sat up. Cati was standing at the door way. "Cati? What's wrong?"

"I can't sleep," she sniffed. Julian smiled and motioned for her to come over. She walked over and Julian scooped her up. "Alright. You can sleep in here tonight. Just don't make a habit out of this," he whispered. Cati sniffled and nodded. Julian gently smoothed her hair off her forehead and kissed her goodnight before lying back down. He felt her curl up next to him and he smiled.

*******

Dax sat in her quarters, staring out the window. She was still reeling from the past two days. 'He's still the same old Julian but at the same time he's not. Gods! He's been married had a child and lost his wife. By all the joined gods, of course he's not the same.' She sighed and shook her head. 'What were you thinking?' she chided herself.

'I didn't know about any of that! How could I have? Besides, who's to say he still doesn't feel the same way?'

'Maybe he does, but do you honestly think he'll act on those feelings? It's not just him anymore. He has a child to take care of. And he only lost his wife two years ago!'

Dax shut her eyes tight, trying to blot out the inner turmoil. She had missed him so much in the last five years. More than she had expected. When she had seen him, she had thought that they could pick up where they left off. Or maybe start over. Now? Now she wasn't sure.

*******

Julian woke early the next morning and quietly got ready so he wouldn't wake Cati. He headed into the main room and tapped the commpanel. "Bashir to Dax," he said softly. There was a long pause before she answered. "Dax here." Julian heard her clear her throat and he smiled. "Did I wake you?"

"Yes," she said. "What time is it?"

"Oh-seven hundred." He heard her sigh softly. "Alright," she murmured. "I'm up. When do we meet?"

"Oh-eight hundred. Airlock three."

"Alright. I'll see you then. Dax out." Julian cut the connection and went to wake Cati up.

"Kira to Bashir." Julian's brows flew up. "Bashir here. What can I do for you Major?"

"The *Orinoco* is at your disposal for the day, Doctor."

Julian started. "Major? Did I hear you right?" He knew the Federation had left a few runabouts here as a token of goodwill but he didn't expect her to offer the use of one.

"Yes, Doctor. Enjoy your day."

"Thank you, Major. Bashir out." Julian cut the connection, smiling. Well, I'll be damned.' "Bashir to Dax."

"Go ahead Julian."

"There's been a change of plans...."

*******

Dax walked into the runabout staging area and smiled. "Hello," she called.

Julian turned and smiled. "Hello Dax."

"Lo Dax!" Cati cheerfully echoed. Dax grinned and glanced at Julian. He smiled back at her. "All set?" he asked. She nodded and they stepped in. Dax hit the command and the doors closed. She headed up front and smiled.

"Gods this brings back memories," she murmured. Julian chuckled and set Cati down in one of the chairs. "Don't touch anything," he warned as he strapped her in. Jadzia seated herself at the pilot's seat and brought the runabout online. "Starting prelaunch sequence," she said as Julian sat down next to her. He nodded and contacted Ops to request departure.

"Granted. See you tomorrow. Ops out." Dax neatly piloted the runabout away from the station. "Setting in a course for Bajor. Full impulse." She tapped a few controls and then put the runabout on autopilot. "That should do it. Now we have a three hour wait." Julian smiled and nodded. He turned and glanced at Cati.

"Want to get up and move around?" he asked. She nodded and Julian released the harness and she scrambled down. Julian smiled and sank down on the couch in the front. "So," he smiled at Dax as Cati explored the cockpit, "What should we do on Bajor?"

Dax smiled and swiveled the seat around. "Well, we could go to the capitol. There's always plenty to do there."

Julian nodded and glanced at Cati as she walked towards the main control. "Cati," he said warningly. She turned and glanced at him. He shook his head and she sighed. Dax smiled softly and stood.

"Well," she said walking over to the replicator. "Raktagino," she ordered. "We could also visit some of the outlying areas. You know, stop in the capitol and pick up some necessities and spend the day wandering the countryside. I'm sure we could even get some, what are they called, Verdanis?" Julian nodded. "But I don't know if we could do that," she admitted, glancing at Cati.

Julian smiled. "Probably not," he admitted. "I do like the idea of spending the day outside of the city. Stop in the capitol and get some supplies, tent and what not if we don't want to sleep in the runabout. What do you say, Cati? Want to go camping?"

"Yeah!" she cried happily. Dax smiled. "Well, that settles it," she said.

*******

Dax stepped out of the runabout and took a deep breath of air. "Hmmm. Much better," she smiled. She turned to Julian and Cati. Cati was squirming to get down. Julian set her down and she ran off. Julian smiled and shook his head. They stepped out and looked around. "This is wonderful," Dax murmured. They had set down in a large meadow. Nearby was a lake. She grinned. "Makes me glad we stopped in the capitol and asked the shop owner. I didn't bring a swimsuit."

"Good for him, too. How many credits did we spend there?" Dax laughed. Cati was crouching down next to the lake. "Cati! Get back from there!" he called, starting over. Dax followed.

Cati stood up and ran back. "Can we go swimming?"

Julian smiled. "Later. Let's have lunch first." Cati nodded.

Dax glanced at him. "I'll go back and get some food and a blanket," she suggested. Julian smiled at her and nodded. Dax trotted back to the runabout. She came back with a collection of sandwiches, drinks and a blanket. Julian smiled and helped her set up. They enjoyed a leisurely lunch next to the lake. After lunch, Cati fell asleep on the blanket, forgetting about going swimming.

Julian smiled and leaned back. "Too much excitement in one day," he said, glancing at Jadzia. She smiled and stretched out. "Actually, it doesn't sound like such a bad idea. This sun feels wonderful." She wrapped her arms under head and closed her eyes.

Julian smiled and gazed around the area. He couldn't remember the last time he had been this relaxed. Far too long,' he thought wistfully. He glanced at Dax and smiled. He had missed her over the years. He regretted losing contact with her. Dax opened her eyes and smiled at him.

"What?" she asked.

"Nothing," he replied. "Just thinking."

Dax smiled and propped herself up on her elbow and glanced past him at the lake. "Want to go swimming?" she asked.

Julian glanced over his shoulder at the clear water and shrugged. "Sure, why not." They had changed into their new swimsuits while on the runabout. Dax sat up and quickly slipped out her clothes. She neatly folded her civvies and smiled at him as she stood up. He was shrugging his shirt off. "Come on," she grinned. Julian glanced up at her and smiled. He stood up and grinned.

"Last one in..." he began and Dax took off. "Hey!" he gasped and took off after her. Dax beat him to the lake and neatly dove in. Julian shook his head and skidded to a stop next to the lake. She surfaced, shock written across her face. "Cold?" he teased.

She glanced at him and frowned. "Find out for yourself." She splashed him and he hopped back. He shook his head.

"You're hopeless," he teased.

Dax smiled. "Come in. You get used to it."

Julian smiled and glanced back towards the blanket. Cati was sleeping soundly. He had hoped that their shouting hadn't woken her. "Alright," he said, turning back. He dove in and surfaced, his teeth chattering. "Good lord," he gasped. "Maybe Trills can get used to this but I highly doubt humans can."

"Come over here," she said grinning.

"Why?" he asked warily, swimming towards her. He could feel the water warming as he went. "A hot spring," he smiled. Dax nodded. "The whole south end of the lake should be fine." Julian smiled and shifted so he was floating on his back. "I could get used to this," he smiled.

"Shame you won't be able to," Dax grinned and playfully dunked him. Julian broke the surface coughing. "No fair," he protested laughing. Dax grinned and swam away before he could get at her. She glanced back and paused. She didn't see him. She spun back around and frowned. She suddenly felt a vise like grip on her ankle and gasped and he tugged her under. She laughed as she surfaced. "Alright, we're even now," she grinned. Julian smiled and nodded. Dax smiled and swam over. The quiet, pensive look was gone from his eyes and replaced with the familiar sparkle. 'Gods, what I wouldn't give to kiss him right now.'

Julian smiled and swam back a bit, keeping out of arms length, just in case. He wasn't entirely convinced their little war was over. He glanced back briefly at the blanket. Still sleeping. He turned back and saw Jadzia treading water a few inches from him. Julian smiled at her and caught sight of the glint in her eyes. Her arms slid around his waist and she gently kissed him. Julian froze, startled. He could feel his mind racing. After a moment, she pulled back. Julian backed up, startled and confused. "Jadzia," he began.

She paused and sighed. "No, don't. I understand." She swam back a bit. She could feel her cheeks begin to heat up so she slid under the water with the pretense to smooth her hair back. 'What was I thinking? Wait, thinking? I wasn't!' She resurfaced and found herself face to face with him. She backed, startled. Julian reached and grabbed her hand. "Actually, I don't know if you do understand," he said quietly.

Dax shook her head. "Julian, let's just drop this for now. Please?" Julian hesitated and then nodded. "Alright." He heard Cati begin to cry and glanced over Dax's shoulder. She was sitting up looking disoriented. Dax turned and smiled. They both swam to the shallows of the lake and Julian got out. "Over here love." Cati turned and smiled. "Can we go swimming?" she asked, excitedly.

"Of course," Julian smiled and picked her up. "Come on." They walked back and Julian walked in.

"How well does she swim?" Dax asked.

"Like a fish," Julian grinned. He waded out to her side. Cati grinned delightedly and splashed him. "Hey!" he protested smiling. Cati giggled and began to squirm out of his grip. "Alright. Be careful though." He gently released her but stayed close. Cati grinned at Dax and swam over. Dax grinned and caught the little girl when she got close enough.

"Hey, you're pretty good." Cati grinned proudly. Julian swam up to them, smiling. Dax glanced over Cati and smiled at him as he swam up. She knew he wanted to talk about what happened but she wasn't sure she wanted to. They swam for a bit longer and then decided to get out. Dax toweled off as Julian dried Cati. Dax smiled at the sight. He was still dripping wet and had completely draped her under the large towel. Cati was laughing hysterically. Dax watched as he lifted the towel up and wrapped her in it. Cati smiled at him and gently pat his cheeks. Julian glanced up and saw Dax smiling at them. He smiled back and stood up and walked over. He set Cati down on the blanket and she engaged herself in one of the toys Julian had brought along. Julian sat down next to her and began to play with her. Dax considered joining in but decided to watch for a while. She stretched out on the blanket and gazed at them. After a moment, Julian turned and saw her watching them. He glanced back at Cati and mussed her hair and stretched out along the blanket facing Dax.

"What?" he asked smiling.

"Nothing," she replied. He glanced back at Cati and turned back to Dax.

"Jadzia," he said softly. "We need to talk."

Dax shook her head. "No. I'm sorry. I..."

Julian reached and gently put two fingers on her lips to quiet her. "Jadzia, you don't have to apologize." He smiled and shook his head. "I'll be honest. I haven't dated anyone since Lara died. And I'm not completely sure I'm ready to. At least, I haven't really considered it."

She gazed at him. "I understand Julian. I guess...Oh, I don't know. I do care about you. I guess I just want you to know that I'll wait." She saw him smile and he nodded. Jadzia caught movement out of the corner of her eye and heard Julian grunt softly as Cati landed square on his back. "Catilynn!" he protested. She giggled and wrapped her arms around his neck.

"Hi Papa!"

Julian chuckled and glanced at Jadzia. She was laughing. "Hello Cati. What do you want?" he asked.

"I want you to play with me!" she giggled, getting off his back. Julian smiled and rolled onto his back. Cati promptly leaped on him and began to tickle him. Julian winced slightly, laughing. He reached to pick her up but Dax pinned his shoulders. "No fair!" he protested, grinning.

"Sure it is," she smiled. "Get 'im Cati!" Julian laughed and tried to pull away. After several minutes, he managed to flip Dax on her back. She gasped with laughter and tried to pull back as Cati started to tickle her. "Turncoat!" she giggled at Cati who just grinned. After a moment, Julian smiled. "Alright. Calm down Cati." Cati giggled happily and turned back to her toys. Julian turned back to Dax and smiled. She was still laughing softly. She met his gaze and smiled softly. She realized he was still gently pinning her to the ground and paused, her eyes searching his. Julian released one of her shoulders and gently brushed her cheek with his hand. She felt her cheeks heat up and he smiled. Julian helped her sit up and she smiled. She felt him wrap an arm around her shoulders and she leaned against him. They watched Cati play for a moment and they glanced at each other. Dax felt a smile creep onto her face at the look on his. Julian tipped his head towards Cati and Dax nodded. They both reached over and began to tickle her. Cati shrieked with laughter. After a moment they stopped. Julian picked her up and rolled onto his back, lifting her into the air. "That's what you get," he grinned. Cati giggled happily and Julian sat her down on his stomach. Dax stretched out on her stomach facing them. Julian glanced at her and smiled. After a while, they packed up and went back to the runabout to have dinner. After dinner, Julian put Cati down for bed. He walked outside and found Dax stretched out of the blanket gazing up at the stars. Julian smiled and sat down next to her.

She glanced at him and smiled. "Hello," she said. "Cati's asleep?"

Julian nodded and stretched out next to her. "It's so beautiful here," she whispered.

Julian glanced at her and smiled. "That it is." She gazed at him, smiling, and shifted onto her side.

"About what we were talking about earlier," she said softly, her blue eyes searching his. Julian nodded, waiting for her to go on. "You mentioned that you hadn't thought about dating anyone after your wife died." Dax paused. "Are you thinking about it now?"

Julian gazed at her. "Yes," he said softly, gently brushing her cheek with his hand. He felt her lean into his touch and he hesitated before pulling her close. He gently pressed his lips to hers, feeling her arms wrap gently around him. She didn't press and he was grateful for that. After a long moment he pulled back. He felt like he was being torn in two. Part of him would love to lose himself in her arms, the part of him that had always cared for her. All those years on DS9, he would have given anything for this to happen. But it hadn't. Things had changed. He had met Lara and fallen head over heels in love. They had a child. He still found himself waking in the middle of the night from the nightmares he has had since her death. Part of him wanted this but the rest of him wasn't sure.

Dax gazed at him, watching the conflicting emotions playing over his face. She gently brushed his cheek and sank down next to him. No need to push things. We have time.' She closed her eyes and listened to his soft breathing. She felt his arm slide around her and she smiled. They both gazed up at the stars for hours, talking quietly or just staring. After a long pause in the conversation, Jadzia glanced at him and realized he was sound asleep. She smiled and reached over and drew the blanket over the both of them. I'll wake him in a bit,' she thought. She curled close to him, enjoying the warmth and the contact. Eventually she fell asleep.

*******

Julian snapped up, gasping. Jadzia stirred next to him. "Oh, I must have drifted off," she murmured. "Julian? What's wrong?"

"Nothing," he murmured, shaking his head. He glanced around. It was pitch black out, the moons having disappeared. He glanced at her and saw her concerned glance. "I'm fine," he said softly. "Why don't we go in?" She nodded and they stood up. He picked the blanket up and they walked back into the runabout. Julian tapped the controls and shut the back door. He turned to Jadzia and smiled softly. "Goodnight Dax," he whispered.

"Goodnight." He bent and gently kissed her. She smiled and brushed at his cheek with her hand. She felt him smile and he kissed the palm of her hand and disappeared into one of the cabins. Dax stood there for a long time before heading into her cabin.

*******

Jadzia woke to find a pressure on the center of her back. "What the he---"

"Morning!" Cati cried. Dax opened one eye and turned her head to get a better look. Cati was sitting on her back smiling. "Cati," she sighed and smiled. "Is your dad up?"

"She gave me the same greeting five seconds ago. Nice try," came a voice. Julian walked in smiling. "Morning."

Dax smiled at him and glanced at Cati. "How about getting off my back so I can get up?" Cati scrambled down and darted out of the room, heading towards the front.

"I suppose she's hungry," Julian said, glancing after her.

"Hmm," Dax murmured letting her gaze travel down his lean frame and back up. He had neglected to put on a top and only had on a pair of cotton sweats. Julian turned back and flushed slightly at her appreciative smile. "Come on," Dax said, getting up. "The natives are hungry." Julian smiled and they walked up front. Julian replicated breakfast and glanced at Jadzia.

"What time are we due back at the station?"

"Ten-hundred."

"Hmm. It's oh-six hundred now," Julian glanced at Cati and frowned slightly. "We have some time, thanks to our little alarm clock." Cati giggled and took another bit of her pancakes. Julian smiled tenderly at his daughter. "So, do we just want to head back or..."

"We could go back to the city and spend some time there," Dax suggested.

Julian nodded and turned to Cati. "Well, kiddo? Do you want to go back?" He knew what the answer would be.

"No!" she cried, her lower lip jutting out. Jadzia smiled.

"Alright," Julian said. "We'll stay a bit longer. Do you want to visit the city?" Cati nodded happily and returned to her breakfast.

"Nice trick," Jadzia commented softly.

Julian chuckled. "She hates leaving any place. You have to make it seem like she's getting her way once in a while or we'd have a scene every time." Jadzia grinned at him and tucked her long legs underneath her, turning back to her breakfast for a bit.

Julian studied her for a moment, thinking about yesterday. I'll wait,' she had said. He smiled and leaned back in his chair. He had spent a lot of last night thinking about what he was going to do. He cared very much for her but he couldn't help like he was betraying Lara. Dax glanced up at him and caught his gaze. Julian paused and glanced at Cati. "Are you done love?" Cati smiled and nodded. Julian smiled in response and took her plate. "Go get washed up," he said. She scampered to the back. Julian put her plate in the replicator and hit a couple buttons and the dishes disappeared. He turned back to Jadzia and hesitated and sat down on the couch. "Jadzia," he said softly. "I've been doing a lot of thinking." He saw her eyes widen and he smiled slightly. "I suppose I could have put that better," he murmured. "But..last night, after we came back in, I spent a lot of time thinking about what I want." Dax stood up and walked over and sat down next to him. Julian took her hands in his. "I care about you a lot. You know that."

"But," she whispered.

Julian smiled. "But I...I don't know if I'm ready for this." He saw her face fall. "Jadzia," he whispered, gently touching her chin and raising it. "At least not yet and not what you want." She opened her mouth but he held up a hand. "At least not right away. I guess what I'm saying is if we could take this one step at a time, I...I'd appreciate it." Jadzia smiled softly and nodded. He kissed her gently. Jadzia smiled and tightened her grip on his hands.

"Papa?" Julian glanced over Jadzia's shoulders and started. Cati was standing there looking rather upset.

"There's something in my room!"

"What?" Julian turned to Jadzia and the stood up. "What is it Cati?"

"I don't know!" They headed in back and Julian glanced in the room and winced. "It's a Hara cat," he said.

"Good lord, how did it get in?"

"Last night?"

"Wouldn't we have seen it before this?" Julian shrugged and gestured for her to look. Dax peered around him and sighed. "Okay, maybe not." The cat was small, less than a foot long. "So how do we get rid of it?"

Julian shrugged. "I have no idea."

"Can we keep it?" Cati asked.

"Sorry sweety. I'm afraid not." Julian turned back and glanced at Jadzia. "Transporters?"

"I guess." She walked over and powered up the computer. "Locking on. Energizing." Julian turned and watched it disappear in the shimmering blue energy. "I transported it about 100 feet away from the runabout," Dax said. She glanced at the chrono and sighed. "You know what? We don't have time to go to the city anymore. We need to head back." She spotted Cati's pout and smiled. "I'm sorry, Cati. It's going to take us awhile to get back. We have to return the runabout." Cati glanced at her and then looked at Julian. He smiled sadly and shook his head.

"Sorry," he said, "but Jadzia's right. Come on. Let's get you dressed." He picked her up and glanced at Dax. "I'll be right up." She nodded and headed up front.

When he came back, she was rather disappointed to find he had put a t-shirt on. He smiled and sank into the co-pilot's chair. "All ready?" he asked. She nodded and lifted the runabout away from the planet's surface. Julian smiled. "I'm sorry it took so long. I decided to check to see if any other critters got on board last night."

Dax smiled. "Were there?"

"Fortunately, no." Dax chuckled and said, "Leaving the atmosphere. Setting a course for DS9."

"Maximum impulse," they both said. Julian smirked slightly and Dax laughed. "You're impossible," she said. Julian chuckled and glanced at the control panel. "Putting the runabout on autopilot," Dax said. She sighed and stood up. "I'm going to go get dressed."

"Alright. Could you tell Cati that it's okay to move about?"

"Sure," Dax smiled.

*******

"Orinoco to DS9. Requesting permission to dock."

"Permission granted," Kira said, laughing at the irony. "Did you enjoy your trip?"

"Absolutely, Major," Dax smiled and glanced at Julian.

"Runabout pad C is open. Welcome back."

"Acknowledged. Orinoco out." Dax cut the comm and turned to Julian. "That has to be the worst sense of de ja vu I've ever had and I have seven lifetimes of memories to deal with."

Julian laughed and watched as she piloted the runabout to the landing pad. "It was strange wasn't it? I really miss this place."

"Hmm. Me too. Maybe things won't seem so bad now that we're working together again." She set the runabout down and began to power the systems down. Julian smiled and nodded his agreement. He sighed and glanced at the panel. "All set?" Dax nodded and finished powering down. She locked out the controls and stood up. Julian scooped Cati up and they grabbed their bags and walked out. Julian sighed and glanced at her. "I'll see you later. Oh, don't forget about the party in three days. On the Melbourne. They're having the official Welcome party' for the new crew."

Dax groaned. "I really hate those things. Think you could talk the captain out of it?"

Julian chuckled and shook his head. "Sorry."

Dax sighed in frustration. "Alright. I'll see you later then." She smiled warmly and headed off towards her quarters. Julian gazed after her until she disappeared around a corner. "Come on, Cati. Let's go unpack."

*******

Julian tugged at his dress uniform uncomfortably. He truly hated the thing. He glanced around the room, trying to find a familiar face but none of the senior staff had arrived yet. Probably all hiding,' he thought. The doors opened and Julian snapped his head hopefully in that direction. He grinned and headed over. "Dax!" She turned and smiled at him. "Thank God you're here," he hissed once he got to her side.

Sh smiled thinly. "Yes, well, all the good hiding spots were taken up by the rest of the command crew." Julian studied her, wondering if she was joking. She glanced at him and giggled.

"Come on," she said, taking his arm. "The least you can do is introduce me to some people." Julian smiled and they walked over to a small clump of officers. They managed to work their way around the room in record time and were sitting at a table away from the rest of the group. Julian tugged at the collar of his uniform unhappily. "Think the captain will let us leave early?" she asked, sighing.

"Probably not," he said, missing the tiny smile on her face. He spotted someone and waved them over. Jadzia turned and smiled. "Hello, Liam. How wonderful of you to show up."

Liam grinned. "It's a talent. Arrive as late as possible and not get in trouble and leave the first second you're able to." The other two officers chuckled. "Hey, Julian. Who'd you get to take care of Cati for the night?"

"An old friend from the station," he replied, swirling the drink in his hand. Damn shame this is only synthale,' he thought. It would liven this party up a bit if it wasn't.' Dax caught the look on his face and chuckled. "What?" Julian asked.

"Nothing," Dax said. "I just recognized that look that you just got."

"What look?" Liam asked, glancing back and forth between the two.

Dax smiled and shook her head. "It's a long story. Something that happened a couple years back here on DS9."

Julian chuckled. "There was never any proof that *I* was behind that."

"You and Miles had had a prank war going on for weeks. Don't even tell me you're not the one who fixed the replicators so that it would produce non-synthale drinks only for him at his birthday."

Julian looked at her innocently. "Me? You honestly believe I'd purposely get my friend drunk on his birthday?"

"Yes!" she and Liam laughed. Julian frowned and shook his head.

"It's not like he didn't have a good time," Julian grumbled. Jadzia reached and rested her hand on his arm.

"I'm just teasing," she smiled. He smiled at her. He heard the band begin to play and sighed in relief. "Thank God. Entertainment!" Dax smiled at him. "Want to dance?" she asked. Julian paused for a moment and then nodded. They walked out to the dance floor and fell into the rhythm of the music. "It's been forever since I danced to big band," Dax smiled.

Julian smiled back. "Just follow my lead," he said softly. He felt her lean in slightly.

"Gladly," she said, gazing up at him.

Liam studied the couple, stunned. A few days ago, Julian was swearing that they were just friends. This doesn't look like *just friends* to me,' he thought. Liam spotted Meleria walk in with Arnwar. He motioned to them and they headed over.

"Looks like we arrived just in time," Meleria smiled. "The entertainment sound....oh, my. Is that Julian with our new science officer?" Liam nodded, smiling. "What on earth are you smiling about?"

"It's about time he stopped brooding," Liam said nodding towards them.

" Stopped brooding?!' He lost his wife!" Mel hissed.

Liam turned. "So. That doesn't mean he has to stop living also. They're old friends," he said.

"Is that supposed to make it any better?"

"Yes because that means that they know each other. I know that Julian isn't completely over Lara's death and that he's not going to want to rush into things with anyone. Who better to understand that but one of your best friends?"

"Especially a Trill with several lifetimes of memories," Arnwar said.

Mel frowned slightly and glanced back at them. "Well, I suppose you're right," she admitted as the song ended. She clapped politely and frowned. "They're coming this way. New topic!!"

"Hello Mel, Arnwar," Julian smiled. "Glad to see that you've finally come out of hiding to join the rest of us."

Mel smiled. "You're too much of a strait-lace Julian. You have to learn to bend the rules every once in a while."

"No one can bend them quite as efficiently as you, Mel." She smiled. He glanced at Dax. "You all remember Dax, right?" Everyone nodded.

"Having fun, Commander? Arnwar asked.

Dax choked on her drink. "Fun? At one of these? These stopped being fun about, oh, after my first one. Three hundred odd years ago." Julian, Arnwar, and Liam chuckled. Mel smiled thinly and shook her head. Oh, she's going to be tough,' Dax thought.

The officers talked the rest of the evening. Finally, people started to leave and they all bolted. Jadzia chuckled as they walked down the hallway. "I can't quite remember a party where the entire senior staff left at the first chance they got."

"We're pretty informal here," Mel said.

"Not informal enough," Julian muttered, undoing his uniform tunic. Mel smiled at him.

'Not only tough,' Dax thought, 'but perhaps a bit of competition.' She glanced at Julian. He seemed mildly oblivious to Meleria, which was driving her crazy to no end. "Dax?" She shook her head. "I'm sorry, Julian. What?"

"I asked if you wanted to join the rest of us in the observation lounge for some poker," he smiled.

"Since when do you play poker?" she asked smiling.

"He doesn't," Liam ribbed. Julian glared at him.

Dax smiled. "Sure."

"Alright. We'll meet there in ten minutes. I want to get out of this thing." Julian smiled. The rest of the crew nodded and headed to their quarters. Dax walked along with him. "Where are your quarters?" he asked.

"About five doors down from yours," she smiled. Julian nodded. "I'll see you in ten," she said as she stopped at the doors. Julian nodded and continued down the hallway.

*******

"What's your poison, Commander?" Liam asked as she walked into the lounge. "We're overriding the synthale, just so you know."

"Black hole," Dax replied, sitting down. Liam froze. "You're kidding, right?"

"No, I'm afraid she's not," Julian said.

Liam shrugged and said, "One Black Hole, override synthale." The drink appeared and he handed it to her. "The newbie's opening the bidding tonight folks!" Julian chuckled and leaned back in his chair. These people have a lot to learn about Dax,' he thought.

*******

"Full house?!? Bloody hell! That's her third one tonight!" Dax grinned and pulled in her winnings.

"She must be cheating," Mel grumbled unhappily.

"Nope!" Dax replied cheerfully, making a show of counting her chips.

"Bloody hell," Liam muttered again. "That's it. I'm calling it a night." Everyone else muttered in agreement. Dax shrugged and turned to Julian.

"Did I look like I was cheating to you?"

"No," he smiled. "In fact, you folded a couple of times with some pretty decent hands."

"In other words, she felt sorry for us and was letting us win," Arnwar grumbled. Dax smiled and shrugged. She glanced at the chrono and groaned. "Oh, gods. I'm going to bed!" Julian glanced and winced. "Oh, Cati's going to have fun with me tomorrow." He heard Dax muffle her laughter. "Stop laughing or I'll have her wake you up at 5:30 too." Dax cracked up. The rest of the group exchanged glances and smiled.

"I'd best be going," Mel said. "I'm going to have one hell of a hangover tomorrow and I want to get as much sleep as possible so I can be fully awake to enjoy it." Everyone laughed and nodded goodnight. Jadzia stood up and turned to Julian.

"Need a hand?"

"No, I'm fine, thanks." He stood up and glanced at Arnwar and Liam. "Good night. See you bright and early at the staff meeting tomorrow." They smiled and nodded at the two of them as they left.

"Hell," Liam muttered. "How on earth does he get so lucky?"

Arnwar shook his head. "I don't know my friend. I'll see you tomorrow."

*******

Dax smiled to herself as she and Julian walked along the corridors in a companionable silence. They reached her quarters and she paused. "Want to come in and sober up a bit?" she asked quietly. Julian paused and nodded. He wasn't too drunk but he'd hate to have Cati see him even tipsy. She tapped the command to her doors and they opened. She walked in and said, "Computer, half lights."

Julian smiled. "You are more intelligent than I give you credit for," he said as he sank down on her couch.

"Thank you," she smiled and walked over to the replicator. "Two coffees. One black with sugar. The other..."

"Cream, no sugar," he replied.

"Cream, no sugar." The replicator whirred and Dax picked up their drinks and walked back to the couch. Julian accepted the cup gratefully and took a sip. Dax sank down next to him. "Do these little impromptu parties happen often?"

"No," Julian replied. "Thank God." Dax smiled at him. She could feel the alcohol beginning to have an effect on her. Black hole's had a tendency to sneak up on her. She closed her eyes and tilted her head back. "You alright?" Julian asked.

"I'm fine. Finally beginning to feel the effects of the last Black Hole I had, though."

Julian chuckled wryly. "I've been feeling the effects for about an hour. I can't believe you actually conned me into having one."

Jadzia chuckled and glanced at him. "Dax processes poisons. It takes a while for things to really hit." Julian smiled and closed his eyes. Dax studied his features in the dim light. Seemingly of its own free will, her hand gently brushed his hair back off his forehead. Julian opened his eyes and gazed at her. Jadzia paused and pulled back. "I'm sorry. I..."

Julian smiled and shook his head. "I said take things slow, not avoid all physical contact." She blushed but smiled. He reached and gently took her hand in his. "Come here," he whispered. She slid closer to him. He gently wrapped his arms around her and held her close. Dax closed her eyes and sighed contentedly. She could stay here all night but she knew he should be getting back to his quarters soon. After several minutes, she sat up.

"It's late. I should get to bed. So should you." Julian smiled and nodded. He sat up and pulled her close and kissed her. Dax leaned against him, enjoying the moment. He pulled back slightly after a moment.

"I should be going," he whispered. She nodded quietly but neither moved. Julian swallowed, wondering how much of what was happening was the alcohol and how much was emotion. If she gave me a reason to stay, I probably would,' he thought detachedly. After a long moment, she pulled back. He shook his head slowly, trying to clear it. Julian stood up and sighed. "I'll see you tomorrow," he whispered. Dax nodded and watched him leave. She stared at the door for a long time before heading into her bedroom.

*******

Dax woke up the next morning and winced. "Computer, time?"

"Oh seven twenty-eight."

"Oh, hell," she grumbled. "Lights," she commanded. The lights came on full force. "Ah! Half lights!" Dax rubbed a hand across her forehead and winced. "Maybe a shower will help," she muttered, heading into the bath.

Julian tapped the chime to her quarters, wondering if she was up. "Jadzia?" he called. He tapped the chime again. No response. "Bashir to Dax," he said. Still no response. Julian frowned. 'Well, the worst that could happen is that she'll be asleep and I'll have to deal with a hang over.' "Computer, emergency medical override. Authorization Bashir 15 alpha theta." The doors slid open and Julian glanced around. "Jadzia?"

"Julian!?!" She poked her head around the corner of the bedroom door. "How did you get in?"

Julian paused and could feel his cheeks heating up. "I tried the door chime at several times and the commbadge. You weren't responding so..."

"You overrode the lock," she finished, pulling back into the bedroom. She smiled. "Why the concern?"

"You had two Black Holes and you weren't responding to your commbadge," Julian said. "Either you were a real sound sleeper or you were unconscious."

"Or I was in the shower," she said, stepping out of the bedroom, her robe securely tied around her waist. She walked over to the replicator. "Raktagino." She turned to Julian. "Want one?"

"No thanks. I took care of my hangover already." Dax chuckled and sank down at the table. "Have a seat," she said. Julian smiled and glanced around. "Half lights still?"

"I just got up. Give me a bit." She closed her eyes and massaged her temples.

"Do you want me to get you something?" he asked.

Dax shook her head slowly. "No, the hangover remedies just make me nauseous. I'll be fine in a bit." She took a sip of her coffee and sighed. "So, when are you due in the infirmary?"

"Oh-nine hundred."

"Hmm. And you're ready for duty already?"

"Well," Julian hesitated. "I thought I'd stop in and see if you needed anything."

Jadzia gazed up at him and smiled. "I'm fine. Thank you though." She hesitated. "Have you had breakfast yet?" Julian shook his head. "Oh, good. Would you get something while I change?"

Julian chuckled. "Some hostess. Makes the guess cook breakfast."

"Yeah, yeah." She stood up and headed towards the bedroom. "I didn't say you had to. It was simply a suggestion." Julian smiled and watched her go before heading over to the replicator.

*******

Dax walked into the science lab and grinned. It's all MINE!' she thought with delight. A few people were on duty. Normally, she would be on the bridge but the Captain had suggested working in the lab for a few days and getting acquainted.

"Morning, Commander," came a voice from behind her. She turned. "Hello, Meleria," she smiled.

"Here's the roster for today and the names of your staff and their specialties. Sorry this took so long to get to you." Meleria said. Dax took PADD she offered and glanced at it. "Well, it's a bit more interesting than the past few assignments." Meleria headed off and Dax glanced around and settled herself in at a work station, hoping to finish the cataloging her predecessor had left behind. She had worked for about ten minutes when her commbadge chirped. "Bashir to Dax." She sighed and tapped her badge. "Dax here."

"Report to sick bay at your earliest convenience."

"I'm on my way. Dax out." She cut the connection and stood up. "I'll be back as soon as possible," she said to one of the staff. She nodded and continued working. Dax walked out and headed towards sick bay. She walked in just as Julian was exiting from his office.

"Good," he smiled. "I forgot to tell you that you have a few vaccinations to get."

Dax groaned. "What kinds?"

"Diseases you've never even heard of and never want to get. Have a seat." Julian walked over to a storage shelf and picked up a couple of cartridges for the hypo. Dax sat herself down on one of the biobeds. Julian turned around and headed back towards her, carefully loading they hypo. "So, how's work been?"

"All ten minutes of it have been fine," she replied sarcastically. Julian smiled and gently pressed the hypo against her neck. Dax heard the hiss as it discharged the contents into her system. "And I'd like to go back, too. I have a lot of work to do."

"Well, you may want to take a fifteen minute break before heading back," he said as he reloaded the hypo with another vaccination. "And maybe a couple throughout the day." Dax sighed in frustration as he pressed the second one against her neck. "It all depends on how you react to these. Some of the crew didn't have any side effects. Others...." He saw her eyes widen and she became white as a sheet. Julian gently eased her back against the bed. "Others have complained of dizzy spells, nausea and headaches of varying degrees of severity."

"No kidding," she murmured. Julian smiled and turned back to reloading the hypo. "Don't worry," he said. "You only have about five more."

"Five!" she started to sit up and immediately the world began to swim around her. She felt Julian gently but firmly press her back against the bed. "Just relax," he said quietly. "Now, this one might make you a bit nauseous...."

Dax closed her eyes and felt the cool metal of the hypo against her skin. She didn't open her eyes until he had finished. When she did, the world seemed entirely too bright. She moaned softly and attempted to sit up. "Oh, not quite yet Commander." She felt his hand rest on her shoulder. "It seems Trills react a bit more strongly than others. You've been out for about five minutes."

"What?" she squinted up at him.

"Computer, dim light over bed six," he said softly. The light dimmed to tolerable levels and she gazed up at him. "You must have passed out. Only one or two people reacted like that. Now just rest and don't try to move." He gave her shoulder a squeeze and walked over to a console. Dax sighed and closed her eyes again.

Julian glanced back at her and smiled. She's actually listening for once. Well, I doubt she feels in any shape to disagree.' He began working on some samples recently collected until about twenty minutes had passed. Julian glanced back at the biobed and walked over. "Dax?" She opened her eyes and looked up at him. "How do you feel?" he asked.

"Fine. Can I leave now?" Julian bit back a smile and nodded. She sat up and paused a moment.

"Still dizzy?" he asked. She glanced at him and smiled. "A bit. I'll be fine."

Julian nodded. "Alright. Just take it easy for the rest of the day." Dax nodded and started to walk out. "Dax," he called. She paused and turned. Julian walked over. "Stop by this evening," he said softly. She paused and nodded, smiling. "Is that all, Doctor?" she asked playfully.

"For now," he replied, smiling. She nodded and left. Julian sighed and leaned against a bed. After a moment, he shook his head and went back to work.

*******

Dax tapped the door chime to his quarters later that evening. She had been off work for an hour and had taken a brief nap to sleep off some of the inoculations. She heard a muffled come in and opened the doors. She stepped in and glanced around. "Julian?"

"Over here. Cati, get off my back please." Dax heard a giggle and smiled. Julian stood up and smiled. "Sorry. Someone thought it would be a good idea to tackle me." He smiled at Cati who grinned shyly at Dax.

"That's alright," she smiled. Cati's not the only one,' she thought.

"Have you had dinner?"

"No," Dax admitted. "I was sleeping off some of the side effects from the shots."

Julian glanced at her concerned. "Still dizzy?"

"No. I had a headache," she admitted. She saw him frown and he walked over. "How bad?"

"Not too bad," she said.

"What other symptoms have you had?" he asked.

"Why? Is there something wrong?"

"Well, most people were fine by about midday," he admitted. She felt him place a hand on her forehead and he shrugged. "Well, I don't think you're running a fever."

"I'm fine, Dad," she teased. He smiled and shook his head. "Alright. Let me know if you feel bad tomorrow, though. Now," he clapped his hands, "what do you want for dinner?"

Dax shrugged her shoulders. "I don't care. What were you planning on having?"

"Well, on Fridays Cati usually chooses," he admitted. Dax smiled.

"That's fine. I'm starving." Julian nodded at her and turned to Cati who was coloring at the table.

"Cati, what do you want for dinner?"

"P'sketti!" she smiled. Julian glanced at Jadzia who nodded. "Alright. Can I get you something to drink Jadzia?"

"Oh, just water for now, thanks." Julian nodded and headed for the replicator. Dax smiled and was about to sit down on the couch when Cati called to her.

"Jdsia! Come look!" She saw Julian turn and smile at her and Dax felt herself warm to her toes.

"What Cati?" she asked, leaning over her shoulder.

"Look what I made!" Dax smiled and gazed at the unintelligible drawing.

"That's wonderful," she said. "Tell me about it."

Julian walked over and rested his hand on her shoulder. Dax turned and gazed at him. He held out a glass of water. She smiled and took it. Julian smiled at her and glanced at the drawing Cati was happily explaining. He felt a flash of pride and affection and allowed himself the luxury of gently wrapping his arm around Jadzia. He wasn't sure how Cati would react to Jadzia at first but he had a general idea now. He glanced at Jadzia. She was listening to Cati's explanation and sipping her water. He gazed at her as she asked Cati something about her drawing, pointing to a scribble on the page. Julian smiled and gave her a tender hug before heading back to get dinner.

Dax followed him with her eyes and smiled. She realized that if she wanted to become involved with him she'd have to earn Cati's trust too. Jadzia had to admit that she wasn't sure how well she would react around Cati. Dax had been a parent several times over and she didn't consider herself the best parent. But that wasn't Jadzia Dax. That had been Emony Dax and Torias Dax. Jadzia felt herself caring for the little girl very much. She's so cheerful. I can't help but love her.' Cati finished explaining her drawing and turned to Julian.

"Papa, can I play with the piano?" she asked.

Julian turned and nodded. "Sure. Let me get it." He finished programing the replicator and headed into the bedroom and came out with the keyboard. He neatly unrolled it on the floor. "Be careful, though."

"I will." Cati sat down and turned it on. Dax smiled as she happily plunked out several dissonant chords.

"Modern music," she smiled walking over to Julian. He turned and smiled.

"Ah, she'd love to sit and do that whenever Lara played." Dax saw a sad fondness fill his eyes and she gently slid an arm around his shoulders. Julian glanced at her and smiled. "I'm sorry."

She shook her head. "Don't be." She glanced at Cati and smiled. She was trying to link notes together. "How old is she?" she asked.

"Three. Why?"

"She's good," Dax said.

Julian smiled. "You're trying to win me over by complimenting my daughter," he teased. "It's working." Dax smiled softly and shook her head. "No, she actually has a lot of potential." Dax gazed at him and smiled. "I was only joined to Joran for six months but I can tell the difference between just goofing off and actually trying to play." Julian studied her face and smiled. He reached for her and pulled her close. Dax gazed into his dark eyes. She could feel him searching her eyes. A soft spark passed between them but neither was sure if it was wise to act on it. After a moment, Dax stepped back. She glanced over her shoulder at Cati and took a deep breath. She felt a hand gently trace the spots along the side of her face and she turned back and gazed at him. He smiled tenderly and slid his hand down her arm and gently took her hand. Dax smiled and squeezed it. Suddenly, a small voice piped up.

"When's dinner?" Julian glanced over Dax's shoulder and smiled.

"Soon," he said. He returned the gesture and let go of her hand and turned back to the replicator. Jadzia turned and glanced at Cati.

"Can you play?" Cati asked pointing to the keyboard.

Jadzia paused. She knew that if she said yes, Cati would want to hear something but she had never really played for anyone. "Well, yes," she admitted after a moment.

"Could you play something?" Cati asked. Dax hesitated and nodded. She walked over and sat down next to Cati. Julian turned and watched as Dax hesitated for a moment and then turned to Cati.

"What do you want to hear?"

"Lullaby!" she smiled. Jadzia hesitated and glanced at Julian.

He smiled softly and said, "It's an old terran piece. By a twentieth century artist."

Dax glanced at Cati and then back at Julian. "Do you have the music?"

Julian hesitated and shrugged. "Possibly. I don't know...." Dax nodded and glanced down at the keys.

"Would it be in the computer?" she asked. Julian shrugged. Dax got up and walked over. "Computer, search for notation for Lullaby' by...." she glanced up at him.

"Billy Joel," he supplied.

"Billy Joel," she said. The music appeared on the computer and Dax studied it. "Julian, do you have a PADD I could borrow?" He nodded and walked over and handed her one. "Thanks. Computer, copy notation to the PADD." Within seconds, the music was on the PADD. Dax smiled and walked back. "Alright. Let's take a look," she said. She glanced through it again and nodded. I can do this. It's not too hard...' She began to play, enjoying how neatly the chords fit together. Cati smiled and watched her play.

Julian watched quietly. The last time he had heard it played was two years ago. Oh, gods,' he thought. Of all the songs Cati had to ask for. But can you blame her? She misses her mother as much as you do. Lara used to play this for her constantly.' Julian gazed at Jadzia, who was concentrating on the music. Not a note out of place. My god. I knew she was talented, but I had no idea.' He listened as she finished the song. Cati clapped delightedly. Dax smiled and ruffled her hair, blushing. I can't believe I just did that.' She glanced up at Julian and saw him studying her. He smiled and turned back to the replicator. Dax bit back a sigh.

"Again," Cati begged.

"Oh, sorry Cati. Dinner's ready." Julian set the food on the table and smiled as she ran over. They enjoyed a leisurely dinner and after Julian put her down to bed. He walked out to find Dax studying the PADD of music. "Hey," he whispered. She glanced up at him and smiled.

"Hi," she said, patting the couch. He sat down next to her and she set the PADD down. He smiled.

"Thank you for entertaining her. The time before dinner she's a bundle of energy."

"That's alright. She's really adorable." Julian smiled and took her hands in his. Dax gazed at him, wondering how exactly to pursue this. "Julian..." He glanced at her and smiled. "What happened earlier?" she asked quietly. "Before dinner. I...I know you said you wanted to take this slowly but...."

Julian took a deep breath and nodded. "I know. I just...I don't know. For a moment, everything just seemed right for the first time in a long time." He tenderly brushed her cheek. Dax closed her eyes and felt his lips press against hers. She leaned against him, enjoying his touch. He pulled back slowly, not sure he wanted to stop and not sure he wanted to go any further. He closed his eyes and rested his forehead against hers. "It's a nice theory," he whispered after a moment. "I'm just not sure it's feasible."

Dax pulled back. "Julian, I don't want to pressure you. If I am...."

"No. It's not you. It's me." He saw her nod slowly and sigh. She swallowed and glanced at her empty glass of water. "I'll get you some," he said, smiling. Dax smiled and glanced down at her hands. She was mildly confused. There were times when she was sure he wanted more and other times she didn't know. She felt a hand on her shoulders and she lifted her head. Julian sank down next to her and gently set the glass of water on the table. Dax smiled at him and leaned back against the couch. "So," he said softly, "how was your first day?"

Dax smiled and sighed. "Well, it was a lot of catch up work to do from Leirna..." she glanced at him. He simply nodded. Dax tilted her head and gently took his hands into hers. "You've really been through hell the last two years, haven't you?" Julian smiled sadly and glanced down at their hands. Dax gently tightened her grip. "Julian, if you want to talk about it, I'm here."

He glanced up at her and sighed. "No, I'm fine." Dax gazed at him, concerned, but nodded.

"Alright. But if you ever want to..." He nodded and glanced at the keyboard.

"You know," he said, "I knew you could play, but I had no idea how well." He turned back to face her and saw her blushing brightly. He smiled. "What?"

Jadzia shook her head. "I really don't play for people all that often. It's never been high on the priority list." Julian smiled and nodded. He was about to say something when they heard crying coming from Cati's room. Julian glanced over, concerned. "I'll be right back," he said, getting up. Dax watched as he disappeared into her room and got up and followed. She saw him sitting on the side of her bed gently rocking her. "It's alright, love. It was only a dream," he whispered consolingly. Cati sobbed something into his shoulder and Julian gently tightened his embrace. Dax gazed at them, remembering how he had jerked awake that night on Bajor when they drifted off. She felt her throat tighten. Oh, gods. How could I have missed it.' She stepped into the room and gently rested her hand on his shoulder. She could feel them shaking softly and she sank down next to him, sliding her arms around him. She rested her head against his shoulder.

Julian closed his eyes tightly and held Cati close. He felt Dax gently hug him and he smiled sadly. He wanted to do something to let her know it was appreciated but his arms were full. Cati's sobbing had lessened and she was gently sniffing and taking ragged breaths. He gently kissed her head and rocked her. He felt a gentle hand brush at his cheek and he turned to face her. Dax gazed at him, concern reflected in her blue eyes. He averted his gaze and glanced back down at Cati. Her breathing had pretty much evened out except for the occasional jagged breath. Julian shifted and lay her back down on the bed. He covered her up and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. He sat up and glanced over his shoulder. Dax had left the room as quietly as she had come. Insanely, he prayed she hadn't left altogether. He walked out of Cati's room and saw her sitting on the couch. Julian took a deep breath and walked over. Dax glanced up as he approached and he hesitated. She stood up and folded him into her arms. Julian closed his eyes and gently leaned into the embrace. He felt like he had to explain what had happened but he wasn't sure where to start.

Jadzia gently held him. When she had seen him holding his sobbing daughter, quietly crying himself, she felt like her heart had split in two. Is that what it was like for Nilani after Torias was killed. Oh, gods...' She choked back a sob. She felt him pull back and gaze at her in concern. She smiled weakly. 'With everything, he's still concerned about others.'

"What's wrong?" he whispered.

Dax shook her head. "Just remembering," she whispered. Julian gazed at her, confused. "Torias," she said softly. "Just stirred a memory." Julian's dark eyes widened and he nodded. He sighed and sank down on the couch, gently pulling her with him. She slid close to him and they leaned against each other. Dax hesitated before asking, "What was wrong?"

"She had a nightmare," he whispered, not completely trusting his voice.

"About Lara?" Julian nodded. Dax stared off into the distance. "Julian, are you sure you don't want to talk?" Julian swallowed and sighed. "There isn't much to say," he sighed.

Dax pulled back and gently touched his chin. "Cati's not the only one who's been having nightmares," she whispered. Julian sighed and turned away. "Julian, please. I care about you so much. I hate to see you like this. At least let me understand why."

"Why?" he whispered bitterly. "Why do you think?"

"Julian I..I didn't mean it like that. I..." She closed her eyes and pulled back. "I'll go. I'm not being much help." She stood up, not wanting him to know how close to tears she was.

"Jadzia," he whispered. He got up and pulled her close. "I know you didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry."

She leaned against him. "Don't apologize. I just...I only want to help."

"And you have." He closed his eyes, resting his head against hers. She sighed. "Can we just forget this?" he asked quietly. He pulled back. She smiled softly and nodded. He nodded and gently hugged her. She leaned against him and closed her eyes. He sighed and released her after a moment. She smiled and they sat back down. She could sense a distance between them that hadn't been there earlier. She bit back a sigh of frustration. They talked for hours about inconsequentialities. Julian asked if she had been keeping in touch with the rest of the crew. She nodded and told him about what had been happening. When she left, he gently kissed her goodnight, but it was nothing spectacular. Dax walked back to her quarters and let her frustration out in a flood of tears.

*******

Julian woke the next morning feeling drained and empty. He sighed and got up. He poked his head in to check on Cati. She was still sound asleep. Mildly stunned, he walked back out. He showered and got dressed and had finished with morning ablutions before she stirred. He walked in and gently brushed a lock of her hair back. His eyes widened and he placed his hand against her forehead. "Oh, my god," he murmured and gently shook her. She stirred and whimpered a bit. "Come on, love. Get up." She shook her head. Julian scooped her up, still stunned by the heat she was radiating. He practically ran to sickbay and placed her on a biobed. She was shivering. "It's going to be alright love," he said. He ran a tricorder over her and frowned. There didn't seem to be any form of infection, viral or bacterial. The only sign there was that she was sick was her fever of 102*F. Cati whimpered and reached for him. "Just a moment love. Don't worry." He went over and got a cooling blanket to help bring her temp down. She didn't like it too much as she began to cry.

"Doctor? Is everything okay?" Julian turned and saw one of his techs standing near.

Julian frowned and shook his head. "I'm not sure." He showed her the tricorder readings. She studied them while he tried to console Cati.

"What do you think?" The assistant shook her head. "There doesn't seem to be any cause of infection."

"I know," he murmured. He reached and picked up a hypo. "Hold on, love. We'll find out what's wrong." He gently pressed the hypo against her arm and withdrew a bit of blood. "Run this through a complete analysis," he said, handing the vial to the tech. She nodded and walked off. Julian smoothed the hair back off Cati's forehead. She seemed a bit cooler. "How're you feeling? Better?" She nodded and sniffed. Julian smiled softly. "Don't worry love. I'm going to find out what's making you sick and then we'll take care of it, alright?" She nodded again. Julian gently kissed her forehead and raised the optional sides on the biobed when toddlers used them. "I've got to go do work now. I'll be back."

" Kay," she sniffled. Julian quietly walked off and glanced at the tech.

"It's running through now," she said. Julian nodded.

"Let me know when it's done. I'll be in the lab." The tech nodded and he walked off. He immersed himself in his work to take his mind off Cati until the tests were done. He nearly jumped out of his skin when the lab tech approached him with the results. "Thank you," he murmured, studying them. Everything seemed normal. Julian sighed and studied the tricorder again. WBC count was high, which pointed to an infection, but no agents were present. The tricorder would have picked that up and the blood screen would have picked up anything more serious. Julian glared at the results and picked up another tricorder and walked back to Cati. She was sleeping soundly as he ran a second scan. He glanced at the results and frowned. Still nothing. He bit his lip and frowned. Something tugged at his memory, but he couldn't put his finger on it. He sighed and tapped his commbadge and said, "Bashir to Dax."

"Go ahead."

"Could you come to the infirmary? I need your opinion on something."

"I'm on my way. Dax out." Julian turned back to Cati and sighed. He felt like he had seen this before, but he couldn't put his finger on it. Dax walked in in a few minutes. "What is it Julian?" She glanced at Cati and her eyes widened. "What's wrong?" she asked, her voice lowering.

"I don't know," he admitted. "But I feel like I should. Come look at this." She followed him into a spacious lab area. He gestured to the two tricorders and the CBC results. She sat down and studied them. He saw her brow furrow and she shook her head. "I don't know, Julian. I can't remember anything like this. The closest thing would be the camp fever all those years ago, but we could find an infectious agent. Did you do a manual scan?"

"Not yet," he said, frowning. "But in that instance, our tricorders could pick something up."

"Except the second time, remember? Maybe this is just as tricky."

Julian nodded. "Alright. But where would she have contracted it from?"

"Primary care?" Dax suggested. "You know kids spread colds and bugs like wildflowers in situations like that. Maybe one of the parents of one of the kids picked up this from an away mission and it doesn't affect them."

Julian nodded. "Alright. It's a start." He glanced at her and smiled. "Thanks."

"No problem. That's my job," she smiled. He nodded and she started out. "Oh, Julian. Don't hesitate to call again. There isn't much going on in the lab." He smiled and she walked out.

"Alright," he murmured. He called the lab tech and told her to run a manual scan of Cati's blood. He'd follow up later with one of his own. "Computer, show me a list of every child in Primary Care 1-3 and their parents names."

*******

Jadzia poked her head in the infirmary at the end of her shift and found him leaning over a scope. "Find anything?"

"Not yet," he admitted. Dax could hear his frustration. She walked over behind her and rested her hands on his shoulders. "Let me take a look." Julian gestured to a second scope and she smiled. She sank down next to him and began looking. "Have you found the potential carrier yet?"

"There are a couple people who could be carrying it. I have them slated for early morning appointments." He frowned and removed the current sample. Dax sent him a concerned glance. "Julian, did you eat at all today?"

"No time," he murmured, sliding another sample in. "Even with the cooling blanket on, her temp is still high."

Dax frown deepened. "You're not doing Cati any good by not eating. Have you taken a break at all?"

"No." He bent over the scanner. Dax stood up and walked over behind him and began massaging his shoulders. He sighed. "Dax."

"Take a break," she murmured. He sighed and closed his eyes. He could feel the muscles in his neck and shoulders loosening up. After several minutes, she said, "Alright. Now, tell me what we know." Her hands worked at the base of his neck. He sighed and began. "Well, she's running a high fever, but there doesn't seem to be any cause."

Dax shook her head. "Julian, don't generalize. Come on, this will help you concentrate."

Julian chuckled softly. "I don't see how," he murmured teasingly. Dax smiled and shook her head.

"Come on," she encouraged.

"Alright, alright." He sighed. "Okay. She's running a high fever. I haven't detected any bacteria or viruses. Her WBC count is elevated, which generally points to an infection but I can't discover any." He tilted his head to the right. "So what does this leave us?"

"What have you been looking for in your manual scans?"

"Anything anomalous," he admitted. "I have no reference to go off of."

"Yes you do. You have an elevated WBC count. What would cause that?"

"An infection," he frowned.

"What else?"

"Do you know something I don't?" he asked, his frustration showing.

"If I did, I would have told you. I'm just trying to get you to think about this." She stopped and simply rested her hands on his shoulders. "We know it's not a known bacteria or virus, so it looks like we have a new one."

"Yes, but where?" Julian turned to face her. She frowned and shook her head.

"That's what we have to find out first. What sets apart your prospective hosts?"

"Different anatomy and immune systems," he shrugged.

"Alright, so tomorrow, we look for a tricorder reading that matches Cati's." She gazed at him.

"That's it?"

"That's all we can do for now," she replied. Julian sighed and gazed at the small form on the biobed. Dax sank down next to him. "Why don't we get something to eat right now." Julian glanced at her and nodded reluctantly. They ordered a small dinner from the replicator and ate in his office. "So what have you done all day?" he asked.

"Absolutely nothing. I can't wait till I'm on bridge duty."

Julian smiled. "When's that?"

"Tomorrow," she smiled. Julian nodded and picked at his meal. "Julian, eat something," Dax sighed in frustration. Julian glanced up and sighed.

"I'm just not hungry," he said.

Dax gazed at him and set her plate down and walked over to him. She gently took his hands in hers. "She's going to be fine," she whispered. "We'll figure this out." Julian smiled wanly and glanced down at their hands. Dax sank down to his level and hugged him gently. "Believe me," she murmured, "I know what you're going through. Anyone who's been a parent does." He held her close, allowing himself to relax. After a moment, she pulled back. She smiled at him gently and he kissed her.

"Thank you," he said softly. "You've been a wonderful friend and incredibly patient. I appreciate it." Dax smiled and nodded. They heard a soft whimpering sound coming from the main infirmary and walked out. "Hey sweetheart," Julian murmured, gently brushing her hair back. "How're you feeling?"

"Sick," she replied, pouting slightly.

Julian bit back a smile. The look on her face was priceless. "What's wrong?" he asked, sitting on the corner of the bed.

"I'm hot!" she said.

"Anything else?" he asked gently. She shook her head miserably. Julian nodded. "Well, we're going to find out what's wrong. Don't worry." Cati nodded and reached for him. Julian scooped her up and held her close. Cati buried her face against his neck. Julian smiled and cradled her. After a moment, Cati lifted her head and glanced over at Jadzia.

"...Lo," she said.

"Hi Cati," she smiled. She reached and brushed her hand over her cheek. She managed to keep her face neutral but she suddenly understood why Julian was so worried. She glanced at Julian and smiled slightly. "I'll see you later," she whispered. She knew he'd want to spend some time with his daughter.

Julian smiled tenderly and nodded. "I'll stop by later on," he replied. She nodded and quietly walked out. Julian turned back to Cati and gently rocked her, lulling her back to sleep.

*******

Dax sat down in her quarters and called up the data she and Julian had been analyzing. She stared at the tricorder results. Nothing seemed wrong except for her fever. Dax sighed. "Computer, is there any previous tricorder data for the subject?"

"There are seventeen different scans for the subject."

"Show me a list." Dax studied her terminal for a moment. "Computer, show me the scans from stardate 50112.4 and today." Dax studied them and sighed. Not a clue. She turned away and stood up and immediately the world swam before her eyes. She sank back down into the chair and swallowed hard. After a moment, her vision cleared. Dax debated calling Julian but decided to wait until he got to her quarters. She frowned suddenly and turned back. "Computer, has the subject Catilynn Bashir received full inoculations?"

"Negative."

"What inoculations is she currently missing?" The computer listed a few. "And would the symptoms of any of the diseases match the tricorder data?"

"Negative."

"Damn," she hissed. The door chimed and she glanced up. "Come in. Computer, discontinue inquiry." Julian stepped in the room and smiled at her. "Is she asleep?" Dax asked.

Julian nodded. "For now."

Dax paused and sighed. "Julian, I hate to add to your troubles but...." He walked over. "What's wrong?" he asked.

"Well, actually, when I stood up a moment ago, everything moved."

"A dizzy spell?" Dax nodded. Julian reached for her hand and helped her up. She closed her eyes for a moment and leaned against him. "Come on. I have a tricorder in my quarters." He supported her as they walked to his room. He tapped the controls and the door slid open. He gently sat her down on the couch and went to get it. He came back and knelt in front of her, running the tricorder over her. "Well, I don't see anything that could cause this," he murmured. "You're temp is a bit higher than normal, which would point to an infection but...." his voice trailed off and he glanced up at her. "You don't show any signs of it."

"Dear lord," she muttered, leaning forward to look at the tricorder. Everything shifted and she began to fall. Julian caught her and eased her back up onto the couch. "I'm the one who got Cati sick," she said softly.

Julian nodded. "It looks that way."

Dax closed her eyes. "Oh, Julian. I'm sorry."

He smiled and shook his head. "Don't worry. It's not like you had any control over it." He glanced back at the readings. "This at least gives me a place to start."

"The inoculations," Dax said. Julian glanced up at her. "It could be that I reacted badly to them and passed whatever this is on to Cati." Julian paused and then nodded. "If that's the case, lets get you to sick bay before you infect the rest of the crew."

"Julian," she said, studying him. "If anyone is infected, it's probably you." He nodded.

"All the more reason to get moving." He helped her up again. "Come on. Lets go." Dax sighed and they left.

*******

Dax stretched out on the biobed and felt him withdraw some blood. "You sure I can't help?" she asked.

"You can barely stand," he replied as he prepared some slides. Dax sighed and glanced over at Cati. Julian moved over to the scopes and began studying the samples. He was about to give up on that one when his eye caught something. "What is this?" He increased the magnification and smiled. "I knew I had seen this somewhere. Only this is the reverse but..." He pulled back and smiled. "That's why yours and Cati's WBC count is up. They aren't white blood cells."

"Run this by me again?"

"Remember the second mutation of the camp fever? RBC count skyrocketed because they weren't red blood cells. Well, they were but they had mitochondrion." Dax nodded, remembering. "Well, we have a similar situation here. Granular monocytes." Julian smiled and picked up one of Cati's slides.

"Granular monocytes? Julian, monocytes are agranular."

"I know," he smiled. "None in here. No wonder I wasn't seeing anything wrong with her blood." He turned to Dax. "Monocytes only make up about three to nine percent of all white blood cells. You usually don't get them in a typical count. But they live longer than the rest of all the white blood cells, up to several months." He grinned. "That's why she's running such a high fever. Monocytes are responsible for a lot of phagocytic action in the blood. An increase in monocytes would lead to an increase in phagocytosis. Increase that, you increase metabolism, which is shown in an increase in body temp." Julian turned back to the scanner. "Now all I need to do is tailor an antidote for this."

"Let me. That's my job." Dax sat up, swaying slightly.

Julian walked over. "Dax...."

"Just lead me to the lab and let me work," she frowned. He hesitated and then helped her over. Dax sat down and began working on a type specific antibody. One mistake and it could wipe out our normal monocytes,' she thought.

*******

"I think this is it," Dax muttered hours later. She glanced over her shoulder and realized Julian had went into his office. "Well, now what?" she muttered. She tapped her commbadge. "Dax to Bashir." Julian appeared at the doorway.

"Why didn't you just call?" he asked.

"I didn't want to wake Cati. This should work," she said, gesturing to her work. Julian walked over and glanced at the data. He smiled after a moment and nodded.

"Good," he murmured. He glanced at her and smiled. She leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes. "You look tired," he murmured, gently brushing at her hair. She smiled and nodded. "Hmm. Come on. Let's get you to bed," he smiled.

Dax shook her head. "No, I'm fine. I'd rather finish this first." Julian hesitated and then nodded.

*******

Julian loaded the hypo and glanced at Jadzia. She smiled and sat down. "I'll be the guinea pig", she teased. Julian chuckled and injected the antibody into her. She smiled at him as he moved over to Cati and gently pressed the hypo against her. He then injected it into himself. He had run a test while she was gone and had determined that he had been infected also. "My only question is how did I give it to Cati?" Dax said.

"You might not have. You could have transferred it to me and I gave it to Cati," he replied. Dax paused and nodded.

"I suppose," she said. "Is there any way of telling which inoculation caused this?"

Julian sighed. "I suppose, but I'll deal with that in the morning." He glanced at Cati's sleeping form. "I suppose she should stay here for tonight," he murmured.

Dax nodded. "Why don't you have one of your assistants keep an eye on her. You looked wiped out." Julian hesitated and nodded. He paged the nurse who was on call and asked her to report. When she arrived, Julian apprised her of the situation and asked her to contact him if anything changed. After that, he and Jadzia had left.

Dax leaned heavily against him, still feeling like the world was spinning. He stopped at her quarters and she tapped the code in. She turned and smiled at him. "Thank you," she said.

Julian smiled and gestured towards the open door. "I could be wrong, but I don't think you could make it to the bedroom if I left you now." Dax smiled and sighed. He helped her in the room and she sank down on the bed. "Oh," she murmured, holding her head. "When will this take effect?"

"I don't know," he admitted, kneeling down in front of her. "Take tomorrow off," he said. Dax looked ready to protest but when she raised her head, her vision swam. She nodded slowly.

"Alright," she murmured. She felt his hand gently brush her cheek and she gazed up at him. He leaned in and kissed her tenderly. Dax closed her eyes and sank into his arms. After a moment, he pulled back. His mind was whirling with conflicting emotions. He gently brushed at a stray hair that had come out of her clip.

"Maybe I should go," he whispered. "Let you get some rest."

"No," she whispered. Julian started and Jadzia felt her cheeks heat up. "You don't have to. I'm not really tired. Not anymore." Julian's dark eyes searched hers. After a moment, he nodded hesitantly.

"Alright," he whispered. "I'll stay for a bit...." Dax smiled and sighed. She glanced at him.

"Well, if you don't mind, I want to get out of my uniform. Make yourself comfortable...." He smiled and got up. After the door had shut behind him, she quickly changed into a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. She took the clip out of her hair and set it on the table next to her bed. After a moment, she stood up and walked out to the main room. Julian was studying the photos she had displayed on her shelf. He turned when he heard the door to the bedroom open and smiled. She concentrated on each step as she made her way over to his side. He quickly slid an arm around her waist when she reached him.

"Why don't we sit down," he suggested. She smiled and nodded. They sank down on the couch. Julian tightened his embrace on her and pulled her close. Jadzia lifted her chin and gazed at him. 'Gods she's beautiful,' he thought, tenderly brushing her hair back from her face. 'Why am I hesitating? Nothing has felt this right since Lara died.' Julian felt her hands slide around his back and he kissed her. He felt her press close against him and he found himself swept up into her touch. After a long moment, he pulled back slightly. She gently nuzzled him and he tenderly kissed her again. He gently deepened the kiss and felt her completely relax in his arms. Julian pulled her close, one arm encircling her waist and the other holding her shoulders.

Dax felt like she was in heaven. After several minutes, she pulled back. She reached up and brushed at his lips with her fingertips. She gazed up at him and smiled tenderly. He bent his head and gently nuzzled the corner of her neck.

"Maybe I'll stay a bit longer than I had planned," he whispered. Jadzia felt her heart pounding as he kissed her. She felt him press her back against the couch and she let out a tiny gasp of delight as he nipped at her neck.

"Sounds good to me," she whispered. Julian met her gaze and smiled. He lightly ran his fingertips along the line of spots on her neck. Dax smiled and reached up and drew his mouth to hers. She could hardly believe it when his commbadge chirped. Julian pulled back, regret apparent in his eyes.

"Bashir here," he said, struggling to keep the disappointment out of his voice.

"Doctor, I just thought you would want to know that Cati's fever is almost gone." Julian glanced at Jadzia and grinned.

"Thank you for contacting me. That is good news. If things change for the worse, though, let me know immediately."

"Of course, Doctor." Julian cut the connection and kissed Dax passionately. She let out a muffled squeak of surprise and he pulled back.

"What...what was that for?" she gasped.

Julian smiled and pulled her up into a sitting position. "I don't know. It just felt like the right thing to do." She giggled softly and shook her head.

"You're hopeless," she smiled. He grinned and pulled her close.

"Nothing has felt this right since Lara died," he whispered. "And it's been far to long since I've felt this good about anything." He tenderly ran his hands through her hair. She smiled and kissed him gently before standing up and pulling him with her. "What?" he asked quietly.

"Well," she grinned. "Unless I've been completely misreading you, I figure we might as well head for the bedroom while we still can." Julian burst out laughing and kissed her.

"What's wrong with the couch?" he asked.

"Not enough room," she murmured, pulling him towards the bedroom. Julian grinned and quickly lifted her into his arms.

"You'd better let me help you," he murmured. "You still look a little dizzy."

"Hmm," she smiled, wrapping her arms around his neck. "I have a feeling that when I lie down, I'll be fine." Julian grinned back and headed towards the room.

*******

Dax winced as the chronometer chimed. She sighed and opened her eyes and smiled. Julian's eyes were shut tight. She reached over and gently brushed at his cheek. He opened his eyes and glanced at her. "What time is it?" he asked.

"Oh, six thirty," she replied, smiling at him. "I take it you're not a morning person," she grinned.

Julian shook his head. "No, not really," he murmured.

"Hmm. That's a shame," she teased. He glanced up at her and grinned.

"You're hopeless," he smiled. Dax wrapped her arms around him and kissed the tip of his nose.

"Absolutely," she murmured. He grinned and kissed her, pressing her back onto the bed. "Hmm," she murmured contentedly as they broke apart. "I could get used to this," she smiled. He smiled and sighed.

"Unfortunately," he said, "I have to get to work. I want to check on Cati."

"I know. Am I still off-duty for today?" she asked. He nodded. "Absolutely."

"In that case, why don't I keep an eye on Cati for you," she said. "We'll probably both sleep most of the time anyhow."

Julian tenderly caressed her cheek. "What would I do without you?" he asked softly. She smiled and gave him a gentle push.

"Get going. You're going to be late otherwise." Julian kissed her quickly and got out of bed.

*******

"Hello Cati," he smiled. Wide awake at her usual time. That's a good sign.'

"Hi Papa," she chirped. He smiled and rested his hand on her forehead.

"Oh, you feel much cooler," he smiled. A part of him felt mildly guilty for not staying with her last night. I'll take tomorrow off and we'll spend the day together,' he thought. "How are you feeling?" he asked.

"Better," she said, reaching for him. He picked her up and held her.

"Well," he said, "let's see how much better." He sat her back down on the bed and picked up a tricorder. "You're fever's almost gone," he smiled. "Looks like you're going to be fine." Cati giggled. "And you have to be the most cheerful sick kid I know," he grinned picking her up and hugging her. "Well, let's take you home. Jadzia's going to be looking after you today. Is that okay?" Cati nodded. He smiled and he turned to the nurse that came in. "I'll be right back. I'm just going to take her home." She smiled and nodded. Julian walked out and headed back to their quarters. He was just passing Dax's quarters when she walked out. He smiled. "Hey. Thank you for offering to watch her today." Cati reached out and Dax took her.

"It's no problem. I've got nothing better going on today," she smiled. Julian grinned and kissed her.

"I'll see you later Cati," he said, placing a kiss on her cheek. "Be good." Julian glanced at Jadzia and smiled. "I'll stop back around lunch."

"Alright. Get going," she teased. Julian grinned and walked off. She followed him with her eyes and turned back to Cati. "Well, kiddo, let's get settled in." She walked the short distance to the quarters.

*******

Julian studied the different vaccinations he had given Dax the other day. He was having a hard time explaining how the weak virus mutated from a dormant form to an active form, plus changing how it affected people. Dax had been complaining of headaches and dizziness and only had a slight fever. Cati had been burning up and hadn't complained of anything else. He leaned over the scanner and studied the affected monocyte. He was so absorbed in his work, he didn't hear Liam approaching. "Julian?"

He jumped and spun around. "Good God, Liam. Don't ever do that again!"

Liam chuckled. "Sorry. What are you working on so intently?"

"An incredibly talented virus," he replied, glancing at the data.

Liam raised an eyebrow. "Well, in that case, I know a good booking agent." Julian chuckled. "I'd ask what you're talking about but, chances are, I wouldn't understand."

Julian smiled. "What do you want Liam?"

"I was wondering where the hell you've been the last couple of days. We had a poker game last night but no one could contact you."

Julian smiled and glanced back at his work. "What time?" he asked.

"About 2400. It was later because Arnwar didn't get off work till then."

"What was he doing till 2400?"

"Oh, updating crew profiles. The usual. So where were you?"

"At 2400?" Julian paused. "Well, to be honest, I was with Commander Dax."

"Oh really?" Liam grinned.

"Liam," Julian sighed. "It's not what you think."

"No, it's exactly what I think," Liam grinned. "I haven't seen you look this happy since before Lara died. You can't tell me that that pretty science officer isn't the reason."

Julian smiled and shook his head. "Well...."

"Ah, ha! I knew it." Liam grinned. "I wish I had your luck!"

Julian laughed and shook his head. "It helps that Dax and I are old friends." He smiled at Liam. "Besides, what about Meleria? I know that you're interested in her."

"She's too busy mooning over *you* my friend! Or haven't you noticed?"

"Actually, I haven't," Julian replied, rasing his brows.

"Oh, you really have had your head buried in the sand, my friend," Liam said. "I'm glad you're returning to your old self."

Julian sighed. "It doesn't seem real, actually."

"Bet it did last night," Liam smirked. Julian cracked up. "Well, I've got work to do," Liam grinned.

"Thank God," Julian muttered, smiling. Liam nodded and walked out. Julian chuckled and turned back to his work.

*******

Dax sat on the couch and scooped Cati up. "So, what story do you want to hear?"

"I dunno," she said. Dax smiled slightly.

"Well, I can't tell you a story if you don't tell me what story you want to hear." Cati gazed up at her. "What?" Dax asked. "Do you feel hot again?" She rested her hand on Cati's forehead. Cati shook her head.

"I'm hungry," she said. Dax glanced at the chrono.

"Well, Papa'll be home in a bit so we'll eat then. How does that sound?" Cati nodded her assent. "So, what story...." The door slid open and Julian walked in. Dax smiled at him. "Hello. We were just talking about you." Cati slid off Dax's lap and ran over and hugged him around the knees.

"Hello, love," Julian smiled, lifting her up. Jadzia stood up and headed over. Julian wrapped an arm around her waist and kissed her quickly. She smiled. "Were you good?" he asked Cati. She nodded and squirmed to get down. Julian smiled and set her down. He turned to Jadzia and slid his now free arm around her. "Hello," he smiled. Dax leaned and kissed him. He pulled back after a brief moment. Cati was looking at a picture book sitting on the table. He smiled and turned back to Jadzia. "How's she doing?"

"Fine," she replied. "She's still a bit listless at times but I suppose that's normal." Julian nodded and studied her.

"How are you feeling?" he asked. She smiled.

"I'm fine. But we're both hungry, aren't we Cati?" she asked, turning to the little girl. Cati nodded but didn't look up. He turned to Dax and raised an eyebrow. He didn't miss the look that crossed Dax's face. Julian gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze.

"She's probably not sure how to react to the two of us," he whispered. Dax nodded and smiled at him. "How about lunch?" he asked, glancing at Cati. Cati nodded and smiled happily at him. Julian smiled and glanced at Dax. "What do you want?"

"Just some soup," she replied. "I'm starving, but...."

"Dizzy spells tend to take their toll on the stomach," Julian finished for her. "Cati? What do you want for lunch sweety?"

"Grilled cheese," she said.

"Alright," he replied and walked over to the replicator.

*******

Dax stretched out on the couch as best as she could. Cati had fallen asleep while they were reading an old terran fairy tale. Dax smiled and gently brushed her hair back. Cati hadn't been quite as cheerful around her as she had the last few days. At first, she had written it off to being sick, but she had seen how Cati had reacted when Julian had came home. Dax sighed. She half expected this to happen but had hoped it wouldn't. Julian had said he'd talk to Cati about it later that evening, so she felt a bit better. Dax closed her eyes and felt herself drift off.

Several hours later, Julian walked in and found the two of them asleep on the couch. He smiled at the sight. Dax had one protective arm around Cati, who was curled up on her lap. Julian walked over and gently brushed Cati's hair back. She stirred slightly at his touch but didn't wake. He picked up the little girl and carried her into her room. He gently lay her down on the bed and pulled an extra light blanket out and covered her up. He stood for a moment watching her to make sure she hadn't woke up and then slipped out. He walked back to the couch and sank down on the floor next to Dax. He was half tempted to carry her to the bedroom so she'd be more comfortable but he knew she was a light sleeper, so he didn't dare take the chance of waking her. He heard the door chime so he stood up and walked over to open the door. It slid open to reveal Meleria standing there. "Hi," she said, smiling. "Where were you yesterday. We missed you." Julian smiled slightly and was about to respond when Meleria caught sight of Jadzia sound asleep on the couch. "Oh. I didn't realize you had company...."

Julian gestured for them to step out into the hallway. "Jadzia offered to take care of Cati today. They both came down with a virus and she was ordered to take today off. They both fell asleep on the couch I guess."

"I didn't see Cati," Meleria said.

"I had just taken her into her room," Julian replied.

"Oh. So where were you last night?"

"Trying to figure out what was wrong with Cati and Dax," Julian said.

Meleria glanced at him, curiously. "You look like you didn't get much sleep," she observed.

Julian smiled and nodded. "I didn't. I was up half the night working on an antibody for them with Jadzia."

"I thought you said she was infected."

"She was, but she insisted on helping because she felt guilty about transferring the virus to Cati...and I'm not making much sense am I?"

"No," Meleria laughed. "You're not." Julian chuckled. "Why don't you get some sleep?" Meleria said. "I'll see you later."

Julian smiled and nodded. "Thanks Mel. I'll see you later."

"Of course. We might play again tonight. I'll let you know."

"Thanks. I don't know if I'll be able to go, but we'll see." Mel nodded and walked off. Julian walked back into his quarters.

Jadzia glanced up at him. "Who was at the door?"

Julian raised an eyebrow. "Did that wake you?" Dax nodded. "I'm sorry," he murmured.

"That's okay. No big deal." Dax sat up and studied him critically. "You look like you need some sleep." Julian smiled and shot her a teasing glance. "Don't look at me like that," she grinned. "You're partly to blame." Julian smiled and nodded.

"Yes, well..." he was interrupted by a yawn. Dax giggled.

"Go to bed," she said.

"Same to you," he teased pulling her up.

"Julian..." He shook his head and led her to the bedroom. "Not that. You need the rest as much as I do and I really don't see the need for either of us to sleep on the couch."

"I could go back to my room," she said smiling.

Julian shook his head. "I don't see much point in that either." Dax smiled and sank down on the bed next to him. He pulled her close and they fell asleep within minutes.

*******

"Braen to Bashir." Julian winced and tapped his commbadge as he cleared his throat. "Bashir here."

"Poker game in my quarters at 2200. Sound good?"

Julian glanced at the chrono and sighed. It was 2000. "Uh, let me get back to you on that. I just woke up."

"Alright. Tell Dax too. The rest of us want to reclaim a couple credits from her."

"Will do. Bashir out." Julian sat up and walked out to the main room.

"Morning Papa!" Cati cheered. She was sitting at the table eating dinner. Dax glanced up and smiled.

"I didn't want to wake you so I got dinner ready for her."

Julian smiled. "Thank you." He placed a kiss on Cati's forehead and glanced. "Hmm. Tuna casserole."

"She asked for it," Dax smiled.

"Yeah, it's one of her favorites," Julian said. He glanced at Cati, who was sullenly listening to their conversation and sending wary glances at Dax. He walked over to the replicator and ordered a sandwich. "I don't particularly care for it, though, so it's rare that she gets it."

Dax smiled. "I'm glad I only replicated enough for the two of us then." Julian smiled and sat down. "Meleria just paged me to let me know of a poker game tonight" he said. "She said to pass the news on."

Dax nodded. "Alright. What time?"

"2200," he replied. "I can get Sheria to watch Cati for tonight."

"Yay!" Cati cheered.

"But you'll be asleep, so you won't even know that she's here," Julian smiled at the little girl.

"I want to play with Sheria!" she protested.

Julian sighed. "Cati, it's almost your bedtime. You're eating late, so you can stay up a bit later, but you're not staying up until ten p.m." Cati pouted. "Don't start Cati," Julian frowned. Cati sighed dramatically and took another bite of her food. Julian sighed and shook his head. Dax glanced at them and turned to Julian. "I'm going to go back to my quarters and change. I'll see you later?"

Julian nodded. "At Meleria's quarters, room 0712. Do me a favor and let her know we're coming." Dax nodded and walked out. Julian turned back to Cati. "Cati," he said. She glanced up. "We need to talk." He motioned for her to come over. She got down and climbed up into his lap. "Love, what's wrong? Don't you like Jadzia?"

"Yes," she frowned.

"But..." Julian prompted.

"She's not mommy!" Cati proclaimed. Julian took a deep breath and nodded. "No, she's not. But she's a very good friend of Papa's and she and we will probably be spending a lot of time together." Cati pouted. "Catilynn," Julian said gently. "I know this is very strange but if something is bothering you, tell me rather than acting rude alright?" Cati nodded. "I know you miss mommy," Julian said softly, hugging her. "So do I. But Jadzia's very special to me and I'd like for the two of you to get along. Can you try?" Cati nodded solemnly. Julian smiled and kissed her forehead. "Thank you. Now, what do you say I call Sheria and see if she can come over early?"

"Yay!" Cati crowed happily. Julian smiled and shook his head.

*******

Jadzia walked up to Meleria's quarters and rang the chime. She heard several voices call come in and the doors slid open. Liam and Arnwar smiled and greeted her cheerfully. Mel smiled and asked if she wanted a drink. "No, thanks. Not right now," Dax replied, smiling.

"Do you know where Julian is?" Liam asked.

She shook her head. "He said he was coming. Maybe he's having trouble getting Cati to bed." Liam nodded and hid a smile. Dax paused and shook her head. "What's so funny?" she asked.

"Nothing," Liam replied, smiling.

Arnwar grinned. "So, did the card shark bring her winnings from the last game?"

Dax grinned back and held out the bag full of credits.

"Where on earth did you learn how to play poker so well?" Mel asked.

"Curzon," Julian smiled as he walked in. "If I'm not mistaken." chuckled. "Curzon was my previous host," Dax explained. "He had the reputation for being a bit of a hustler."

"In every sense of the word," Julian said, sitting down. "Sorry I'm late."

"That's alright. Can I get you anything?" Mel asked. Julian shook his head.

"Well, since we're all here," Liam said, "let's get started. Five card stud," he announced as he dealt. "Nothing wild."

*******

Julian studied his hand and glanced up, attempting to keep a straight face. I just haven't been getting the cards I need tonight.' He watched as Mel tossed in 25 credits and frowned. Dax glanced at her and back at her hand. "I'll see your 25, and raise you 50."

Julian tossed his cards down in frustration. "I fold." Liam smiled and glanced at Arnwar, who was neatly setting his cards down.

"Same here," he said. Liam glanced at Dax and studied her face. It was his turn to bet. Seventy five credits? I don't think so.'

"I fold too." Dax's gaze shifted back to Mel. She frowned at the pile and reached for her chips.

"Fifty and a raise of 15." Dax hesitated and looked like she might waffle and sighed.

"Alright 15, raise 10."

"Ten raise twenty," Mel said without hesitation. Julian's brows flew up.

"Two hundred and twenty," he choked out. Dax glanced at him and then back at the pile.

"Call," she said, throwing in her twenty chips. "What do you have?" she asked.

Mel grinned and spread her cards out on the table. "Straight flush." Liam whistled softly. Mel grinned and reached for the chips only to find herself staring at Dax's cards spread over the chips.

"*Royal* flush," came the calm response. Mel's eyes widened and she stared. Arnwar chuckled softly and began to clap. He was quickly joined by Liam and Julian. Mel shook her head slowly and withdrew her hands from the pile of chips. She glanced at Dax's straight face and grinned.

"Remind me to never play poker with a joined Trill again." Dax laughed and pulled the chips toward her.

"And on that note," Arnwar said, "I'm quitting. Our new science officer has taken far too many credits from me tonight." Dax grinned and closed the bag she had brought with her. He got up from the table. "I'll see you all tomorrow," he replied. Everyone nodded and he walked out.

Mel sighed as shook her head. "I still can't believe you got a royal flush! Why were you hesitating when betting?"

"To make you bet more," Dax grinned. She heard Julian laughing from his spot on the couch.

"You are a card shark," Liam grinned. Dax shrugged and leaned back in the chair. He turned to Mel and Julian. "We're going to have to get those credits back you realize," he said.

Julian glanced at Dax out of the corner of his eye and smiled. "Good luck. If I remember correctly, you *did* wipe Quark out several years ago playing tongo."

"He was already in trouble. It's not my fault he wasn't paying attention to the game." Dax smiled and walked over to him and sank down on the couch. Julian laughed and slid an arm around her waist. She smiled up at him and sighed happily.

Liam smiled at the couple and glanced at Mel. He didn't miss the look of disappointment in her eyes. 'He's not the only one who's blind, Mel,' Liam thought. He walked over and rested his hand on her shoulder.

She turned quickly. "What is it Liam?"

He hesitated and then said. "I've got to be going. I'll see you later?" She smiled and nodded.

Julian glanced up at them and smiled slightly. "I should be going too. I don't want to keep Sheria up doing nothing."

"Chances are that she's asleep on the couch," Liam grinned. Julian smiled and turned to Jadzia.

"I'll see you later?" She nodded and smiled at him as he left behind Liam.

Meleria hesitated and turned to clean up. "Do you want a hand?" Dax asked. Mel glanced up startled and then nodded. "Sure. Thanks." They picked up the dishes of food that they had replicated and straightened up. "How long have you known Julian?" Mel asked after a moment.

"Oh, for about twelve years now," Dax replied.

"And you served with him aboard DS9 for seven years and never once asked him out?"

Dax glanced up, amused. "No. Rather ironic isn't it."

"Insane is more like it," Mel murmured.

Dax arched an eyebrow. "Maybe, but I'd say things have worked out pretty well."

"For you," Meleria snipped. "He's lost his wife and is trying to raise Cati by himself. I'd say things haven't gone exactly how he wanted them to."

"I don't doubt it," Dax replied, keeping calm. "No one wants to lose anyone they love, especially a spouse. Just ask my former wife."

Meleria glanced up, confused. "Your former *wife*?"

"When I was joined to Torias I was married to Nilani Kahn. Torias was killed in a shuttle craft testing impulse engines."

"I see," Meleria murmured. "I don't think I'll ever get used to the concept of symbiosis. No offense, it's just very difficult to grasp, having all those memories that aren't yours."

Dax nodded silently. "Meleria, I'd like for us to be friends. I know you care about Julian and I know I probably didn't fit into your plans but..." Meleria smiled. "It's alright. I guess that's just how the universe decided to settle things. He's obviously happy." Dax felt her cheeks flush slightly. "How much did you know about him since he came to the Melbourne?"

Dax smiled ruefully. "We lost contact a while ago. I had no idea he was married, much less a father."

Meleria looked shocked. "Oh. I had assumed...I mean, it didn't seem to phase you much."

"You get used to dealing with surprises after 300 years."

Meleria nodded. "I suppose so. Have a seat," she said. Dax smiled and sat down on the couch. "Has he told you what happened? I mean, did he tell you anything about Lara?"

Dax shook her head. "Bits and pieces. I know she played the piano, but other than that, not really. I don't want to push him. I figure if he wants to tell me, he will."

Meleria nodded. "You're dying of curiosity, aren't you?"

Dax smiled. "Well, I've always hated mysteries. And I do want to know about her. I would have liked to meet her," Dax admitted. "Julian was very happy with being single on DS9 and had often stated he didn't want to marry and that he wasn't the family type."

"You're kidding me!" Meleria looked mildly surprised. "You'd never be able to tell. Especially if you see him with Cati." Dax nodded. "As for Lara, she was a scientist. In fact, she was the Chief Science officer." Dax's eyes widened. Meleria smiled slightly. "Yeah, I know. Two scientists in five years. They were both killed in attacks too. People joke that there's a curse...uh, no offense."

"None taken. I'm not very superstitious anyhow." Dax hesitated. "How did she die? I mean, not to be morbid or anything but.."

Mel shook her head. "It's not. She had been in sick bay with Julian and Cati when the ship was attacked. The console she was sitting at just exploded." Meleria sighed. "She didn't even have a chance. I think that was what hit Julian the hardest that he couldn't have done anything for her, even if he wanted to."

"Oh, my God," Dax murmured. "I had no idea. No wonder..." she shook her head.

Meleria nodded silently. "It shook us all pretty badly. Cati and Julian had been pretty badly hurt too."

Dax sighed. "Do you know who attacked?" Mel shook her head.

"Well, if you don't mind, I'd like to switch the topic," Mel said after a moment.

"Of course," Dax replied.

They talked for a bit longer and Dax glanced at the chrono. "I should be going. It's late."

"Right," Mel replied. "You know, I'm glad I got to know you a bit better rather than...."

"Considering me the competition?" Dax smiled. Meleria grinned and nodded. Dax said good night and walked out.

*******

Julian heard the door chime softly and glanced up. "Come in," he called quietly. The door slid open and Dax walked in. "Hey," he smiled, setting the PADD he had been reading down and standing up. "I was wondering if you were going to come here." Dax smiled as he wrapped his arms around her. "Were you talking with Meleria this whole time?" Dax nodded and Julian smiled. "I'm glad the two of you are getting along. She's a good friend."

Dax smiled at him and kissed the tip of his nose. "Well, we're not the best of friends but..." Julian cut her off, kissing her. Dax pressed back happily. After a long moment he pulled back.

"And you used to say I talk too much," he grinned. Dax laughed softly and kissed him back. Julian began taking steps backwards, heading towards the bedroom. Dax pulled back and grinned.

"Hey," she murmured. "Where do you think you're going?" Julian pulled her close and kissed her. Dax closed her eyes and sank against him, not sure her knees would support her. After several minutes he pulled back.

"Where do you think?" he asked. Dax took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"Just checking," she whispered. He grinned and they kissed again.

*******

Julian stirred early the next morning and felt someone pulling on his arm. He winced and glanced over. "Cati?" he asked, his voice still rusty from sleep. "What sweety?" He felt Dax stir next to him and he smiled ruefully. 'Oh, this is interesting.'

"It's time to get up," Cati smiled. Julian glanced at the chronometer and groaned. "Cati, it's 5 a.m. Go back to bed. It's too early to be up." He felt Dax curl up behind him when she heard the time. He glanced over his shoulder and saw that she had buried her face into her pillow. He grinned and turned back to Cati. He saw the look on her face and sighed. "Cati," he began. "I don't have to be at work for three more hours." 'Actually, I'm not going to work, but she doesn't have to know that now.'

"How long is that?"

"Very long," he replied. "Go back to bed."

"I don't want to," she protested. Julian sighed in frustration. "Can't I stay here?" she asked.

Julian hesitated and glanced back at Dax. She seemed to have consented to the fact that it was 5 and she was up. She met his gaze and smiled slightly and nodded. Julian turned back. "Alright, but you'd better sleep or it's back in your own bed." Cati smiled and climbed up. Julian smiled slightly and glanced at Jadzia again. She simply smiled and slid closer to him. He gently wrapped an arm around her waist and kissed the tip of her nose.

"Morning," she whispered. He smiled and glanced at Cati.

"Sorry," he whispered in response. Dax smiled and just rested her head against his chest. Julian closed his eyes and allowed himself to relax slightly. 'I think Cati and I are going to have another talk....' Julian glanced down at her and realized she was asleep. He gently nudged Jadzia. She lifted her head and frowned.

"What?" she whispered.

"She's asleep. I'm going to take her back to her room."

"Alright," she replied. Julian reached for his robe and pulled it on as he got out of bed. He glanced at Jadzia and smiled as he scooped Cati up. Dax sighed and sank back onto the bed and closed her eyes. She heard Julian re-enter the room and felt him climb back into bed.

"Jadzia?"

She opened her eyes and glanced at him. "Hmm?" He smiled and gently brushed a lock of hair off her forehead.

"Nothing," he murmured. "Just checking to see if I was up?" she asked, smiling. He smiled and pulled her close and kissed her. She sighed happily and returned it. He pulled back and smiled. "Yes," he said. Dax grinned and shook her head.

*******

Julian was woken up by Cati pouncing on his back. "Oomph," he gasped. Cati grinned. "Cati, you've really got to stop doing that," he said. She smiled and then giggled as he reached back and pulled her off.

"Morning," she chirped with her usual enthusiasm.

"We've been over this already," he teased. Cati giggled. Julian glanced at the chronometer. "Now, why can't you get up at this time on a regular basis?" Cati stood up and hopped off the bed.

"Get up!" she said.

Julian grinned. "You're beginning to sound like your mother," he muttered in Arabic. Cati glanced at him curiously and he shook his head. "Go on and let me get dressed and then I'll get you breakfast." He had kept the promise to himself and had taken today off to spend some time with her. Dax had left earlier to get ready for duty, all the while grumbling that he had the day off. Julian chuckled in remembrance as he showered and got dressed. He walked out and found Cati coloring at the table. Julian smiled. "Alright, munchkin. What do you want for breakfast?"

*******

Julian stretched out on a blanket and glanced at Cati. She was giggling and chasing after butterflies. He grinned and sat up. 'Thank God for holodecks,' he thought, watching his daughter try to creep up on one and laugh as it flew away just before she could get it. 'I actually thought that I wasn't the family type,' he mused and Cati ran towards him. Just before she tackled him, he caught her and lifted her up high. "Did you think you could get me that easily?" he grinned and she shrieked happily. He grinned and set her down. "You should know better than that," he teased, touching the tip of his nose to hers. Cati grinned and hugged him. Julian smiled.

"When's lunch Papa?" she asked.

"Computer, time?"

"1232 hours."

Julian glanced back at her. "Now," he smiled. Cati reached for the picnic basket and hunted through it. "Hey, hey, hey," he protested. "Hang on. At least let me set the food out." Cati sat back and watched patiently as he pulled out some sandwiches and drinks. He shook his head. "Alright. Dig in." Cati happily reached for a sandwich. "Well, it's good that you have your appetite back," Julian smiled and helped himself. He loved spending time with her. She was so much like her mother at times, it scared him. Other times, he found it a quiet consolation.

Cati quickly finished her lunch and started chasing butterflies again until she discovered grasshoppers. Julian couldn't help but laugh at her energy. After he finished, he joined her in chasing various critters for a bit until he realized they should be getting back. Cati pouted the whole walk back to their quarters but fell sound asleep while he was reading to her.

Julian glanced back at her and smiled and he shut the door. It had been a good day and to top things off, he could actually catch up on some reading he had planned on doing. Julian sank down on the couch and picked up the PADD he just started reading last night when Dax came in. Lara had always pestered him to read it, but he had never found the time. "Le Fantome de l'Opera," he read and sighed. "In the original French, of course," Julian muttered. "You were more of a linguist than I." Julian tapped the controls and began to read. Five pages into the book, he realized he wouldn't be able to put it down until the end. No wonder you loved this. It's blunt, straightforward. It reads like a med journal.' Julian chuckled and shook his head.

Halfway through the book, the door chimed. 'Ah, the Elysian peace ends,' he thought, setting the PADD down. "Come in."

The door slid open and Gloria Marek walked in. "Gloria," Julian smiled. "What are you doing here?"

"Checking to see how my favorite godchild is doing," she smiled. Julian smiled. Lara had been somewhat religious and had somewhat insisted on a christening for Cati. "She's fine," he replied. "Sleeping off the days events."

"So she's been her usual active self, huh?" Julian chuckled and nodded. Cati was somewhat famous, or infamous depending on who you were talking to, for her endless energy. Gloria smiled. "Good. I take it then that there's no risk to the ship."

Julian shook his head. "No, I highly doubt it." Julian studied the older woman. "But you're not here to talk about ship medical status, are you?"

Gloria smiled. "No. I'm wondering how you're doing. We really haven't talked much lately."

"I'm fine," Julian replied.

Gloria scrutinized him. "I know. It's a small ship. Rumors don't take that long to circulate."

Julian glanced at her and frowned. "What. This is about Dax?"

Gloria nodded. "Julian, I don't have to tell you that the crew is going to be a little leery of her for a while, considering everything that's happened."

"No, you don't," Julian muttered.

"Julian, I'm not here to tell you to stop seeing Dax. I'm just saying keep it discrete, that's all." Julian hesitated and nodded. "Good. Now, what were you reading?"

"The Phantom of the Opera," he admitted.

"What on earth possessed you to pick up a nineteenth century French novel?"

Julian smiled slightly. "Lara had been trying to get me to read it. I just never had the time until now." Gloria smiled and nodded.

"Well, I'll leave you alone. You'll be back on duty tomorrow?" Julian nodded. She smiled and left. Julian sighed softly and picked up the PADD again.

*******

"Approaching C'tarie Five," P'rae announced.

"Hail them," Marek said. Preliminary studies had shown C'tarie Five to be an advanced civilization. Star Fleet Command wanted to open diplomatic talks with them.

"Aye sir. Recieving a response, sir."

"On screen." The view of the planet was replaced by an office and a commanding humanoid sitting behind a desk. "I am Captain Gloria Marek of the U.S.S. Melbourne. To whom do I have the pleasure of speaking to?"

"I am the First Essen of C'tarie Five." Gloria hesitated over the word the universal translator failed to translate. Whoever he was, he obviously carried himself as a man of great importance. "You are from the United Federation of Planets, correct?"

Marek hesitated and then nodded. "That is correct. Have you been expecting us?"

"We only knew that you were passing through this sector. We assumed that you would stop. Arrangements have been made to receive a small landing party, if you so wish to send one."

"I would."

"I will have the coordinates sent to your ship." The man cut the connection. Gloria sat back in her seat, a look of mild amusement on her face.

"Receiving coordinates, Captain."

"Good. Transfer them to the transporter room. Commander Braen, you have the conn."

"Yes Captain."

"Marek to Bashir and Michaels. Meet me in transporter room two. Dax, B'Ler, you're with me." The three officers strode to the turbolift. "Transporter room two."

*******

Julian strode into the transporter room and nodded at the captain, B'Ler and Dax as he stepped up onto the transporter pad. Liam darted in and smiled. "Sorry. Last minute instructions." Marek nodded and turned to the transporter operator as Liam stepped into place.

"Do you have the coordinates?"

"Yes sir."

"Energize." The five officers disappeared in a wash of blue energy and rematerialized in an attractive courtyard. Dax glanced around and smiled. Bright flowers were neatly arranged in beds and several trees threw shade over the area. She glanced behind them and saw the First Essen aproaching them. She touched Julian's elbow and motioned with her head. The group turned and the Captain smiled. "First Essen, It's an honor to be here. This is my Chief of Security, Arnwar B'Ler, my Chief Engineer, Liam Michaels, my Chief Medical Officer, Dr. Julian Bashir, and my Chief Science officer, Commander Jadzia Dax."

He nodded and smiled slightly. "If you will follow me, I have made arrangements for you to stay this evening in the Orane."

"The Orane?" Julian asked, confused.

"I'm afraid our universal translators have not been able to translate a few of your words," the Captain explained.

The First Essen nodded understandingly. "I see. Well, I will try to help clarify whatever I can."

"Thank you," Marek smiled. He nodded and gestured for them to follow. The Captain matched his pace and struck up a conversation. Dax looked around as they walked. Attractive buildings lined the street. The closest thing Dax could liken their construction to would be stucco or adobe. They were colored warmly, whether natural or applied, she couldn't tell. They were walking down a wide street to a large building. She glanced at Julian and saw him studying his surroundings also. The walked up a small flight of stairs and the Essen stopped. "You will be taken to your rooms by servants. Make yourselves comfortable. Someone will be here to escort you to the Palace later." They nodded and were led inside. They were separated and the women were lead to one wing while the men to the other. Julian couldn't help but be a bit apprehensive at this. He glanced at B'Ler, who seemed relaxed and relaxed a bit himself. Once they were settled in their individual quarters, Julian walked over to B'Ler's and found Liam and him talking.

"So, what do you make of this place so far?" he asked.

B'Ler glanced up and smiled. "They're telepathic," he replied. Julian's eyebrows shot up. "I haven't had a chance to tell the captain, though. They're very honest, peace-loving. It reminds me of Betazed." He saw both men relax visibly. "I know. I felt the same way about this until we contacted them."

"So, what does Essen mean?" Liam asked.

"From what I can tell, he's the right hand man to the leader of the planet."

"From what you can tell?' " Liam echoed. "Can't you just tell telepathically?"

"It's against Betazoid morals to pry into someone's mind," Arnwar frowned. Julian held up his hands. "Look, why don't we try to meet up with the Captain and Dax and we'll talk." The others nodded and walked out. B'Ler took a moment and then gestured. "There's someone in there. I'm sure we can ask them where to find them." They walked over and B'Ler called out mentally. He felt the person start and whoever it was opened the door. "Can I help you?" B'Ler stepped forward. "We're part of the landing party from the U.S.S. Melbourne. We were wondering where to find the rest of our party."

"They were taken to the Orwarn."

"What's that?" Julian asked, not really caring for diplomacy at that moment.

"Their rooms," the man replied.

Julian frowned as the door shut and he turned to Arnwar. "Well?" Arnwar frowned and shrugged. "He wasn't lying. Whatever the Orwarn is, that's where they are."

"Arnwar, I want more than that. I want to know how to find them." Julian frowned. Arnwar sighed and closed his eyes and searched out the man's mind. He started to gently probe and everything went black.

*******

Dax stepped into the room she had been led to and froze. "Oh, my God," she gasped. The room was huge, ornately decorated. Dax took several steps in and glanced around. A day bed, a couch and a large bed were all visible. There was no other furniture in the room. She heard a sound behind her and spun around. She saw the captain standing there. "Oh. Your room is the same too. I had hoped...." Dax smiled and shook her head. "I wonder where the rest of the away team is..." Gloria glanced around uncomfortably.

"Not used to this type of decoration?" Dax asked.

"The decor I'm used to. However, the meaning behind *this* particular decor I don't want to imagine." Dax smiled and motioned for them to leave. She didn't particularly care for it either. They were starting to leave when the person who had shown them to their rooms appeared.

"Is something wrong with your quarters?" he asked.

Dax glanced at the captain who replied, "Actually yes. I guess you could say we aren't used to such elegance. If you have something more...simple, it would be appreciated."

"Of course," he smiled. They were led up the hallway and the man gestured to two rooms. "These should do," he said and walked off. Dax opened the door and sighed. It was similar in design except it was lacking some of the gauziness. She turned back to the Captain who was staring at the room in dismay.

"What do you say we find the rest of the party," she said. Marek nodded and they started off.

*******

"Arnwar? Can you hear me?" Julian glanced down at the security chief and up at Liam.

"What happened?" Liam asked.

"I don't know," Julian replied. "If I had to guess, I'd say he was attacked mentally."

Liam frowned and glanced warily around. Arnwar was beginning to stir. "Take it easy," Julian suggested.

"Where'd the bastard go?" Arnwar muttered. "He and I have a score to settle."

"Relax. We'll find him later. Are you alright?"

"I'll be fine," he replied. "Let's find the Captain and Dax. We need to talk." They headed back the way they had been led in and soon found themselves in the main room they had first entered. Dax and the Captain were sitting there.

"Thank God," Julian murmured. The two officers looked up and smiled.

"There you are. We were begining to wonder," Dax said.

"We had a run in with one of the locals," Liam frowned.

Marek glanced around and then back towards them. "Why don't we go somewhere to talk."

"How close are your quarters?" Julian asked. "Ours are at the end of the hallway."

"Close," Marek replied, wincing. "But they aren't exactly designed for talking."

Julian glanced at them confused. "What?"

"Never mind," Dax said, trying not to laugh.

"Fine," Arnwar said. "We'll head back to mine." The five of them headed off and arrived at his quarters. As soon as they were inside, Liam turned to them. "Our hosts are telepaths," he said.

"Telepaths?" Dax said, startled. "Really?"

Arnwar nodded. "I have the headache to prove it." He quickly related what had happened to the other two. "I have a feeling it wasn't an offensive attack so much as defensive."

Gloria nodded and was about to say something when the door opened. A startled looking C'tareian was standing there. "I..I'm sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt." Arnwar had a brief flash of intense embarrassment from the man before his shields went up. "I was asked to escort you to the Palace."

"Of course," Marek said. "Lead the way." She and Liam took the lead as Julian, Dax and Arnwar fell a couple steps behind. "What did the captain mean about your rooms?" Julian asked quietly.

Dax bit back laughter. "Exactly what she said. They weren't decorated to be conducive to talking. I didn't even see a chair in it."

Julian's brows flew up. "Oh," was all he could manage.

They walked down an expansive road and arrived at the Palace. Dax's eyebrows raised. It was made of the same material as the rest of the buildings, so it was only one level. But that one level stretched out. They were lead up to the front door and allowed to enter. Once inside, they were lead down a wide hallway to a set of high doors. The doors opened and they entered. Dax looked around. The room was decorated ornately, mirrors on the walls, along with several weavings. Dax glanced forward and saw the First Essen standing next to a regal looking female, who Dax assumed was the leader. They were motioned to stop by the Essen. Marek took a step forward. "I am Captain Gloria Marek of the U.S.S. Melbourne."

The woman smiled and stood. "I am Pertia, Minister of C'tarie Five. It is an honor to have you with us, Captain. You have already met Har'ene, First Essen."

"Yes," she replied. "He was most helpful."

"I'm pleased to hear that. I would like to hear more about you and your kind. I notice that you are all not of the same race."

"That's correct. Commander Dax is a Trill. Lt. Commander B'Ler is a Betazoid. The rest of us are Terrans."

"I see. We have heard a little bit about Star Fleet and the Federation from our own vessels, but it has been greatly limited. There will be a dinner tonight, here at the palace. We can talk more then."

"Of course. If you wouldn't mind, I would like to bring the rest of my senior staff along with me, if that is acceptable."

"Of course. And your families are welcome also. How many would that be in addition?"

Marek glanced at Julian who nodded. "Two others. My first officer and my Chief Medical Officer's little girl."

"That will be fine. I'll make sure the necessary preparations are made."

"Thank you."

"Har'ene will escort you back to your rooms." Before Marek could say anything, they were escorted out of the hall. Har'ene turned to them.

"Follow me, please," he smiled.

"Har'ene," Marek began quietly. "About our rooms...."

"Yes?" he asked. "Are they not acceptable?"

"Well, to be blunt, not really. At least, I'm not comfortable with them. Neither is Commander Dax."

"I see. Perhaps something more opulent?"

"No! No. Actually, something similar to my other officers quarters would be best."

Har'ene stopped and studied her. "You are serious," he said after a moment.

"Quite," she replied. "Har'ene, I do not know your peoples customs but they appear to be very different from ours."

"I see. Well, if that is what you wish..." He seemed genuinely confused.

"Yes."

"Then it shall be done." He nodded and left them in the main hall after briefly speaking to one of the servants. The servant seemed just as stunned but turned to them none-the-less. "If you'll follow me."

"Actually, Captain," Julian said. "If I may beam up to the ship, I need to get Cati ready..."

"Of course. Inform Commander Braen about tonight." Julian nodded and signaled for beamout.

*******

"A party?" Cati asked, wide eyes.

Julian smiled. "Yes. But you have to promise to be on your best behavior."

Cati grinned and nodded happily. "I promise!!"

"Good. Now, lets find you something to wear..." Meleria had beamed down with the others dress uniforms. Julian quickly hunted an outfit out for Cati and grabbed his dress uniform. He had just finished brushing out Cati's curly dark hair when his commbadge chirped. "Bashir here."

"We've just been notified that we are to go, Doctor. Are you and Cati ready?"

"On our way," he replied. He set the brush down and glanced at Cati. He suddenly began to wonder if this was such a good idea. He sighed. 'Too late now.' "Come on, love. Let's go."

*******

"Julian," Dax motioned to him. They were standing in a small bunch in front of the orane. He walked over with Cati. "Hello Cati," Dax smiled.

"Hi!" Cati chirped. Dax smiled and glanced at Julian. "Stop tugging at your uniform," she hissed.

"I will never get used to these things as long as I live," Julian grumbled as they started off. Dax smiled and let her hand brush his as they walked. Julian smiled slightly. They arrived at the Palace and were lead into a large dining hall. Cati stared at everything with wide blue eyes.

"Hello." The group turned as one as Pertia walked in. "Please, sit." She sat at the head of the table. Captain Marek seated herself on her left and Julian sat down on her right, after sitting Cati down in the next chair. Dax sat down next to Cati. Meleria sat next to the Captain and Liam sat next to her. Arnwar sat next to Dax. Har'ene sat at the opposite end of the table and a new person sat next to Liam.

"May I introduce my assistant, Jenrell." The woman nodded and smiled at the officers.

"Your assistant?" Marek said. "I was under the impression that Har'ene was your assistant."

Pertia laughed. "No. Har'ene is my mate." She smiled. "But, I suppose that is an understandable mistake." She glanced at the Captain. "He informed me you were displeased with your accommodations. Why?"

Gloria hesitated. "They were very...different from what we're used to."

"I see," Pertia said.

"My chief of security, Arnwar, has told me that you're telepathic," Gloria said, trying to redirect the flow of conversation.

[That is correct] echoed in everyone's minds. [I assume he is telepathic then also]

"Most Betazoids are," he replied. "Some are simply empathic though."

"I see." Pertia paused as the food was brought out. "Tell me more about this Federation of yours."

As the captain talked, Julian took the time to study their surroundings. The dining hall had many windows in it, which were opened to let a warm breeze blow though. Warm lighting emanated from several lights running along the ceiling. Everything about this place seemed warm in color and texture. It reminded him of the American Southwest. He glanced at Cati, who was eating quietly, looking rather bored. Julian reached and gently rested his hand on her shoulder. She glanced at him with her wide blue eyes and he grinned. 'Well, you'll never ask to come with me again on away missions,' he thought amused.

"Doctor?"

Julian glanced up, embarrassed. "I'm sorry. I missed what you said."

Pertia smiled. "I simply asked how old your little girl was."

"I'm three," Cati chimed in. Julian raised an amused eyebrow and bit back a smile.

"And very bored," Pertia smiled. Cati giggled and then caught herself, glancing at Julian.

"I'm sorry," he apologized.

"It's quite alright. I hated these functions when I was her age too. It's understandable."

"Tell us a little bit about your society," Meleria spoke up.

"What would you like to hear?" Jenrell asked. "We're very peaceful. Mostly scholars. Some of our resources are devoted to defense of course. To be honest, there really isn't much to tell. Things have been this way for hundreds of years."

Jadzia glanced up. "I'm curious," she spoke up. "Why exactly were our quarters so different from the rest of our party members?"

"I suppose you could say it is custom," Jenrell said. "Orwarn are somewhat of an archaic tradition for us. Thousands of years ago, we were a heavily matriarchal society. It was traditional for visiting female dignitaries to receive more...accommodating quarters than the male dignitaries. We no longer hold to any of the customs except the decor. Most races find it an interesting insight to how we've evolved. But then again, they are usually already familiar with our traditions and customs. I suppose it was an error to put you in that situation without explaining."

Gloria smiled slightly. "I suppose we did jump to conclusions on our part, also."

"Yes, but several thousand years ago, they would have been the right conclusion," Har'ene said, smiling. "Now, we no longer hold to such beliefs."

For the rest of dinner, the conversation flowed very smoothly. At the end of the meal, Pertia said that they would be most interested in opening diplomatic talks with the Federation and perhaps applying for membership. After dinner was over, they were escorted out to a patio, where a concert was performed. Julian relaxed on one of the benches listening to the music, his eyes closed, Cati sitting in his lap. He was only vaguely aware of someone sitting down next to him until they spoke. "I am surprised that you are the only member of the...senior staff? that has a family." Julian opened his eyes and sat up, glancing at Pertia.

"Well," he replied. "Star Fleet isn't exactly the best way to meet people."

She smiled. "But you did," she pointed out.

"I was lucky," he smiled.

"Forgive me for being so bold, but who is the mother? I thought perhaps Commander Dax, given the same color eyes but..."

Julian smiled. "No, Dax is an old friend. My wife died about two years ago."

"Oh. That explains many things about you, then."

"Excuse me?" Julian said, confused.

"You know we're telepathic. Even when we don't look into other people's minds deliberately, we can still sense things about them."

"Yes. That's true for most telepaths. But..."

"Doctor, I simply sensed that something tragic had happened to you and that you're only now beginning to deal with it."

Julian took a deep breath and nodded. "Well, you're right," he smiled.

"I also sensed that Commander Dax's presence has something to do with this," Pertia smiled.

Julian glanced at her sideways. "You could tell all that just by a cursory reading?" Pertia smiled and Julian nodded. "Gotcha," he murmured. He saw Dax walking over and smiled.

"Looks like someone's tired," Dax commented, smiling at Cati. "Hello, Minister."

"Pertia, please. We rarely stand on formality here." Dax nodded. "Tell me, Dax, if you wouldn't think me too bold, but I pride myself on my ability to accurately read people at a glance and..."

"I'm not coming in too clear," she smiled.

Pertia hesitated and nodded. "No, not really. Why is that?"

"Oh, where to begin," Dax murmured. "Well, to be blunt, I'm what most people called a Joined Trill. Jadzia is the host to a symbiont, Dax."

"So you're two people?"

Julian smiled and shook his head. "No. Symbiosis is a bit more complex than that."

"The symbionts are very long lived," Dax said. "The Dax symbiont is over three hundred years old and has been joined to seven other hosts."

"Three hundred," Pertia murmured. "That would explain quite a bit." Dax laughed softly. "Well, if you'll excuse me," Pertia smiled and stood up. Julian nodded and she walked off. Dax took her seat and slid close to him.

"What were the two of you talking about?" she asked.

"Nothing really," he replied, glancing down at Cati. Dax smiled and gently brushed at his cheek. He glanced up.

"You know," she murmured. "I really love the look you get on your face whenever you look at Cati." He smiled and leaned over and kissed her gently. Dax pulled back and smiled. She glanced over at the small band that had been playing. Liam was standing next to one of them, talking about something, and gesturing expansively. Meleria was standing next to him, laughing.

"Hmm. Finally," Julian murmured, following her gaze. "Liam's been trying to get her attention for months." Dax smiled and sighed, sliding closer.

"It's getting cold out," she murmured. Julian grinned.

"It is not."

"Work with me here," Dax replied. Julian laughed and freed and arm to slide around her shoulders. He glanced down at Cati. "Before I get too comfortable, I should take her back to the Melbourne." Dax nodded and watched as he walked over to the captain to let her know. She nodded and Julian took a few steps back and signaled the Melbourne. Dax watched as he vanished from sight.

*******

"Papa?"

"Shh. Go back to bed," he whispered, gently setting her down on the bed.

"Where are we?"

"Home, love. Go to sleep," he said, gently brushing her dark hair back. Cati closed her eyes and fell back asleep. Julian walked out and glanced at Sheria. "Thank you again."

"It's no problem, Doctor. I understand completely. Enjoy yourself."

"Thank you. Contact me if there's a problem." She nodded and Julian walked out.

*******

Julian rematerialzed in the courtyard to find everyone gone. He glanced around, mildly surprised.

"They all went back to their quarters, Doctor." Julian spun and saw Jenrell walking towards him.

"Oh, well. In that case, I'll be going," he smiled.

"You don't have to," she said. Julian glanced at her and shook his head. "No, I'd best be going."

Jenrell frowned. "I'd rather you didn't."

"Jenrell," Julian began. "I'm very tired and I'd like to get back to my quarters."

She stopped in front of him and rested her hands on his chest. "Are you sure?" she murmured. "Traditions may have been abandoned but they are studied."

Julian stepped back, frowning. "I'm sure. If you'll excuse me." He stepped past her.

"Doctor, isn't it time you forgot about her? It's been two years." Julian stopped dead in his tracks. "I know about your wife. It's very close to the surface, Doctor." He turned slowly and frowned. "I know that the Melbourne was attacked very suddenly and by an unknown vessel. I know that your wife was killed and you and your daughter were very seriously wounded. I know that you relive that moment when the panel exploded over and over in your mind."

Julian glared. "What is the point of all this?"

"You're not over her death, Doctor. In fact, you're running from it. I can help."

"I don't want your help," Julian snapped and strode away briskly and felt like something was brushing his mind. He gasped and shut his eyes tight. When he opened them, he was on the Melbourne in the infirmary. He spun and saw Cati sitting on the biobed, staring patiently at him. Only she was much younger.

"Julian, do you mind if I run some scans in here?" Julian spun around, shocked. "What? You look as though you've seen a ghost."

"Lara?" he gasped.

She grinned and studied him. "Yes. What's wrong with you?"

Julian swallowed and shook his head. "Nothing," he murmured. He glanced at the vial in her hand. "What did you want?"

"I wanted to run a biophoretic analysis. Is that okay?"

'No!' his mind screamed. 'Take Cati and go to deck three, section b. That's the safest place on this ship. It's the one that's least damaged.' "Sure," he replied. She smiled and walked over to the scanner. Julian swallowed and turned back to Cati. Just then the deck rocked violently beneath his feet. He glanced up and closed his eyes. Cati began to wail. Julian picked her up and turned to Lara. She was glancing up.

"What was that?"

"I don't know," Julian whispered. 'GET BACK!' He felt the second volley strike the ship and he stumbled. He heard the explosion and heard Lara scream. Julian glanced up to see her drop to the deck. "Lara!" A third volley slammed into the ship and he lost his balance completely and slammed hard against the deck. As he fell, his head hit the corner of a console and everything slipped into darkness...

...Only to lighten up immediately. Julian glanced up, startled. He saw Jenrell kneeling in front of him. Julian scrambled to his feet. "What the hell happened?"

"I said I could help," she purred, standing up.

"How in the hell was that supposed to help?" he gaped.

"You tell me," she murmured, leaning against him. He felt her lips press against his and he jerked backwards. "No," he said. She frowned.

"Why not," she demanded.

"I'm involved with someone else."

She laughed. "Oh, yes. The Trill. She's how you're running away from this, denying it happened." Her eyes narrowed. "You can't deny it forever. I can help you acknowledge it and move past what happened." He felt something brush his mind again and he blocked as best as he could.

"No," he snapped.

"Do you really think your weak blocks can stop a trained telepath, Doctor?" she smiled. [I highly doubt it. Have you ever been with a telepath Doctor? It can be very...rewarding] Julian's dark eyes searched hers and he shook his head, trying to clear it.

"I said n..."

[Julian, give in.] He felt her hands on his chest again and her lips pressed against his. Julian tried to pull back but nothing would respond. [Relax] he heard. Julian closed his eyes and summed up all his strength.

[I said NO!] he shouted mentally. She jerked back, stunned.

"What? How? You're human. It was my understanding that humans aren't telepathic."

"We aren't. And I'm not a normal human," he snapped. He quickly strode out of the garden. He shook his head. 'Let her dwell on that one for awhile. She'll eventually figure out that you simply used her own skills against her.' He walked into the orane and headed to his room. He walked in and discovered Dax sitting there. "Hey," he said.

"Hi. I just wanted to make sure you got back alright. Jenrell said she'd tell you that we left so we decided not to contact you, just in case you were putting Cati to bed....What's wrong?"

"It's a long story," Julian murmured, sinking down on the bed. He undid his dress uniform tunic and tossed it on the back of the chair. Dax slid over to his side.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

Julian shook his head. "Not now. I'm too damn tired."

Dax nodded. "Alright. I'll see you tomorrow," she said.

She started for the door and Julian called, "Dax." She stopped and turned. His dark eyes had a slightly haunted look to them. He seemed to be debating whether or not to say more. "Actually, if you aren't too tired, maybe it would be best if I did talk to someone..." She smiled understandingly and walked back.

"I'm fine. What happened?"

Julian took a deep breath and told her about his encounter with Jenrell. He left out some of the details, but Dax got the general gist of it. By the time he finished, her features were a mix of shock and anger. "I can't believe she did that. Don't most telepathic societies consider that a taboo? One that holds a rather severe punishment?"

Julian nodded. "Most do, but we don't know anything about these people. For all we know, it's SOP."

"I highly doubt it. I can't believe she made you relive Lara's death. What kind of sadistic...." She stood up and started pacing.

"Relax," Julian murmured. "It's not the first time that it's happened." Dax paused and turned back. She took a deep breath and walked back.

"Julian," she sat down next to him and took his hands in hers. "I know that two years may seem like a short time but, if you're still having...problems, maybe you should see a counselor."

Julian shook his head. "No. It's alright. Besides, how long did it take Captain Sisko to get over Jennifer's death?"

"Three years. And you know as well as I do that he never dealt with it until DS9, and probably wouldn't have if he hadn't accepted that post..." Dax turned to face him. "In all my lifetimes, I have never met a more stubborn people than terran males."

"Thank you," he grumbled. Dax sighed.

"Julian. As much as I'd like to go and seriously give Jenrell second thoughts about what she did, she was right about one thing. You're running. The same way Ben did all those years ago."

Julian sighed in frustration. "That's funny. Pertia had said that I'm starting to deal with it an hour earlier."

Jadzia gazed at him. "Julian. I don't pretend to know what you've been through. I've only been on the other side of the fence on this topic. But I do know you very well. Please. All I'm asking is that you talk to a counselor about this."

Julian frowned. "Jadzia, the Melbourne's an exploratory ship. We don't have one."

She sighed. "Well, talk to someone! Me, Gloria, Liam, Arnwar. Just talk."

He glanced up at her and sighed. "Look, why don't we get some sleep?" he suggested. "It's been a long day." Dax gazed at him in disbelief for a moment and then sighed.

"Fine. I'll see you tomorrow." She got up and walked out. Julian stared at the door for a long time.

*******

Dax walked back into her room and sank down on the bed. 'What am I going to do? I can't deal with this. I can't compete with his dead wife. I don't want to.' She closed her eyes and shook her head. 'What was I thinking. He's still not over her death. How can we have a relationship when every time he turns around he sees her?' She sighed and changed out of her dress uniform and attempted to get some sleep.

*******

"Arnwar, can I talk to you?"

'Ah, the familiar phrase from a not so familiar person.' "Of course Dax. What's wrong?"

Dax hesitated and then stepped in his room, shutting the door behind her. "I'm worried about Julian."

Arnwar took a deep breath. "Ah, so someone finally noticed this too. Have a seat Dax."

"What do you mean?"

"Dax, he's a easy person to read. He doesn't keep too many of his emotions to himself."

"So you know he's not dealing with Lara's death."

"He's dealing with it, it's just he's not dealing with it well. He's hasn't come to terms with it yet, no. I suppose it doesn't help to have a three year old child that needs caring for. Especially when she's so much like Lara." Arnwar sighed. "I had only been here for a few months before she died, but she was very easy to get along with. Always had a lot of energy, too."

Dax smiled thinly. "What can I do? I've known him for years. Whenever he gets like this, he goes on auto-destruct mode and drives himself into the ground."

"Be patient. The reason he's starting to deal with this, Dax, is because of you," he smiled. "Partly because of what the two of you have and the fact that you remind him of life on DS9. He misses that place almost as much as he misses Lara."

"That makes two of us," Dax murmured.

"He also remembers someone named Ben Sisko...it gets fuzzy there from a cursory glance but..."

Dax smiled. "Ben Sisko was our commanding officer on DS9. His wife was killed by the Borg at Wolf 359." Arnwar nodded. Dax sighed. "So there's nothing I can do but just be patient."

"Well, you can encourage him to talk about it..." Arnwar paused, sensing her building frustration. "But I take it the two of you already talked about it."

"Last night. It didn't go too well. He can be incredibly stubborn when he puts his mind to it." Dax sighed. "Thanks Arnwar. I know it must be frustrating having people come to talk to you all the time but I really appreciate it."

Arnwar nodded, surprised. "It's no trouble, Dax. I'm glad someone else is perceptive enough to pick up on little things."

"Seven lifetimes of experiences tends to help with nuances." Dax smiled and stood. "I'll see you later?" Arnwar nodded and she walked out.

Dax sighed heavily and started for her room when she heard a soft voice call her. She spun and saw Julian standing there. "Can we talk?" he asked, walking over.

"Sure," she murmured. He smiled at her and walked past her into her room. Dax followed and closed the door. "What did you want to talk about?"

"Us," Julian replied, turning to face her. Dax tried not to appear apprehensive. "I haven't been fair to you. I should have realized this is no easier for you than it is for me. I know you only want to help, but you have to realize I haven't really talked to anyone about what happened. I can't. Not yet."

Dax gazed at him trying to blink back tears. "No. I understand. I should have realized." Julian pulled her close and held her.

"I'm sorry," he murmured. Dax shook her head.

"Stop apologizing," she smiled. She slid her arms around his waist. After a moment, she tilted her head back to look up at him. He smiled softly and kissed her tenderly. Dax closed her eyes and pressed against him, deepening the kiss. However, they were interrupted by a knock at the door. Dax pulled back. "Maybe if we don't answer, they'll assume we've left," she whispered.

"Either that, or they'll come in here to check," he replied.

Dax sighed and closed her eyes. "Right," she murmured, pulling back. "Come in," she called. The door opened to reveal Jenrell standing there. Dax felt herself tensen automatically. "Yes?" she asked coolly.

"I was sent to tell you that the Minister wishes to speak with your party," she replied, matching Dax's tone.

"Thank you," Dax clipped. Jenrell raised an eyebrow and left. Dax turned to Julian and frowned. "What?"

He grinned. "Nothing. I was just noticing how your eyes sparkle when you're mad."

Dax smiled. "Cheep flattery will get you nowhere," she teased. "Good flattery on the other hand..." Julian chuckled. "Come on. Let's go before they begin to wonder where we are."

"They wouldn't have to wonder for long," he smiled as they walked out. Jadzia swatted him and he laughed.

"What's so funny?" Liam asked approaching them.

"Nothing," Julian grinned. "I've just been spending too much time with you, that's all."

"Haha," he muttered and glanced over his shoulder. "Where's everyone else?"

"I'm not sure. Probably coming...." Julian spotted Gloria, Meleria, and B'Ler walking towards them. "Right now." He smiled. "Morning."

"I suppose we should head over," the captain smiled. They group walked out and back to the Palace. They walked in and were once again escorted into the main hall of the Minister. "Good morning, Minister," Gloria smiled.

Pertia stood coolly. Her friendly attitude of yesterday was gone. "Perhaps, but I doubt it."

Gloria hesitated and glanced at her officers. Everyone seemed as bewildered as she. "I see," she said slowly. "Is something wrong, Minister?"

"Yes. I have just received word that your doctor attacked my assistant Jenrell last night." She turned a hard gaze towards Julian, who's jaw had dropped open in shock.

"What?" Gloria asked. She turned to Julian. "Doctor?" She didn't believe it for a second but obviously something had happened.

"That's not true," he snapped.

"Doctor, she is still unable to receive or send telepathic messages after what happened."

"I was defending myself!" Julian exclaimed. "When I beamed back here last night, she harassed me. If anyone should be under suspicion, it's her."

"What do you mean?" Pertia asked slowly. "I advise you to be very clear Doctor. The punishment for attacking another person mentally on C'tarie five is very high."

Julian took a deep breath and told them what had happened last night, leaving out some of Jenrell's advances however. By the time he had finished, Pertia's face was red with anger. "I see. Regardless of what she did, Doctor, you still attacked her..."

"In self defense!"

"However, considering the fact that you are new here to this planet, I am willing to overlook this incident." Pertia took a deep calming breath. "Rest assured that Jenrell will pay for what she did. I am sorry, Doctor."

Julian frowned angrily but held his tongue. Gloria straightened and simply nodded. The group left quietly. Outside the main hall, Dax angrily slammed her hand against a table. "I can't believe they thought you...!!!"

"Doctor, why didn't you mention this earlier?" Gloria asked, frowning.

"It was late and everyone else was asleep. I didn't think she'd be so stupid to think she'd get away with it." Julian sighed.

Arnwar frowned. "Doctor, you aren't telepathic, though. How could have what she said even be true."

Julian winced. "Well, that's partly my fault. I simply used the connection she had established to get her to let go, sort of like shouting in a Ferengi's ear, and let her wonder how I did it."

"You deliberately taunted her," Gloria frowned. Julian sighed. "Doctor, that's poor form."

Julian turned and glared back. "I don't take lightly to being harassed. And it's not as if I lied about anything. She said normal humans aren't telepathic. I said that I'm not a normal human." He saw Jadzia smile slightly.

Gloria sighed. "Don't let this happen again Doctor," she warned. Julian nodded. Liam started to say something when they heard a scream come from the main hall. They turned and darted back in. Jenrell was being held up by two guards and screaming. A third individual was standing in front of her in heavy robes. Pertia looked up as the away party burst in the doorway. "What are you doing here?" she demanded.

"We heard her screaming," Gloria said, staring. "What is going on here?" She noticed a shocked, pained look cross Arnwar's face.

"I said the punishment for such an attack was severe," Pertia said calmly.

Gloria spun to Arnwar. "What are they doing to her?"

He swallowed and shook his head. "I...I'd wager that they're removing her telepathic abilities," he managed to choke out.

"What?!" Julian gasped. He spun towards Jenrell's sobbing form. "That isn't necessary."

"Yes it is Doctor," Pertia snapped. "It is our laws and you have no right to interfere."

"She's right Doctor," Marek said softly. "This is an internal affair. We can't interfere."

Julian looked like he might be sick. He turned to Jenrell. "I never meant for this to happen." She simply stared at him. He felt a hand rest on his shoulder. He glanced back and saw Captain Marek staring at him, shaking her head.

"I suggest you leave," Pertia said calmly.

"I think that would be a good idea," Marek said neutrally. She tapped her commbadge. "Marek to Melbourne. Six to beam up on my mark." She faced Pertia. "However, don't expect a Star Fleet diplomatic envoy any time soon," she commented neutrally. "Energize," she commanded.

*******

Julian paced the office in the infirmary like a caged animal. Dax was perched on his desk. "Julian, it's not your fault. She's the one who attacked you. You can't control the consequences of someone else's actions."

Julian sighed and nodded. "I know. It's just that every single away mission seems to end in disaster. Gods, days like these make me wish we were back on DS9. The time before the Dominion and the Klingons and God knows who else. When we could explore the galaxy and always have it to come back to."

Dax sighed and nodded. "I know. Nothing's really been the same since we left. I've not really been very happy with my last few posts. The Melbourne is the first post that I've actually wanted since leaving."

Julian smiled and shook his head. "Not much we can do about it now."

"Well, if Bajor joins the Federation, I'm sure Star Fleet is going to want personnel on DS9. We could re-apply."

Julian glanced at Dax and grinned. "Dreamer," he smiled.

"T'Ral to Dax."

Dax glanced up at the ceiling. "Dax here. Go ahead T'Ral."

"The analysis on the samples collected from the away mission is complete."

"I'll be right there. Dax out." She turned to Julian and smiled. "I'll see you later?"

"Sure," he smiled. Dax leaned over and kissed his cheek.

"Bye," she smiled and walked out. Julian followed her with his eyes and grinned.

*******

Dax studied the readouts from the analysis she had run on a sample of soil from the planets surface. 'Very typical,' she thought. 'Nothing unusual about this planet at all. Your typical class M. Still, they have to be cataloged.' She quickly worked through the different samples and started working on a project she had been doing for several months. "Commander?" Dax's head snapped up.

"Yes, T'Ral," she smiled.

"Your shift ended ten minutes ago," the Vulcan responded.

Dax glanced at the chronometer and smiled. "Oh. I guess you're right. Thank you T'Ral."

"Yes Commander," the Vulcan replied. Dax hid her smile and saved her work and walked out. She got back to her quarters and quickly changed into a pair of old jeans and a t-shirt and stretched out of the couch with a novel a former co-worker had recommended. It was only 1700, so it was too early to have dinner. She read for an hour and made a small meal from the replicator. She glanced over some science journals she had while eating, noting the articles she wanted to come back to. After her dinner, she pulled out her keyboard and her PADD of music. She worked on a couple of compositions for a couple hours, losing all track of time. She was just finishing off a piece and looked up. Julian was sitting on the couch with Cati, smiling. Dax felt all the blood in her body rush to her face as Cati clapped. "Julian, what? When did you?"

He grinned. "I said I'd stop by later." Dax nodded slowly, turning off the keyboard.

"I know," she replied. "Did you ring the chime?"

Julian nodded. "Of course. No response, but when I asked the computer where you were, it said here, so I let myself in."

Dax sighed and then smiled. "I see," Dax stood up and walked over to the couch. Julian reached up and pulled her close. "So, why has your mood improved so considerably since I last saw you?"

Julian smiled and glanced at Cati. "Well, I just talked with the captain. She informed me that Bajor is going to re-apply for admission to the Federation."

Dax's eyes widened, recalling their earlier conversation. "What else did she tell you?"

"Nothing," Julian admitted. "I was hoping to send a message back to Captain Sisko to see if he knew...." The deck shifted beneath them. Julian's hand shot out to catch Cati.

"What the hell..."Dax murmured, looking up at the ceiling.

"Red alert. All crew, report to battle stations." Dax glanced at Julian in alarm and scrambled for her room to change. When she came out, Julian was standing there, minus Cati.

"I took her next door," he said. "They'll keep an eye on her for me." Dax nodded and they darted out the door.

*******

Dax strode onto the bridge. "Fire phasers," the captain was snapping. She glanced over her shoulder. "Commander, figure out who this is." Dax nodded and slid into the science station. Dax glanced up at the view screen and frowned. She didn't recognize the ship.

"Incoming torpedo," the tactical officer called.

"Hard to port!" The ship spun neatly out of the path. Dax struggled with her sensors.

"I can't get a reading on the ship, Captain."

"Shields down to 75%!" someone called.

"Fire quantum torpedoes," the captain called. Dax watched as the torpedoes slammed into their target.

"Status of their ship."

"They have a primary reactor failure and severe casualties."

"Captain! They're firing again!" Dax winced as the volley of torpedoes slammed into the ship. Around her, panels were exploding. She coughed at the smoke and swung the ship into a tight arc away from the enemy vessel.

"Damage report!" the captain called.

"Heavy damage on decks six through ten. Many casualties are being reported in. Minor damage to decks thirteen through sixteen." The ensign paused. "And a hull breech on deck six, sections a, b, and c. Emergency forcefields in place but no report from there." Dax's head snapped up and she glanced at the captain, shocked. That was where the infirmary was. Not to mention where their quarters were.

"Ensign, fire two quantum torpedoes. Target their main reactor core."

"Aye sir," came the response. Dax watched as the two torpedoes lanced through the ship. She turned back to the captain.

"Sir..."

"Dax, Braen. I want you to get down to deck six and see what's happening."

Dax sighed softly in relief. "Yes sir," she said as she and Meleria took off for the turbolift.

*******

Dax stepped onto the deck and gasped. Metal everywhere was twisted and bent. Fire suppression had worked but everything was charred. "Come on," Dax said. They worked their way through the wreckage until they reached sick bay. Dax glanced back at Meleria. "I'll check here. You go on ahead and make sure the civilians are alright." She hesitated. "Check on Cati please and let me know what happened."

Meleria nodded and headed off. Dax glanced at the doors to sick bay and took a deep breath. She forced them open and stepped in. She gaped as she looked around. The once pristine infirmary was blackened. Panels were destroyed. Dax walked slowly in. "Julian?" she called. There was no response. Dax felt her panic rise. She shone her flash around the room. "Computer," she said softly. "Location of Dr. Bashir?"

"Dr. Bashir is in sick bay." Dax stepped into his office and looked around. She highly doubted that he would have been in here, but she had to be sure. She walked back out and stepped into the main room and gasped. Part of the far left wall had been blown away, showing a striking view of the space outside. Dax swallowed and looked around. She spotted someone in a medic uniform lying on the ground and darted over. She shone the flash on the person's face and bit back a sigh of disappointment. It wasn't Julian, it was one of his lab techs. She felt for a pulse and shook her head sadly. She stood up and began to search again for survivors. Dax glanced in between beds as she walked by. She found a few patients and other staff. Some had survived, some were in bad shape. Dax managed to revive a nurse, who was presently trying to stabilize the others. Dax reached the last row and choked back a scream. "Julian," she gasped, darting over to his side. She desperately felt for a pulse and was rewarded, although is was weak. "Over here!" she called. The nurse darted over and knelt down next to her.

"He's in bad shape," she murmured. "I can stabilize him, but unless we get him to a doctor..." Dax took a deep breath and nodded. "Alright. I'll...."

"Braen to Dax."

"Go ahead," Dax replied, holding her breath.

"I need medical assistance here," she said, her voice tense. Oh, gods, no,' Dax thought. She glanced at the nurse. "Hurry here and then head towards where I'll be. I don't have much medical training." The nurse nodded and continued working on Julian. Dax stood and darted out. She didn't need to ask the computer where to go. Dax ran into the open doorway and froze. "Over here, Dax," Meleria called. Dax headed over and gasped. She knelt down next to the woman who was lying on the floor. "I can't do anything for her," Dax whispered. Meleria shook her head. Dax glanced at her. "Where's Cati?"

"I haven't found her yet," Meleria said.

"She was taking care of her," Dax replied. Meleria's eyes widened. Dax whirled. "Cati!" she called. They looked around the room, shining their lights into every possible corner. "Cati, love. It's me, Jadzia." Dax prayed she was just hiding and would come out. Dax froze for a moment, thinking she heard something. She turned towards Meleria, who had stopped also. "Did you hear that?" she whispered. Meleria nodded. Dax glanced around. "Cati?" This time she heard it clearly. It was coming from the closet. "Oh, Gods," Dax whispered, running over. She tapped the control but it wouldn't respond. "Damn!" Dax slammed her hand against the wall. She motioned for Meleria's help and started pulling at the doors. It took the two of them several minutes but Dax finally felt the doors begin to give. Dax dropped to her knees as the doors slid open. "Cati!" The little girl tumbled out into her arms. "Oh, thank God," she whispered. Cati sobbed loudly. "It's alright, Cati. It's okay," she murmured. Dax picked her up and turned to Meleria. "I'm going to take her to my room and check to see if she's okay."

"Why don't you take her to sick bay?" Meleria whispered. Dax glanced back at her. Meleria's eyes widened. "Oh. Oh my God. He's not...."

Dax shook her head. "Keep looking. I'll be with you as soon as I can manage." Meleria nodded and walked out. Dax held Cati, who was still crying. "Come on, Cati. Let's go to my room and see if you're okay." Cati took a jagged breath and nodded. Dax walked down the hall and into her quarters. She set her on the couch and knelt down in front of her. "Alright, love. Let's see if you're okay." Dax opened her tricorder that she had taken from the infirmary and ran it over her. Cati took deep shaky breaths. Dax studied the readings and smiled. "You're okay," she sighed, relieved. Dax swept her into a hug. Cati began to cry again.

"Where's Papa?" she sobbed. Dax closed her eyes.

"He's in sick bay, sweety," she murmured, gently brushing back her hair. Cati sniffled. Dax took a deep breath and sighed. "Let's find someone to take care of you...."

"No!" she howled, clinging to Dax's neck. Dax quieted down the new flood of tears.

"Cati, I've got to go. There could be people that need my help." Cati shook her head violently.

"No. Stay here!"

Dax sighed and tapped her commbadge. "Dax to Marek."

"Go ahead Commander."

"Could you send someone down to take my place for a moment?"

"Actually, Commander, there's a whole team on its way down to you. What was the status in sick bay? Do we have a place to send injured people?"

"No. It's best to re-route them to cargo bays. And have anyone who had training in emergency medicine report there. Also, we need to get another doctor here as soon as possible. I have a feeling that Dr. Bashir is going to need help."

"I see. Marek out." Dax held Cati close. "Alright, kiddo. I can stay. Come on. Let's go see what your cabin looks like."

*******

Dax closed her eyes, exhausted. She had spent the last two hours trying to calm Cati down and get her to sleep. She tapped her commbadge. "Dax to Sorel."

"Go ahead."

"How's Julian?"

"I have him stabilized for now. We're supposed to arrive at Gamma outpost six in two hours."

"Alright. Keep me posted." Dax sighed. She knew she'd have to tell Cati that Julian was hurt but she didn't know how. She sank down on the couch and rested her head in her hands. 'What am I going to say?' Dax leaned back against the couch and closed her eyes. She began to drift off when she heard Cati start crying. Dax rushed into her room. "Cati? Cati it's alright." Dax scooped the little girl into her arms. Cati sobbed softly. "Tell me what's wrong. Did you have a nightmare?" Cati nodded. Dax closed her eyes. "Oh, love. You're safe. Don't worry."

"I want Papa!" Cati said, her sentence broken with short gasps for air.

Dax hesitated. "Cati, Papa's not here."

"Where is he?"

Dax smoothed her hair back. "He's still in sick bay." "But--you told Auntie--Gloria that--he was going to need--help in the crgo bays," she whimpered, still crying.

Dax closed her eyes and rested her head against the top of Cati's. "Cati, love. Papa's not working right now. He was hurt." Cati stared at her with wide blue eyes. "He's going to be okay Cati. We're getting a doctor to help him." Cati's chin quivered. Dax brushed the tears off her cheeks. "Come on, love. Why don't we go for a walk in the arboretum." Dax knew that that area of the ship wasn't too badly damaged.

Cati shook her head. "I want to see Papa!" she cried.

"Oh, Cati. I don't think that that's such a good idea...."

"*I want to see Papa!*" she cried again, tears running down her cheeks.

Dax hesitated. "How about I check with the nurse that's taking care of him and see if we can, okay?" Cati nodded. Dax tapped her commbadge. "Dax to Sorel."

"Go ahead." Dax didn't miss the note of exasperation in the techs voice.

"I'm wondering if it's okay for Cati to come see Julian."

There was a moment of silence before she responded. "I don't know Commander. Not yet, anyways."

"Thank you, that's all I needed to know. Dax out." She turned to Cati. "How about you get some sleep and we'll check back later." Cati sniffled and nodded. "Alright," Dax murmured, gently setting Cati back down on the bed. "I'll be outsi--"

"No! Stay here!" Dax hesitated and nodded. "Alright. I could use some rest too. What do you say we go into your da-- um, the other room and get some sleep." Cati nodded and Dax scooped the little girl up and carried her into Julian's bedroom and placed her on the bed. She took off her uniform boots and jacket and stretched out next to her. Cati curled close to Dax, still sniffling. Dax gently smoothed her hair back until her breathing leveled out and she was asleep. Only then did she allow herself to close her eyes.

*******

"Sorel to Dax." Dax winced and reached for her commbadge. "Dax here. Go ahead."

"I thought you should know that we reached Gamma outpost six and that Dr. Milairn has come aboard."

"Thank you. I'll be right there. Uh, I'll probably be bringing Cati with me. I don't think she'll want to be left with anyone right now so...."

"Alright. Thank you for the warning. Sorel out."

Dax sat up and reached for her uniform jacket and boots. She turned and smiled. Cati was curled up into a ball, sleeping soundly. 'It's almost a shame to move her. I don't want to risk waking her up. None the less...' Dax reached for Cati and scooped her up into her arms. Cati stirred but didn't wake. Dax raised an eyebrow and walked out of the room. She was amazed at the efficiency of the work crews. A lot of the damage had been cleared up and Dax's brief walk to the infirmary took much less time than she had expected. She walked in and looked around. The lights were flickering in the entrance but when she walked into the main room, several portable lights had been set up. Dax looked around. The hullbreach was still as unnerving as ever. Dax realized that the most critical patients were still brought to the infirmary and that there really was no where for her to put Cati. Sorel glanced up and smiled. "I set up a cot for her in the lab."

Dax smiled and nodded. "Thank you." She walked past the beds without glancing at them and set Cati down on the cot. She stirred once more but still didn't wake. Dax sighed with relief and walked back out. She headed over to the nearest bed and took a deep breath. "How bad is he?"she asked.

The nurse glanced up and sighed. "Well, we got here in time," she said softly. "He'll survive but...I can't say what shape he'll be in."

Dax gazed at Julian's still form. She could see a nasty bruise spreading from his temple down his jaw. "There was some damage?" she asked hesitantly.

Sorel glanced at her. "He took a blow to the head. It ruptured an artery..there was some damage but I can't say for sure how much or if it's repairable. Dr. Milairn..."

"Did someone mention my name?" A tall, striking man strode into sickbay. Dax managed a tight smile. He headed over immediately and started scanning. "Cerebral hemorrhaging. He was given priority?"

Dax bit her lip. "Well," she murmured, "I know it's not standard triage procedures but..."

"Never mind," Milairn murmured, reaching for an instrument. "What's done is done. I can't say for sure how many motor functions he'll be able to retain, however."

Dax paled. "Is it that bad?" she asked quietly, glancing over her shoulder at the lab.

"Well, the middle cerebral artery ruptured slightly, cutting off the oxygen supply to Broca's area and pre and post central gyrus. His speech skills and dexterity will suffer because of this."

Dax paused. "Dexterity? How do you mean suffer?" She had images of him not being able to remain CMO because he couldn't perform surgery.

"It's possible he might not be able to practice," Milairn said. He glanced up. "However, if I'm going to help him, I need to be able to work in quiet."

Dax flushed slightly and nodded. "I'm sorry, Doctor. I need to give a report to the captain later though so...."

Milairn glanced up and nodded curtly. "I'll inform you of how things go." He glanced up at Sorel. "Prep the surgery suite."

Dax quietly retreated into the lab, barely hearing Milairn giving orders to Sorel and another nurse. She sank down on the floor next to Cati, who stirred. "Papa?" she asked, sleepily rubbing at her eyes.

"No, dear. It's me." Dax gently brushed a lock of hair of her forehead. Cati regarded her with wide blue eyes before taking in her surroundings.

"Where's Papa?" she demanded.

"He's in the other room sweetie," Dax replied, gently sweeping her hands through Cati's dark hair, trying to get rid of the tangles.

"I want to see him," she pouted.

Dax shook her head. "No. The doctor's taking care of him right now. What do you say we go get some breakfast?" Dax paused, wondering if that was the correct meal. Cati nodded and Dax scooped her up, careful to keep her gaze from wandering towards the surgical suite.

*******

Dax sat with Cati, watching her play on the keyboard. She had organized Julian's quarters while Cati finished her meal. She idly picked at keys and watched as Cati poked at the keys around it, her mind back in Sick Bay. 'Oh, gods, please let him be alright,' Dax begged. Tapping middle C. Cati tapped at E and C again. Dax smiled. "I'm going to have to start teaching you a few things," she mused, ruffling the little girl's hair.

Cati grinned. "When can I go see Papa?" she demanded.

Dax felt her smile falter and a huge lump fill in her throat. "I don't know, Cati. Maybe after your nap this afternoon."

Cati frowned. "Is Papa alright?" she asked, blue eyes regarding Jadzia.

Dax bit her lip. "I don't know, sweetie. The doctor hadn't finished taking care of him when we left." Cati's frown deepened. "I'm sorry, Cati. I simply don't know." Cati nodded and leaned back against her. Dax wrapped an arm around her and smiled. "I know," she said softly. "I hate waiting too."

*******

Dax set Cati down on the bed and covered her with a light blanket. She quietly slipped out of the room and collapsed on the couch, exhausted. "Dax to Sorel," she said softly.

There was a long pause before she responded. "Sorel here."

"I was wondering how Julian..." Dax paused. "I have a very confused and frightened three year old here."

"Oh, Commander, I'm sorry. How about you come down to Sick Bay?"

Dax sighed in relief. "I'll be right there," she replied. "Dax out." Dax quickly called Sheria to come watch Cati. The younger woman was over in a flash. "I heard Dr. Bashir was hurt..."

Dax nodded, pausing only long enough to briefly explain what had happened. "Please, don't tell Cati if she wakes up. I want to talk with Julian first when he regains consciousness."

"Of course," Sheria replied. Dax nodded and rushed out. She made it to the infirmary in record time to find Milairn checking over some other patients. She nodded briefly at him and headed for the bed Julian was resting at again. She reached his side as Sorel walked up.

"I know you need to talk to Milairn about your report for the Captain but I thought you'd want to know that everything went fine in surgery." She smiled slightly at Dax's visible relief. "There appeared to be less damage than we originally feared. He'll still have some definite problems though with speech and...."

"I see Nurse Sorel is already filling you in," Milairn smiled. Dax turned and smiled back. "Why don't we go into Dr. Bashir's office," Milairn suggested. Dax couldn't help but appreciate the fact that he specifically said it was Julian's office. Dax followed him in. "Why don't you start from the beginning," Dax suggested softly. "I need to report to the Captain in about two hours."

"Of course," Milairn nodded. "As I said earlier, there was cerebral hemorrhaging of the middle cerebral artery due to a blow to the head, which caused apoxia to Broca's area and the pre and post central gyrus. Fortunately, when I went to repair the rupture, the visual damage to the brain wasn't as bad as feared. I'm in the process of running several scans to see just how extensive the damage is but, at this time, I'd wager he'll retain most of his verbal ability and dexterity."

Dax rocked back on her heels. "Will he be able to practice?" she asked. She glanced at Julian, feeling a bit of her fear abate.

"With therapy, probably. I can't guarantee anything yet." Milairn rocked back on his heels. "Commander, am I mistaken in saying that there's more than a professional concern here?"

Dax raised an eyebrow. "Dr. Bashir and I have been friends for more than eleven years so, yes, you're correct."

Milairn nodded and dropped part of the professional stance. "Dax, if I may say so, he'll be fine. I don't want to go on the record for saying this but, well, he should recover almost completely. The genetic enhancements probably helped quite a bit. Even if he doesn't, his skills should still be more advanced than a normal human's."

Dax smiled slightly. "Well, he'll definitely be pleased to hear that," she said, shaking her head. She glanced up at Milairn. "When will he regain consciousness?"

The doctor took a deep breath. "Probably in about 12 hours."

Dax smiled. "Thank you, Doctor. I appreciate this."

"Think nothing of it. I should go check up on the other patients." Milairn smiled and walked to the other end of the infirmary. Dax walked over to Julian's side and gently took his hand in hers.

"Hi," she murmured, sitting down next to him. She gently smoothed back a lock of hair, noticing Milairn had already regenerated the part that had to have been shaved off. She gently ran a fingertip down his cheek. "Gods, you scared me," she murmured, her gaze flickering over his still features. Part of her mind pictured him opening his eyes and smiling, replying as she knew he would.

"I'm sorry."

Dax whirled. Marek stood off to one side, looking shell shocked. "I got here as soon as I could. Is he...."

Dax drew herself up slightly. "He should be fine," Dax replied. She recanted what Milairn had told her already. Marek's visibly relaxed, relief crossing her face.

"Oh, thank God," she murmured. "For a while, I was afraid I was going to have to contact Amsha and tell her her only son...." She trailed off and Dax felt her eyes fill with tears.

"I know," Dax nodded. "I've been having to dodge Cati's questions all day." Dax tightened her grip on Julian's hands.

Gloria set a gentle hand on Dax's shoulder. "Have you gotten any sleep?"

Dax nodded. "Yes. Actually I did." She glanced down at Julian again and blinked back the tears. "In fact, I should go. I don't want Cati to wake up without me there. She's been very clingy lately."

Gloria smiled and nodded. "Go then. Take the next two days off also. We're going to be here for awhile and there isn't much need for a science officer when we need repairs."

Dax smiled thankfully. "Thank you Captain." She gave Julian's hand one last squeeze and walked out. Gloria watched her for several moments before turning back to Julian.

"You know, you'd better hang onto her with both hands when you come out of this," she said, mock threateningly.

*******

Dax walked back into Julian's quarters and was greeted with a pair of this arms wrapping around her legs. "Jdzia!" She smiled and gently mussed Cati's hair.

"Hello, dear. Did you sleep well?"

Cati nodded. "Can I go see Papa?" she asked.

Dax crouched down. "Not yet sweety. He's still sleeping."

Cati frowned. "But how come you were at Papa's work?"

"I needed to talk with the doctor that's taking care of your papa," Dax said, lifting the little girl up. She smiled at Sheria.

"Thanks again. I'm sorry to have been gone so long."

"It's okay," Sheria smiled. "Call if you need me."

"Thank you," Dax said as she walked out. Dax turned to Cati. "So, do you want dinner?"

Cati nodded. "When's Papa going to be awake?"

"Not until tomorrow morning. He needs to sleep so he can get better." Dax walked over to the replicator with Cati still in her arms. "So, what do you want?"

"Tuna!" she crowed. Dax smiled. "That sounds delicious," she admitted and programmed the replicator.

*******

Dax stirred late the next morning to find Cati sitting in the living room with a book. She grinned and shook her head. "What are you reading?" she asked teasingly.

Cati looked up. "Cat ina Hat," she replied carefully. Dax smiled and sank down next to her. "Really?" she asked. "Well, how about we eat breakfast."

"And then we can go see papa?" Cati asked hopefully.

Dax smiled. "We'll see," she said. "I'll call the doctor and ask."

" Kay," the little girl said, hopping off the couch. Dax smiled and moved to the replicator and ordered small breakfast for them. Halfway through, the comm chirped for her.

"Dax here," she said.

"Commander," Dr. Milairn's voice rang out. "I thought you'd like to know that Dr. Bashir has regained consciousness."

Dax closed her eyes briefly in relief. "Thank you," she said. She caught Cati's eye. "Would it be possible for me to bring his daughter down in a bit?"

There was a pause. "I don't see why not. But only for a brief visit."

"Of course. Dax out." She turned to Cati, who was bouncing in her chair excitedly. Dax smiled. "Well? What are you waiting for. Go get dressed!"

"Race ya!" Cati cried, darting for her bedroom. Dax burst out laughing.

*******

Dax walked into the infirmary, Cati's hand firmly latched onto hers. She nodded briefly at Milairn as she headed to Julian's bed. She could see he was awake as she approached. "Julian?" she said softly. His head turned and he smiled slightly. She felt relief course through her.

"Ow..Jdzia, you're hurting my hand."

Dax glanced at Cati and felt her cheeks heat up slightly. "I'm sorry," she said, scooping her up. She heard soft laughter come from Julian and she turned to face him. "Hi there," she said, setting Cati down on the bed.

Julian smiled slightly. "Hi," he said softly, raising a hand to brush a lock of Cati's forehead. Dax noticed it was trembling.

"Papa!" Cati cried happily. She scrambled up the bed and threw her arms around him. Julian smiled slightly.

"Hello Cati," he said slowly. He wrapped his arms around her. Dax saw a look of sheer relief cross his face as he did. Dax perched on the corner of the bed and gently took a hand.

"You really gave me a scare," she said softly.

Julian glanced at her. "I'm sorry," he said, lisping slightly over the 's.' Dax shook her head. "Forgiven," she teased, feeling tears well up in her eyes.

Cati sat up and gazed curiously at her father. "What's wrong with your voice, Papa?"

Julian gazed at her for a moment and glanced at Jadzia. She shook her head, indicating that she hadn't told her. Julian smiled slightly in thanks. "It's why I'm here sweety," he said softly. "I hit my head very hard, which is causing me to talk like this."

Cati nodded solemnly. "Will you be okay?"

Julian smiled and nodded. "Yes. Don't worry." Cati smiled and hugged him, her fears allied by three simple words. Julian smiled and kissed her forehead. "Why don't you go get something to read from my office," he said. "I'd like to talk with Jadzia."

"Okay Papa," Cati smiled. She scrambled to the edge of the bed and reached for Jadzia to help her down. Dax smiled and set the little girl on the floor and she went to the office. Dax turned back to Julian.

"I take it you talked with Dr. Milairn," she said softly, running her hand over his cheek.

Julian nodded. "Yes-s," he murmured, wincing slightly at his lisp. He lifted his hands and sighed softly. "I suppose I'm lucky but..."

Dax reached and gently covered his hands with hers. "Yes, you are," she said softly. Julian glanced at her and smiled lopsidedly. Dax gave his hands a squeeze and kissed him gently. After a moment, she pulled back. Julian sighed softly.

"Well," he murmured. "I feel one hundred percent better." Dax bit back a laugh and nuzzled his cheek. Julian reached and gently brushed a hand over her cheek. "You're okay?" he asked softly. "You weren't hurt?"

Dax shook her head. "I'm fine. I was on the bridge." Julian nodded. "What about Cati?" he asked, biting his lip. "She wasn't..."

Dax shook her head, gently placing a fingertip on his lips. "No. She was fine. She had quite a scare though." Jadzia explained what had happened. Julian closed his eyes.

"Oh, Gods," he murmured, glancing towards his office. He glanced at Jadzia. "She's okay though, right? I mean, she didn't actually see...."

Dax shook her head. "I don't know," she said softly. "But she's not shown any signs of trauma. No nightmares or anything. She's been very clingy, though." Dax squeezed his hands again. "She's mostly been worried about you."

Julian glanced at her and smiled. "Thank you," he said softly. "I don't know what I would do without you." Dax smiled back and gently brushed a lock of hair off his forehead.

"You'd manage," she said softly, gently tracing the remaining bruise with her fingertips. Julian closed his eyes, allowing a slight smile to cross his features. Dax gently kissed him and slid off the bed. "We should go," she said, running her hand down his arm and taking his hand. "And you should get your rest."

"Yes, ma'am," he teased. Dax smiled and kissed him one last time before heading to his office. "Cati, go say bye to your dad," she said softly.

Cati glanced up. "We're going?" she asked, looking upset.

Dax smiled and knelt down to her level. "Your dad needs his sleep," she said. "C'mon. We'll come back and visit after lunch."

Cati nodded and headed over to his bed. Dax watched from the doorway as she pulled a chair up to the corner of the bed and climbed up. Cati curled close, giving him a hug. Dax could see Julian telling her something but couldn't hear. She saw Cati nod and give him a kiss. Julian smiled and raised a shaking hand to muss her hair before she climbed down. He watched as she carefully put the chair back and headed over to Jadzia. Dax caught his eye and smiled. Julian smiled back, raising a hand slightly in a wave goodbye as Cati reached Jadzia's side. Dax gently took Cati's hand and walked out.

*******

Two days later, Julian and the rest of patients were moved from the infirmary on the Melbourne to the station so repairs could begin. Dax walked into the infirmary and spotted Julian staring up at the ceiling. She bit back her laughter and walked over. "Trying to see how many holes are in the ceiling?" she teased, perching next to him.

Julian turned to face her and smiled. "Hey. Actually, I was." Dax laughed and kissed him.

"How are you feeling?" she asked, smoothing a lock of hair off his forehead.

Julian shrugged. "About the same," he said. Dax smiled slightly and rested her forehead against his. "Where's Cati?"

"Sleeping. Sheria's watching her." Dax kissed the tip of his nose. He smiled slightly.

"Hmm. So it's just us adults?" he teased.

Dax smiled, gently kissing the corner of his mouth. "Looks that way," she murmured teasingly.

Julian sighed happily. "Too bad I can't reciprocate too much." Dax smiled slightly and sat up. "When are you going to be released?" she asked, idly running a hand down his chest.

"Not soon enough," he said, closing his eyes. Dax hesitated and pulled her hand back, taking his.

"Sorry," she murmured. Julian smiled slightly.

"Forgiven," he teased. "I don't know," he admitted softly. "Milairn hasn't told me. I'm assuming that I'll have to go back to the alpha quadrant for treatment though."

Dax nodded, glancing at their hands. "I assumed as much also." She felt the usual mix of uncertainty fill her.

"What's wrong?" he asked softly. He let go of one of her hands and raised a shaking hand to her cheek. "Jadzia?"

She raised her gaze and smiled slightly. "It's nothing. I'm just going to miss you and Cati." She could feel his fingertips gently trembling and she raised a hand to his, gently supporting it. "Come with," he said softly, his dark eyes searching hers.

Dax started. "Julian, I don't think I can. I want to, more than anything but...I was just assigned here a few months ago."

Julian lowered his gaze and nodded. "I suppose," he said softly.

"Julian, don't," she said, lowering his hand into her lap. "Please don't ask me to do that. I want to, you know that. But I can't just pick everything up like that."

His eyes flicked back to her face. "Why not? I'd do the same for you."

Dax pulled back. "Would you?" She saw a stricken look cross his face. "Julian, you're asking me to take a leave of absence from the only posting I've liked since DS9. I wouldn't ask you do to that."

Julian nodded, looking away. "I..." he winced, his features contorting into a grimace.

"Julian?" Dax felt a panic seize her heart. "What's wrong? Julian?" He shook his head slightly, raising one hand to his forehead. Dax whirled. "Dr. Milairn!" she called. The man rushed out of his office and towards them. "What's wrong?" she asked, sliding off the bed, still holding onto Julian's hand.

Milairn scanned him, tapping at the tricorder. "Mild swelling," he said softly. "He should be alright, it'll just be very painful now and then."

Dax glanced at him. "Are you certain?" she asked, glancing down at Julian, who was gasping for air. Milairn nodded, closing the tricorder. "I could give him something for the pain but...."

"No," Julian choked out. "There's too many possible side effects." Dax glanced back down at him and smoothed his hair back. He tightened his grip on her hand. Dax glanced at Milairn, her eyes wide. He nodded slightly. "He's right," he said. "And even if he wasn't I couldn't do it without his permission."

Julian grunted slightly and hissed in pain. "I'm a doctor dammit. Of course I'm right."

Dax gently pressed a fingertip over his lips. "Shh. Just rest." She could see the tension leaving his frame. She glanced at the tray next to her and picked up a cloth, gently brushing at the dots of sweat that had appeared on his forehead. Milairn quietly stepped away, leaving them alone. "I'll talk with the Captain," Dax whispered, gently smoothing the cloth over his forehead. "I'll see if I can take a leave of absence to help out." She reached for the sterile water which also rested on the tray and poured a bit into the cloth, wetting it down. She placed it back on his forehead, noticing the relief that crossed his features at the coolness. "You don't have to," he said after a moment. "Stay here."

"Now, don't start with that," she said. "Just a few minutes ago, you were trying to convince me to come. Besides, you're going to need help with Cati." She placed a tender kiss on his lips and pulled the cloth back. "Now, you just get some sleep. I'll stop back later."

"Yes, ma'am," he murmured, smiling slightly. Dax smiled and kissed him again before walking out.

*******

"I'm sorry, Dax. I can't let you go."

Dax leaned forward, angrily. "Why not? I've got leave time built up."

"Commander you just started this tour a few months ago and now you want to take a leave of absence?" Marek studied her.

"Captain, believe me, I wish I didn't have to take it." Dax shook her head. "But he's not going to be able to take care of Cati by himself. And you didn't see him today in the infirmary."

Marek paused. "What happened?"

"Cerebral swelling," Dax said softly. "I've never seen him in so much pain. I..." she paused, carefully considering her next few words. "He's going to need help to get through this."

Marek lowered her gaze. "Dax, his parents are on their way out here. They're going to help with Cati and make sure he's alright. You aren't needed."

Dax lifted her chin in surprise. "I guess not," she murmured, glancing out the window. "Well, I guess I should go tell Julian about this."

"I will," Marek said, standing up. "You look like you could use some sleep." Dax nodded and stood up. "Dismissed, Commander."

Dax strode out onto the bridge and into the turbolift. Once inside, she sank against the wall and sighed unhappily, feeling close to tears.

*******

Julian glanced up in surprise as Gloria Marek walked into the infirmary. "Captain," he said. "To what do I owe this honor?"

"I just stopped in to tell you your parents are on their way out here." Marek stopped next to the bed.

"They are?" Julian asked, surprised. "When are they arriving?"

"Not for another two weeks. But we'll be in drydock for that long at least." Marek rested a hand on his shoulder. "How are you feeling?"

"I've been better," he smiled.

"Yes. Dax mentioned what happened earlier." Gloria studied him with a maternal eye.

Julian perked up. "She already spoke with you?"

She nodded. "Yes...but seeing as your parents are coming, I didn't see a need to give her a leave of absence." She watched as his eyes widened slightly and then narrow. "Julian," she began. "I made that decision as Captain of the Melbourne. I need Dax here. If I had the luxury of sparing her, she'd be packing her bags right now."

Julian frowned slightly. "Captain...Gloria, please. I know you may think I've taken this quickly but I care very much for her."

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder Julian." She shook her head. "I'm sorry." Julian sighed.

"Alright. I'm just going to hate to explain to Cati why she's not coming," he said, managing a slight smile. "She's grown very fond of Jadzia."

Gloria smiled. "If you want, I can. I haven't had much time to spend with my god-child anyhow."

Julian shook his head. "No, I will." Julian took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"I'll go. You look tired."

"Actually, I'm hungry," he grinned. Gloria chuckled and squeezed his hand. "I'll visit later," she smiled. Julian nodded and she walked out.

*******

Dax sat in Julian's quarters, idly shuffling through the PADDs on the coffee table. "Phantom of the Opera?" she asked, frowning slightly. "Where in the hell did he get this?"

"Jdzia?" Cati walked out of her bedroom, rubbing sleepily at her eyes. Dax smiled.

"Afternoon sleepyhead," she smiled, lifting her up onto her lap. "How'd you sleep?"

" Kay," she said, snuggling close, still looking drowsy. Dax smiled and kissed the top of her head. "Is papa back?"

"No," Dax smiled. "He's still in the infirmary on the station."

"When will he be back?" Cati turned serious blue eyes to Jadzia.

"I don't know, love. It'll probably be awhile. And then you and your dad and your grandparents are going to be going back to the Alpha quadrant."

Cati perked up. "Are you coming?" she asked, wrapping her thin arms around her arm.

Dax shook her head. "No. I've got to stay here."

Cati pouted. "I want you to come," she said.

Dax smiled. "I want to come too. But I've got to stay here." Cati jutted out her lower lip. Dax laughed. "That didn't work for me either," she teased. Cati giggled. "What do you say we pack a picnic supper and go have dinner with your dad?" she asked. Cati cheered and leapt off the couch. Dax laughed and followed.

*******

Julian glanced up in surprise as Jadzia and Cati walked in, Jadzia holding a picnic basket. He grinned. "What's this?" he asked, ruffling Cati's hair as she bounced around his bed.

"We brought you dinner!" Cati grinned as Dax set down the picnic basket and scooped her up and set her next to Julian.

Julian glanced at Jadzia, who smiled. "I called Milairn and asked him what you could have." She pulled out a container of plain broth and some dry toast. "I'm afraid this is all he recommended."

Julian sniffed at the food. "Well, after not having eaten for three days, this smells wonderful." He hesitated for a moment. "Although, I don't know how..." He raised his hand, which was still shaking. Dax nodded. "I thought of that." She sat Cati down and handed her her dinner. Julian managed a smile. "Tuna casserole again?"

"Well," Dax smiled, taking out her own dinner. Julian's mouth watered at the smell of hasperat. "She likes it."

"I know," Julian grinned, watching her practically devour her dinner. "Hey, take it easy." Cati slowed down. Julian smiled and turned to Jadzia. "You mentioned having a solution?" he asked, munching on some toast which he had soaked in the broth.

Dax smiled and slid closer. "Well, I didn't say I had a solution. I just said I had thought of it."

Julian sighed and glanced at the soup, his stomach rumbling. Dax laughed. "Well, unless you're entirely opposed to the idea...." She gestured to the broth.

"Love, I'm starving. What do you think?" Dax giggled and reached for the soup. Cati glanced up. "I'm finished. Can I go read?"

Dax reached into the picnic basket and pulled out a book for her. Cati grinned and scampered into the office before either could protest. Dax glanced at Julian, who looked ready to start laughing. "Well," Dax said after a moment. "So far there hasn't been a protest." She glanced at him and laughed. He was eyeing the soup she had brought. "You're not very subtle when you're hungry, are you." She scooped some up and Julian smiled as he swallowed. "This seems...odd," he admitted, grinning at her.

"Hmm," Dax murmured, sliding closer. "Well, we could make it a bit more normal," she said, gently kissing him. Julian relaxed, sliding a hand to her waist. She pulled back, smiling. Julian bit back a grin.

"This is normal?" he teased, sipping the soup she offered him.

Dax grinned, sliding a hand across his waist. "Well," she said, glancing around. "It's not like anyone's in here."

Julian grinned. "True," he murmured, sitting up slightly. He pulled her closer. Dax giggled slightly as his lips brushed hers.

"I thought you were hungry," she teased.

"I am," he returned, kissing her neck. Dax sighed in delight. "You *are* feeling better,"she murmured. Julian laughed softly. Dax pulled back, brushing at his hair. "You know, one wouldn't be able to tell."

"Except for the lisp and the fact that my hands shake," he replied, glancing at his hands.

Dax caught his hands in hers and raised them to her lips. "You'll be fine," she whispered. She glanced down. "I talked with the Captain."

"I know," he whispered. "She stopped in here earlier." Julian carefully lifted her hands to his lips. Jadzia smiled, glad she was sitting down because she was pretty positive her knees would have given out on her. "I do appreciate you trying though," he murmured, kissing her hands again. Dax felt her heart begin to pound.

"Julian," she whispered, her eyes meeting his. He smiled and lowered her hands to his lap. "Sorry," he said softly. Dax grinned and kissed him.

"You're incorrigible," she murmured.

"I hate to interrupt," a voice broke in. Dax glanced over her shoulder and saw Milairn standing there, looking uncomfortable. Dax smiled slightly. "But I have a little girl sound asleep in my office."

Dax grinned and glanced at Julian. "Maybe I should go," she smiled.

"Probably," he said. He glanced at the soup. "Thank you, though," he said, his dark eyes glowing.

Dax smiled and gently touched his chin. "You're welcome," she whispered. They kissed tenderly, completely forgetting Milairn standing off to one side.

*******

Dax set Cati down on her bed and moved to find some pj's for her. Cati shifted sleepily on the bed and Dax smiled. She found a nightgown and went back and slipped her out of her clothes and into the nightgown. Cati stirred and briefly opened her eyes. "Jdsia?" she murmured.

"Shhh," Dax whispered, pulling the covers up. "Go back to bed." She placed a gentle kiss on her forehead and tiptoed out. Dax smiled to herself as she went into Julian's bedroom and changed into her own nightgown and robe. She padded over to the replicator. "Tarkalian tea," she said softly. The replicator whirred at the same time as the door chimed. Dax glanced up. "Come in," she called softly.

Liam glanced in. "I take it Cati's asleep," he said, smiling.

Dax smiled and nodded. "Hello Liam. Can I get you something to drink?"

"No thanks, Dax." He paused. "I just wanted to hear how Julian's doing. I've been busy with repairs so..."

Dax nodded, noticing the fine smudges under his eyes. "He's doing okay. He's going to have to head back home for therapy though."

Liam took a deep breath and nodded. "He's going to be able to practice still, right?"

Dax paused. "We don't know yet," she admitted. "Hopefully."

Liam shook his head slowly. "How are you doing?" he asked after a moment.

Dax smiled. "I'm doing fine. I'd forgotten how tiring it is to care for a three year old though."

Liam grinned. "She's a bundle of energy," he chuckled. "That's for sure."

Dax laughed. "Are you sure I can't get you something?" she asked.

"No. I've got to be going anyhow." Liam reached up and tipped an imaginary hat. "I'll see you later, Dax." She nodded and he walked out. Dax smiled and sat down on the couch, sipping her tea. She picked up the PADD she had been reading earlier but couldn't concentrate enough to read. Her mind wandered, thinking of the not so distant future. She knew that the months while Julian and Cati would be away were going to be long and lonely. She had no doubt in her mind that what she felt for Julian was love. As for Cati, Dax felt like she was her own child. Dax pulled a blanket off the back of the couch and curled up in it. He wouldn't leave for a couple of weeks but she missed him already.

*******

Two weeks later, Jadzia Dax stood at the airlock on Gamma Outpost Six with Cati, waiting for Julian's parents to exit. Cati danced around Jadzia's legs, impatiently. "Are they here yet?" she asked, bouncing up onto her tiptoes.

Dax laughed at her enthusiasm. "Not ye..Oh! There they are!" she exclaimed, scooping Cati up. Cati craned her neck anxiously until she saw them. "Mima! Bumpa!"

Dax raised an eyebrow, smiling. The Bashirs stepped out, smiling at their granddaughter. "Hello, Catilynn," Amsha smiled, accepting the little girl from Dax. Dax smiled and clasped her hands behind her back, unsure of what to do with them. Richard ruffled his granddaughter's hair as he turned to Dax. "Hello Commander. It's been a long time."

Dax smiled brilliantly. "It's good to see you too Mr. Bashir. I don't think we ever got to have that conversation about Julian's childhood."

Richard smiled and placed his hand on Amsha's back, moving her from the airlock. "How have you been, Dax?" Amsha asked.

"Good," she said, smiling as Cati reached for her. She accepted her and shifted her onto her hip. "Things have been going well."

Cati tapped Jadzia's shoulder. "Can we go see Papa?"

"Absolutely," Dax smiled. She glanced at Julian's parents, who suddenly sobered up slightly. Dax set Cati down and motioned Julian's parents forward. Richard took his granddaughter's hand and walked with her as Amsha walked with Jadzia.

"How is he?" she asked, wringing her hands slightly.

Dax smiled. "He's much better," she said softly. She rested a hand on Amsha's shoulder.

Amsha glanced at her. "Jadzia, thank you for taking care of Cati while Julian's been in the infirmary. I can't imagine what he would have done without you."

Dax smiled and glanced down. "He'd have been able to manage. There are at least half a dozen people on board which would have helped out in a heartbeat."

Amsha glanced at her. "I suppose. But Cati seems to have grown quite attached to you."

Dax dipped her head as they stepped into the Infirmary. "I've grown quite attached to Cati too," she murmured. She smiled as Julian glanced up at their voices.

Amsha's hand flew to her throat. "Oh, my baby," she murmured, moving to the side of his bed. Julian smiled slightly and raised a hand as she hugged him to hug her back. "Hello mother," he murmured, kissing her cheek.

Amsha closed her eyes. "You certainly like scaring us, don't you?" She kissed his forehead, straightening up.

Julian smiled slightly. "I'm fine," he said. Amsha's eyes widened slightly at the lisp but said nothing. However, Richard wasn't as subtle.

"My word," he said, setting Cati on the corner of the bed. "What's wrong?"

Julian sighed. "I thought they explained what happened?" he asked.

"They did," Amsha said soothingly, gently taking his hand. "But it's still a shock." Julian nodded and glanced at Jadzia. She smiled slightly.

"I've got to go," she said softly. "I'm supposed to meet with Liam about the repairs for the science lab and the sensors."

"Say hi for me," he smiled, reaching for her hand. Dax smiled and gave his hand a gentle squeeze. He tried his best not to look to surprised that she didn't give him a kiss goodbye but he didn't say anything.

"The two of you seem very close," Richard commented.

Julian glanced up at his father. "We've been friends for twelve years," he said. "I'd be pretty shocked if we weren't."

"You know what I mean," Richard said, his voice lowering.

"Richard," Amsha broke in, her voice almost a sigh of exasperation.

"No," Julian said, frowning back at his father. "I want to know what he thinks."

Richard sighed. "I just think that you're moving awfully fast."

"And you don't know what you're talking about," Julian returned. He sat up and sat Cati on his lap. "It's been over two years since Lara died. Jadzia's an old friend. Cati adores her." He glanced up, his eyes flashing. "And I love her more than anything."

Amsha smiled and glanced at Richard. He glanced down for a moment. "Julian," Amsha broke in, not wanting things to escalate. "It's your life. You don't have to defend yourself to us." She smiled at Cati, who was tugging at her sleeve. "You deserve happiness."

Julian smiled slightly and glanced at his father. He was gazing at his son and managed a slight smile. Julian took a deep breath and let it out. "When will you be able to leave Julian?" Amsha asked.

"In a couple days, I'll be released from the infirmary. The next shuttle back to the Alpha Quadrant is in a week. That will give myself and Cati enough time to pack." Julian ruffled Cati's hair.

Amsha nodded. "Will you be needing help with that?" she asked.

Julian smiled. "Probably," he admitted. "But I'm sure Jadzia will help, if she hasn't already started." Cati nodded at him and he laughed.

*******

Dax tapped the commands to the quarters and send an amused glance at Julian. "Welcome home," she teased. He grinned and walked in, shaking his head. He glanced around at the boxes sitting in the corners. He sank down on the couch with a sigh and Dax sat down next to him. "Are you okay?" she asked softly.

"Yes," he said, leaning back. "It just seems odd to see boxes in here."

Dax curled close to him. "I know," she whispered, gently taking his hand in hers. "I'm going to miss you."

Julian glanced at her and smiled sadly. "I'm going to miss you too, love. More than anything." Dax gazed at him and smiled. He bent his neck and kissed her. He had missed this, being able to hold her and not have to feel self conscious about someone walking in on them. Dax responded, gently wrapping her arms around his back. Julian pulled back with a grin. "Jadzia, love, I'm not breakable. Trust me."

Dax smiled and pulled him close. "Perhaps not. But you do tire easily and I don't know if I trust myself."

Julian laughed and kissed her. He could feel her relaxing when the door chimed. Julian pulled back and glanced at Jadzia, who was laughing silently. "Come in," he grinned.

The door slid open and Cati darted in. "Papa! You're home!"

Julian smiled and picked her up, setting her on his lap as his parents walked in. "Hello, sweetie," he smiled. Cati threw her arms around his neck. Julian grinned and glanced at Jadzia.

"You would think she hadn't seen him all this time," Richard smiled. Julian smiled at him and Cati lunged for Jadzia, taking her by surprise. Dax crashed backwards, hitting her head against the armrest. "Oomph," she grunted.

Cati's eyes went wide. "Jdzia? Are you okay?"

Dax smiled up at her. "I'm fine. You just surprised me." She sat up, smiling at Julian's look of concern.

Cati's arms flew around Jadzia's neck in a hug. "I'm sorry."

Dax quirked an eyebrow and glanced at Julian. She gently kissed the top of her head. "It's okay," she said. "Why don't you go play?" she suggested. Cati nodded and scrambled down off the couch.

"How do you feel?" Amsha asked Julian, although her gaze was on Dax.

"I'm fine," he snapped, sighing in exasperation. "I just wish everyone would stop asking me that every five seconds." He felt a gentle hand rest on his arm and sighed. "I'm sorry," he said softly. "I didn't mean to snap."

"It's alright," Amsha replied. "We should go. Let you rest." She saw an irritated glint come into her son's eyes and smiled. "Sorry. Good night."

"Good night," Julian replied, watching them leave. The doors slid shut behind them and he sighed. "I have a feeling that between my mother and my father, I'm going to go crazy in the following months."

Dax laughed softly and hugged him. "You'll manage. And besides, you'll have Cati to distract them."

Julian laughed lightly and slid an arm around her. "I suppose so." He kissed her tenderly. Dax kissed him back, gently working at the fastenings of his shirt. He pulled back, somewhat surprised. "Not that I'm complaining," he said softly, "but perhaps this could wait till later? Like, when Cati's asleep?"

Dax laughed and ran her hand lightly down his chest. "I suppose," she teased. "If you feel up to it." She was only half joking on the last part. She saw irritation creep back into his gaze and she frowned. "Don't you give me that look," she said. "I've got several years on you young man so you'd better listen." Julian frowned but nodded.

"Alright," he sighed. He gently kissed her. "I'll give Milairn this much, he doesn't let his patients go until he's absolutely certain they're going to be alright."

Dax smiled and kissed the corner of his mouth, sliding her hand under his shirt. He smiled and started to kiss her in return when Cati bounced out of her room. "Papa?"

"Yes, love?" Julian turned to scoop his daughter up and winced slightly.

"What's wrong?" Dax asked softly.

"Nothing," Julian smiled through gritted teeth. Dax glanced at Cati, who was studying her father with wide eyes. "Papa? Are you okay?"

Julian nodded slightly and glanced at Dax. Dax scooped Cati up. "C'mon munchkin. Let's get you ready for bed," she said. "You had a busy day and a nice dinner with Mima and Bumpa." She saw Julian smile slightly and lay down on the couch, one hand raising to his forehead. Dax got her dressed and read a quick bedtime story. Saying goodnight, she walked into the living room where Julian still lay on the couch, his hand still covering his eyes. "I'll call Dr. Milairn," she whispered, kneeling next to him.

"No," he murmured. He lowered his hand. "I'm fine. Computer, one quarter lights." He sat up slightly. "It's nothing."

"Don't give me that," she whispered. "You suffered a head trauma and you're telling me to ignore this?" She got up and retrieved a tricorder. She knelt back down next to him and scanned him, worry creasing her forehead. "Still mild swelling...it's not as bad as before though."

Julian smiled wanly. "See? I told you."

Dax lifted her gaze to his. "In bed with you mister. Come on." She closed the tricorder and set it on the table. She helped him to his feet and accompanied him to the bedroom.

Julian grunted softly as he sank down. "I'm not tired."

"And you sound like Cati." She rested her hands on his shoulders. "Now, are you going to get undressed or do I have to help you?"

Julian tossed her an amused look which she shot down with one of her own. He sighed. "No, I'm fine." He shrugged out of his clothes and changed into the sweats she tossed to him. "Thanks."

Dax sank down on the bed next to him. "Don't mention it. I'll be right back. I'm going to put the tricorder away so Cati doesn't get at it." Julian nodded and stretched out on the bed. Dax reappeared a few moments later and changed into a nightgown. Julian followed her with his eyes. "I'd almost forgotten how beautiful you are," he said softly. Dax glanced at him and blushed slightly. She walked over and stretched out next to him. "I've gotten used to sleeping in this bed," she said softly. "But it's odd having someone else in it."

Julian smiled and wrapped an arm around her. "Well, guess you'll just have to get used to it all over again," he murmured. Dax laughed. "But not tonight," she smiled propping herself up on one arm. She brushed at his brow with the other. "You just get your rest. We'll say goodbye some other night." Julian smiled slightly and kissed her. "Yes, ma'am," he whispered, closing his eyes. Dax smiled and curled close, glad he was home.

********

Dax glanced around the room. "I think we have everything from here," she said. She glanced down at Cati. "You're all set munchkin."

Cati glanced at Jadzia and threw her arms around her legs. "I don't wanna go!"

Dax smiled slightly and gently set a hand on Cati's head. "You're not leaving till tomorrow," she said softly. "And a lot of this is just going into storage so it'll be here when you get back."

Cati pouted. "But YOU'RE not coming!" she wailed.

Dax felt her heart seize and she knelt down next to Cati. "I know, munchkin. But I'll write you and your dad a lot. I promise." Cati threw her arms around Jadzia's neck. Dax hugged the little girl tight. "Now," Jadzia said, pulling back. "Get changed into your pyjamas and get into bed." Cati nodded and changed into her nightgown and crawled into her bed. Dax gently kissed her forehead and lowered the lights as she left. She spotted Julian packing some items into a box. Dax walked over and gently wrapped her arms around his waist. "Hi," she murmured against the back of his neck.

Julian turned his head slightly and smiled. "Hi," he murmured back. Dax smiled and kissed him. She felt him begin to respond, turning slightly so he could hold her. Dax leaned against him, feeling her pulse quicken. She pulled back after a moment. "Why don't we save that for later? Otherwise we won't get a thing packed."

Julian laughed and kissed her. "In that case, why don't you get us some coffee."

"You can't have caffeine and you know it." Dax let him go and walked over to the replicator. "Two decaffeinated Chais."

Julian glanced at her, surprised. "Chai? I haven't had one of those in years...." Dax handed it to him and he took a sip. "Hmmm," he murmured, closing his eyes. "This is wonderful."

Dax smiled and set her drink down on the table. She began packing some odd knickknacks away. "I got addicted at my last post. But I only have them when I feel like indulging myself."

Julian grinned and turned back to the shelves. "All that cream," he said, taking another sip. Dax laughed and nodded. Julian smiled and absently reached for one of the photos. He paused and gazed at it for a long time. Julian felt a quiet sadness fill him and he gently brushed his fingertips over Lara's smiling face. A million and one images filtered through his mind: the day he met her, the day he proposed, their wedding, Cati's birth, simply holding her and enjoying how easily his fingers could get tangled in her curly dark hair.

"Julian?" He glanced up, startled. He saw Jadzia gazing at him, concerned. "Julian? What's wrong?" She walked over and glanced at the photo in his hands. Dax's eyes widened in sympathy and she wrapped her arms around his waist. "I'm sorry," she said softly.

Julian shook his head. "No. There's nothing to be sorry about." He gently pulled out of Dax's embrace and walked over to the couch. He sat down, lost in thought. "I remember coming to after that attack. I glanced over and saw Cati on the biobed next to me . . . all hooked up to various machines." He blinked, dispelling that particular demon. "But when I didn't see Lara anywhere, I though she had survived, that the explosion didn't look as bad as I thought it had been." Dax sat down next to him, gazing at him quietly. "When Gloria stopped in, I asked her where Lara was..." Dax saw his eyes close and she gently rested a hand on his arm. Julian sighed softly and gently ran his fingertips over the photo. "I just couldn't let go."

Dax rested her head against his shoulder. "You had Cati to worry about. Everyone understood."

Julian shook his head and set the photo on the table. "No. That's not the reason. I didn't want to let go. I didn't want to believe she had left me for good." He glanced at her and managed a thin smile. "I'm sorry. Here this is our last night together for awhile and I'm sulki..."

Dax placed a hand over his mouth. "Don't you dare apologize," she said softly. She removed her hand. She gently took his hands in hers. "You have a right to feel the way you do. I know."

Julian smiled slightly and gently kissed her forehead. "I do love you," he whispered.

Jadzia pulled back, stunned. "What?" Julian asked, confused

She opened her mouth to say something but couldn't find the words for a moment. "I...it's nothing. That's just the first time you've ever told me that."

Julian gazed at her, thinking. 'She's right,' he thought, stunned. He gently lifted a hand to her temple and traced the spots framing her face. He barely noticed the tremble in his hands anymore. Jadzia closed her eyes and leaned into the caress. Julian lifted his other hand to her lips as he slid his left hand around to the nape of her neck. Dax lifted a hand to his chin as his lips pressed against hers. Dax slid close, running her arms around his back. "I love you too," she whispered as he turned his attention to her neck. Julian smiled slightly and continued his lazy path down the line of spots. He wasn't in any hurry for the night to be over. He didn't want to leave her tomorrow.

*******

Dax curled close to him, wrapping her arms around his chest. "What time is it," she murmured lazily.

"Six am," he replied, pulling her close. Dax gently kissed his chest. "What time do you leave?"

"Noon," he murmured. He ran a hand idly down her side. "I'm going to miss you."

"I'll miss you too," she said softly. She rested her head against his chest and pressed her face against the hollow of his throat. Julian sighed softly and pulled her closer.

"Papa?" Julian glanced over to see Cati standing in the doorway, one hand clutching at a blanket and the other rubbing sleepily at her eyes. Julian smiled and glanced at Jadzia who had untucked her face to smile at Cati. "What munchkin?"

Cati climbed up on the bed and sat next to him. "I can't sleep."

Julian smiled. "Alright. You can stay here until we get up." Cati smiled and slid in between them, curling close to Julian.

Dax propped herself up, grateful she had pulled on a nightgown and gently covered Cati with her blanket as Julian was stuck. Cati smiled sleepily at her and closed her eyes. Dax smiled and lay back down. She glanced up at Julian, who was gazing at her. "What?" she asked softly.

Julian's eyes sparkled as he reached and slid an arm around her shoulders. "I love you," he murmured, gently kissing her.

Dax smiled. "I love you too, Julian."

*******

Dax walked quietly with the Bashirs to the airlock where the transport waited to take them back to the Alpha Quadrant. Julian was going to be seeing a physical therapist he knew on Bajor. Dax paused outside the airlock and knelt down in front of Cati. "You be good," she said, gently ruffling her hair. "Don't wear your dad out too much."

"Okay, Jdzia," she replied seriously. Dax smiled and hugged her gently. She started to let go but Cati wouldn't release her neck. Dax smiled, fighting tears. After a bit, Cati let go and Dax gave her a kiss on the cheek. Cati sniffled slightly as she walked over to Julian's parents. Amsha scooped the little girl up and they walked through the airlock. Dax stood up and glanced at Julian. He gently brushed her cheek.

"I'll write," he promised.

"You'd better believe you will," she said, crushing him in a hug. Julian closed his eyes and held her tightly. After a moment, she pulled back and kissed him. Julian leaned into her passionate embrace, not caring who passed by. Several minutes passed before she pulled back. "You be careful," she murmured. Julian smiled and nodded.

"I will. I promise." He kissed her again.

"Julian!" A chorus of voices broke them apart and Julian glanced up the hall. He grinned as he spotted Liam, Meleria, and Arnwar trotting towards them. "Thought we had missed you," Liam said. He pulled Julian into a fierce hug. "If you get up to that station of yours, say hello to Quark for us."

Julian laughed and nodded. "Will do." He tipped his head towards Jadzia. "Win some of that money back and send it out." Dax gently elbowed him. "And keep an eye on her for me."

"Will do," Liam grinned, snagging an arm around Jadzia's shoulder. Jadzia laughed. Julian smiled and glanced over his shoulder. "I should be going." He shouldered his bag and glanced at Jadzia. "I'll be back soon." She smiled and nodded. Julian nodded at the other three and walked through. Dax sighed softly and glanced at the others.

"Poker tonight?" she asked. The others simply grinned.

*******

Dax stretched her long legs out in front of her, relaxing briefly from the extensive tests she had been running on a sample from a local planet. She tipped her head up and gazed at the photo Meleria had given her for her birthday a few weeks back. It was of her and Julian dancing together at that first formal reception. She smiled and plucked it from the shelf as the computer announced a substance message for her. She glanced up and activated her terminal. "Julian!"

"Hello," he smiled. "I thought I'd drop you a line."

Dax grinned from ear to ear. "I'm glad you did," she said. "I was beginning to feel lonely."

"Beginning to?" he teased. "It's been three weeks since I left."

"I know," she said, leaning forward. "Believe me." Julian laughed. Dax smiled. "You look good," she said softly. When he had left, although he tried to hide it, he was in pretty bad shape. He had lost a lot of weight, was pale, and his lisp was very thick, although she had gotten used to it somewhat. The first few weeks had been good to him.

Julian smiled. "Thanks. I have to admit, I feel better."

Dax gently touched the screen. "How's Cati?"

"She's good. She misses you a lot though." She saw his eyes smile at that.

Dax smiled back. "I miss her too." She glanced at the computer, which was blinking at her, announcing that the automated part of the tests was over. She sighed. "Julian, I hate to say this but..."

"You've got to go," he said. Dax smiled and nodded. "That's okay. I know you have work to do. I'll write soon."

"Alright. I love you."

"I love you too," he said softly, cutting the connection. Dax smiled and paused for a moment before turning back to her work.

*******

Dax stirred late the next morning and sat up. "Ooh," she moaned. "No more late night poker games. I swear it! I'm getting too old for this." She quickly got showered and dressed and headed for the science lab to check on her experiment. She nodded to her staff as she walked in and moved to the shelf where she had placed her sample. Dax opened the doors and lifted it. She felt a wave of dizziness move through her as she walked to her lab bench. 'Perhaps I should have eaten breakfast,' she though, setting the sample down. No sooner had she thought this than she fainted.

*******

Dax grunted at the bright lights that shone into her eyes. "Turn those down," she grumbled, struggling to sit up.

The lights dimmed and she found herself looking up at T'Sari, the Vulcan doctor who had replaced Julian temporarily as CMO. "I am sorry Commander," came the measured Vulcan speech. "Is that suitable?"

"Yes," she said. She scrubbed a hand over her forehead. "What happened?"

"You experienced a temporary lack of oxygen to the brain which caused you to lose your equilibrium."

"In layman's terms, I fainted," she said. "I knew I should have had breakfast but I was running late."

"Although you are correct in stating that, malnourishment was not the cause of your dizzy spell."

"Really?" she asked. "What was?"

"You are three and a half weeks pregnant." T'Sari was throughly surprised when Dax whitened and collapsed back onto the biobed, unconscious. "Fascinating," she said, quirking an eyebrow. She moved to revive Dax and a moment later, she regained consciousness, groaning softly. "Are you alright Commander?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just had the oddest dream though. You just told me I was pregnant and..."

"That wasn't a dream Commander," T'Sari said, curious.

Dax gazed at her, startled before reality hit. "Ooh. No, you're right. It's a nightmare."

T'Sari's brows flew up. "Traditionally, the announcement that one is about to have a child isn't received in such a manner. Can I assume that this wasn't a planned pregnancy?"

Dax managed a wry smile. "You can assume just that, T'Sari."

T'Sari nodded, understandingly. "I see. Would you like me to call the father down to Sick Bay Commander?" T'Sari paused as the scene repeated itself and Jadzia was once again unconscious.

*******

Dax paced around her quarters, her mind racing. Dear gods, what am I going to tell Julian?' She started when the door announced someone's presence outside. "Come in," she called.

Liam glanced in. "I heard you had an incident in the Science Lab. Are you okay?"

Dax managed a tight smile. "I'm fine. You really took Julian's instructions about keeping an eye on me seriously, didn't you?"

Liam laughed. "Absolutely. He'd kill me otherwise."

Dax laughed in response. "Have a seat Liam. I need someone to talk to."

Liam sobered up. "What's wrong?" He could see lines of nervousness and uncertainty creasing her face.

"You heard I fainted in the lab, right." It was more a statement than a question. "Well, the reason isn't what I had thought."

"What do you mean?" Liam asked, watching her pace.

"I thought it was because I skipped breakfast. Just a lack of sugar in the blood. Something simple..." Dax gazed out the window.

"What's wrong?" Liam demanded. "Dax, you're beginning to scare me..."

"Liam, I'm pregnant." She turned to face him. She had grown to trust him since signing on and he was Julian's best friend on board. And right then, she needed some advice.

Liam's eyes went wide. "Oh, my God," he gaped. "How many months?"

"Not even one," she said, returning to pacing. "How in the hell am I going to tell Julian? This isn't the sort of thing one should announce over subspace." She shook her head. "I can just imagine that conversation. 'Hello Julian. How's therapy going? Oh, by the way, I'm pregnant.'"

Liam bit back a grin. "Dax, maybe you're making too much of this. For all you know, he'll be thrilled."

Dax glanced at him. "Do you really think so?" She shook her head wryly. "I've known him for twelve years but I have no clue how he's going to react to this."

Liam smiled slightly. "There's really only one way to find out," he said. Dax glanced at him and took a deep breath. "You're right," she said. "You're right." She stopped pacing and smiled. "Thank you Liam. I appreciate this."

Liam grinned and stood. "Don't mention it. Its good to see someone over 300 years old still needs advice every now and then." Dax smiled. He gave her a hug. "And congratulations," he grinned.

Dax smiled and glanced down. "Thank you, Liam." He nodded and walked out. Dax took a deep breath and glanced at the computer. "Okay..." she said softly. She walked over and requested the link. A few moments later, Julian's smiling face appeared. "Jadzia," he grinned. "This is a surprise."

Dax smiled. "Well, I felt bad about getting cut off the other night," she said. She hesitated. "And I have some news," she admitted.

Julian leaned back in his seat. "Really? What's that?"

Dax paused and glanced down at her hands for a moment. "Well, there's no real easy way to put this," she began. She glanced up and met his gaze. "Julian, I just found out I'm pregnant." She watched with mixed emotions as his features went slack with shock. He opened his mouth to say something and then closed it again. Dax sat patiently for a moment but after staring ateach other for a few minutes she couldn't take it. "Julian? Please say something."

He shook his head slowly. "Wow. This really is news, isn't it," he murmured.

Dax winced. "That wasn't exactly what I had in mind," she said softly.

"I'm sorry," he murmured, studying her. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine," she said, fighting back her anxiety. "Julian, I know this isn't exactly what we had planned..."

"We had a plan?" he murmured, scrubbing a hand across his forehead.

Dax felt her stomach bottom out. "I guess not," she suddenly snapped. "I take it that you aren't to fond of this then..."

Julian glanced up in shock. "What? Oh, gods Jadzia. That's not what I meant. This is just a shock, that's all."

"For the both of us," she reminded him.

He lowered his head. "I'm sorry," he said softly. He glanced up, a slight smile touching his features. "How many months?"

"About three and a half weeks," she said, smiling slightly in response. She saw a grin spread across his features and a weight lifted from her chest. "Trills carry for about eight months, right?" he asked. Dax nodded. He smiled. "Well, hopefully I'll be back in about three," he said.

"Hopefully sooner than that," Dax smiled. He grinned and nodded. Dax glanced down for a moment. "Where's Cati?" she asked, tipping her head gently to one side.

"Outside playing with one of the neighbors," he said. He glanced over his shoulder as Dax heard someone enter. "I'd better go," he said, turning back. He smiled slightly. "I'll call you soon," he promised. "You take care of yourself."

"I will. I promise." She smiled tenderly. "I love you."

"I love you too," he said softly. Dax smiled and cut the connection.

*******

Julian gazed at the dark screen for a moment, a goofy grin on his face. "Julian? What is it?" He turned to see his mother gazing at him oddly. He bit his lower lip. "Jadzia just called," he said, trying to steel his features into one of seriousness. "She had some news."

"Oh? What's that?" Amsha sat down in the chair across from him.

Julian hesitated for a moment. "She just found out that she's three and a half weeks pregnant," he said, studying her reaction.

Amsha Bashir sat back in shock. "She's what?" Both turned to see Richard Bashir standing in the doorway. Julian smiled slightly. "Oh, my God," he murmured. "And she plans on keeping..."

Julian's features darkened instantly. "Of course she is," he snapped. "My God, you think either one of us would choose to terminate the pregnancy just because we didn't plan this?"

Richard pinned him to his chair with a firm look. "I never said that," he said quietly. "But I do think that this is far too big a step for a relationship that's just beginning."

Julian glared. "This isn't your decision," he snapped hotly. "This is ours."

"Have you told Cati?" he asked.

"I just found out," Julian retorted. "I haven't had time." He frowned. "I thought you liked Jadzia," he said, allowing some confusion into his gaze.

"I do," Richard replied, frowning.

"Then why can't you accept this?" Julian's eyes lanced through him. His hands tightened into fists. "You weren't fond of Lara but you accepted that. WHY can't you accept this?"

Richard stared at his son in shock. "Julian..." He glanced down for a moment. "I'm just worried about you."

Julian nodded. "I know. But you have to understand, this is *my* life." He frowned. "That's why I'm going to let this drop here." He scrubbed a hand over his eyes. "Now, I've got to go find my daughter." He stood up and walked outside.

Amsha turned to her husband. "Sometimes, you amaze me," she said with a sigh of frustration.

*******

"Catilynn!" Julian glanced around, wondering where she could have gotten to. They were living in the capitol near the clinic, renting a house. There was a young family next door who had a little girl a year older than Cati. They had invited them over the first day that Julian and his family had arrived and the two of them had become fast friends.

"Papa!" Cati tore around the corner of the house, Lisar Telia hot on her heels. Julian smiled and knelt down as Cati threw herself into his arms. "Papa, can Telia stay over?"

Julian glanced up to see Telia's mother emerge from the house. She smiled and nodded, indicating it was alright with her. Julian turned to Cati. "That's fine. But you and I have to have a little talk first."

"Okay." She turned to Telia. "I'll be right there." Telia nodded and darted off to her house. Cati turned to Julian. "What Papa?"

"I have some news for you, little one," he said. "Jadzia just called earlier."

"Jdzia!" Cati grinned. "Can I talk to her?"

"Oh, she had to go," he said softly. "You can the next time I talk to her." He shifted so he was sitting down. "Cati, Jadzia called to tell me that she's going to have a baby."

Cati paused, gazing at him with wide blue eyes. "A baby?"

Julian nodded. "You're going to have a little brother or sister."

Cati furrowed her brow. "But...but is she my mommy now?"

Julian's brows lifted and he smiled. "Yes and no...she's not your mommy now but she might be eventually. She and I have to talk about whether she'll adopt you legally." He saw her forehead wrinkle even more in confusion. Julian smiled and gently touched her chin. "You remember your mommy right?" Cati nodded. "She'll always be your mommy, Cati. But Jadzia will also be your mommy. Is this making any sense?"

Cati paused. "I guess so..."

Julian shook his head, smiling. "Perhaps Jadzia will be able to explain it better next time we talk." He was a bit concerned he hadn't gotten a real reaction about the baby.

Cati seemed to be thinking hard. She chewed on her lower lip slightly. "Papa? Is the baby a boy or a girl?"

Julian glanced up. "Oh, love. We won't know for awhile."

Cati nodded and grinned. "I hope she has a little sister for me."

Julian grinned and kissed her forehead. "Well, we'll see. You wouldn't be disappointed with a little brother, would you?"

Cati bit her lower lip. "Could I still teach him how to draw?"

Julian grinned. "Of course!"

"And play the piano?"

"Absotively posilutely," he grinned, using a phrase of Lara's. Cati giggled and hugged him.

*******

Jadzia tapped the doorcomm to the captain's ready room. "Come in," she called. Dax walked in and stood at ease. "Captain," she said.

"Commander." Marek smiled. "Have a seat."

"Thank you sir." Dax sat down and fiddled slightly. "Captain, there's something I need to tell you."

"How are you feeling?" Marek leaned forward. "I heard about your dizzy spells."

Dax's eyes went wide. "You did?" she asked.

Marek smiled. "T'Sari came up to consult with me about your condition'." Dax flushed. Gloria smiled. "So, how do you feel?"

Dax cleared her throat. "I'm fine. Much better now that I've told Julian."

Gloria nodded. "How did he..."

Dax smiled. "He was surprised but he seemed to warm up to the idea by the end of the conversation."

Gloria laughed. "Well, it's a start I suppose." She sobered slightly. "How about you? Are you excited? After all is said and done, you're the one who has to live through . . . how many months?"

"Eight," Dax smiled.

"Eight months of hell."

Dax smiled and nodded. "I am," she admitted. She began laughing. "I really am. I just can't believe it, though. I never thought I'd be having a child at this stage in my life."

Gloria smiled. "Why not?"

Jadzia shrugged. "Because I never considered it." Both women laughed. Dax grinned. "In any case, I can tell you right now that . . ."

"You're probably going to be taking mornings off."

Dax laughed and nodded. "Trills don't get morning sickness per se but, well, the dizzy spells are pretty frequent."

"It's alright. I'll inform Meleria about this and the two of you can work out a schedule."

Dax smiled. "Thank you." She stood up. "I'll see you later Captain."

"Of course Commander. And congratulations." Dax flashed a bright smile and walked out. She nodded to Meleria and Arnwar.

"Commander," Meleria stood up and walked over. She lowered her voice substantially when she reached Dax's side. "Game tonight, my quarters."

Dax smiled and nodded. "Aye sir," she grinned. Meleria chuckled as Dax walked off.

*******

Dax walked into Mel's quarters and dead silence greeted her. Arnwar was grinning from ear to ear and Meleria was staring at her in shocked amazement. "What?" Dax asked, glancing over her shoulder.

"What do you mean what?" Meleria laughed. "The captain contacted me earlier about new scheduling. Imagine my surprise at the reason."

Dax grinned and nodded. "Right. That."

"Don't sound so enthused," Meleria replied sarcastically. Dax giggled and lifted her bag.

"So who wants to lose?"

"Oh! She's so confident!" Liam grinned.

"I've got more of your credits than I can count," Dax teased back. Liam laughed and slipped an arm around her shoulders. "What can I get you mom?"

Dax's eyes lit up. "A decaffeinated Chai," she said.

Liam paused and then nodded. "Okay." He moved to the replicator. "What is it? Decaffeinated Chai." The replicator whirred.

"It's a tea," she said, accepting the glass. "Thank you." She took a sip. "Hmm. This is wonderful. It's a black tea with cream instead of water and some various spices."

Meleria smiled and sat down, pulling out the deck of cards and the poker chips. "So, besides dizzy spells, what else are you in for?"

Dax felt her cheeks heat up. "Uhm..nothing major."

"Liar," Arnwar said, divvying out the chips. "You're blushing."

"Well, it's just most off worlders get a real kick out of the fact that around the third month, the, uh, spots start itching...a lot."

Meleria stifled her laughter. "How much is a lot?" she grinned.

Dax winced. "A lot as in they itch all day and nothing can stop it."

Meleria bit her lip, dealing the cards. "Five card draw, aces and sixes wild."

"Those are odd," Liam commented, gathering his cards. Meleria shrugged.

*******

Dax walked quietly back to her quarters with Arnwar. "So," he said softly. "Have you called Julian?"

Dax nodded. "I called him earlier," she said softly. "He was surprised but he seemed excited when I signed off." She glanced down at her shoes. "I hated having to tell him over subspace though. It seemed so impersonal."

Arnwar nodded and paused outside his doors. "I suppose," he said softly. He offered her a smile. "Well, go to bed. You need your sleep."

Dax smiled. "Good night Arnwar."

"Good night Dax."

*******

Dax walked into the Science Lab three months later. She nodded smiling at her assistant and sat down at her bench. She pulled up the scanner and began working, idly scratching at her temple. Dax glanced up at her wayward left and and grunted in disgust, forcing it down to her side. 'A joined trill is above this,' she thought, repeating her mantra. 'A joined Trill can block such nuisances from their conscious mind.' Dax closed her eyes and took a deep breath. After a moment, she opened her eyes and began working, one hand unconsciously brushing at her left leg.

*******

"Aaarrgh!" Dax strode into her quarters and immediately stepped into the bath to run a shower. She had found some mild relief from a soap one of her co-workers had created for her. She was about to step in when the computer announced a message from Bajor. Dax half screamed in frustration-half cried in delight as she walked back into the main room. She activated the computer and found herself facing Julian and Cati. "Hello," she smiled.

"Jadzia!" Cati cried happily.

"Cati!" Dax echoed, smiling. Julian laughed. "Don't encourage her," he grinned. "She's already excited."

Dax smiled. "Really? Why's that?" Dax couldn't help but notice his lisp was completely gone. She wondered how his hands were.

Cati practically bounced in her seat. "Papa passed the...medical review boards." Her speech was slow and precise so as not to stumble over the words.

Dax's eyes widened and she glanced at Julian. "You're coming home?"

He grinned and nodded. "In two days we'll be on our way back."

Jadzia grinned delightedly. "Oh, Julian! That's wonderful!" She felt a solid thump from the babe and she glanced down. "And I'm not the only one who thinks so," she grinned, glancing back up. She saw his eyes light up happily.

"How is the baby?" he asked.

"Just fine," she replied, resting one hand on her stomach.

"Did you find out the sex?" he asked.

Dax smiled and shook her head. "No. I thought I'd wait till you and Cati got back."

Julian smiled and ruffled Cati's hair. "Looks like you'll have to wait a bit longer to find out , sweety." Cati pout slightly. Julian grinned and tipped his head. "Jadzia, why do I hear running water?"

Dax blushed. "I was about to step into the shower... My, ah, spots have been driving me crazy."

Julian grinned evilly. "Poor thing." Dax glared at him and he laughed. "We'll let you go then."

"Bye Jadzia!" Cati blew kisses at the screen. Dax's features lit up in amusement and happiness. "Good bye Cati." She glanced at Julian. "I'll see you soon," she said.

Julian nodded. "Take care. I love you."

"I love you too," she said, blowing a kiss at the screen. She heard his laughter ring out as he cut the connection. Dax sat back for a moment, allowing the pleasant memory of that sound envelop her. She reached up and scratched a spot on her neck and hissed in frustration as she stalked off to the shower.

*******

Dax stared impatiently at her experiment. "C'mon!" she exclaimed. She glanced at the chrono. She was supposed to be in the transporter room *now*. She tapped impatiently on the counter, waiting for the reaction to run to completion. The computer chirped an affirmative and Dax bolted, calling to her assistant to finish up.

She darted in as Julian and Cati were stepping off the transporter pad. "Julian!"

His eyes went wide when he caught sight of her. Cati let go of his hand and darted over, wrapping her arms around Jadzia's legs in a fierce hug. Dax glanced down and smiled, resting a hand on her head as Julian walked over. He held his hands out and placed them on her slightly rounded abdomen before sliding them around back, pulling her close. "Oh, gods I missed you," he whispered. Dax closed her eyes and held him. After several minutes he managed to pull back just long enough to find her mouth. Dax leaned against him briefly before she felt little hands patting the side of her stomach. Dax pulled back and glanced down at Cati, smiling.

"Hello muchkin," she grinned, managing to get down to Cati's level. Cati grinned and hugged her. Dax smiled and hugged her back. After a moment, Cati released her. Dax smiled and extended a hand to Julian who helped her up, laughing. "Well, it's not that easy anymore," she grinned, letting a hand rest on her abdomen.

Julian smiled. "I noticed," he said softly. He gently placed a hand over hers. "You sure we're not having twins?"

Dax mock glared at him. "Very funny," she grinned. They walked out of the transporter room and through the hallways. Nods and smiles came from all around and a few officers stopped to greet them. Dax paused outside their doorway and tapped the controls. The door slid open and Julian grinned. "You got everything out of storage and put it back?" he asked, amazed.

"Liam helped," she admitted, letting a hand run down his arm. Cati bounced through the doorway and grinned. "It's all here!" she cried. Dax laughed. "Go look in your room. There's a surprise for you." Cati darted off.

Julian smiled and watched her go for a moment before turning back to Jadzia. "Where were we?" he murmured, pulling her close. Dax leaned forward and kissed him passionately, her hands roaming. Julian pulled her closer, exploring her mouth. "Gods I've missed you," he whispered, working his way down her neck. "I've missed you so much."

"I've missed you too," she whispered. "It's been a lonely four months." "Hmm," he murmured, working his way back up to her mouth when he felt a thump from the baby where he was pressed up against her stomach. He glanced down and grinned. "Not a moment's peace, huh?" he asked, gently running a hand over her stomach.

Dax laughed. "Not a bit," she smiled. "It's pretty active."

Julian glanced up and grinned. "You still don't know?" he asked.

"I told you I was waiting for you and Cati to get back," she smiled.

Julian nodded and glanced over his shoulder. "Cati! Come on out!" He glanced at Jadzia and grinned. "Have a seat," he teased. Dax laughed and sat down as he went to fetch a tricorder. Cati darted out of her room, skidding to a halt next to where Jadzia was sitting. "What?" she asked as Julian approached.

"Do you want to know whether you're going to have a little brother or sister?" he asked, sitting behind Jadzia. She leaned back against him. Cati nodded and scrambled next to him as he activated the tricorder. Dax felt her stomach tighten in anticipation as he scanned her. Julian was pointing out different things to Cati as the tricorder composed an image. Dax smiled as Cati oohed over the photo. She tipped her head back and gently kissed Julian's neck, watching him smile slightly.

"Hmm," she breathed, kissing him again.

"Papa!" Cati crowed in impatience. Julian laughed. "Sorry," he smiled and tapped a command. Dax stared in anticipation as the text display changed slightly, and she smiled. She glanced up at Julian and saw a smile light his face up. "It's a boy," he said. Dax glanced at Cati and saw her smile and scramble up into her lap. Cati gently pat Jadzia's stomach.

"Can he hear me?" she asked, glancing up.

Dax raised an eyebrow and glanced at Julian in surprise. "I was explaining to her that babies can hear what's going on outside." He turned back to Cati. "Probably," he said.

Cati grinned and began prattling to the baby. Jadzia smiled and glanced back at Julian. He was smiling brightly at his daughter. "So," she said softly. "I guess we should start thinking of a name."

Julian raised both brows and nodded. "I guess," he said. "But we've got four months."

Dax nodded and felt a resounding thump. She glanced at Cati and grinned at her wide eyed look. "It's okay. He does that a lot."

"Does it hurt?" Cati was staring at her with intense curiosity.

"Not usually. Occasionally he really bumps me one though." Dax smiled. She felt Julian's arm tighten around her and she leaned back happily, Cati once again talking to the baby.

******* Dax stretched out on the bed, studying a PADD. She glanced up in amusement as Julian walked out of the bathroom, toweling his hair off. He caught her eye and smiled. "What a sight for sore eyes," he grinned laying down next to her. Dax smiled and set the PADD on the night stand as he leaned over and kissed her. Dax wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him close. Julian slowly trailed kisses down her neck. Dax sighed softly, running her hands through his hair. He smiled and worked his way down to her abdomen, a slight smile crossing his features. "Hello little one," he said softly. Dax smiled tenderly. "I know you probably don't recognize my voice but there's a reason for that. I'm sure I'll explain that later. But, just so you know for further reference, this is you dad." Dax bit her lip and gently brushed her hand over his forehead. Julian glanced up at her and smiled. "Don't tell me Trill females become over emotional while they're pregnant too."

Dax smiled and brushed at a tear. "Not really. I've just missed you, that's all."

Julian smiled and leaned up and kissed her. "I've missed you too," he said softly, gently running his hand over her waist. Dax smiled and curled close to him. "Hmm," he murmured. "I noticed none of your stuff is here..."

Dax smiled and glanced up at him. "Two reasons. One, I thought it would be presumptuous. Two, there isn't enough room for all of your stuff and all of mine. We're going to have to make a few decisions."

"Okay," he said softly, gently tracing patterns on her stomach. "One of which is whether you want to legally adopt Cati or not."

Dax glanced at him. "Adopt Cati?" He nodded. Dax gazed at him, unsure of what to say. "Julian, you know I'd love to but...are you sure?" Dax couldn't help but feel like she was stepping in and taking over.

He gazed at her. "I wouldn't have asked if I wasn't." Dax smiled slightly and nuzzled him. "Should I take that as a yes?" Dax smiled and nodded. Julian smiled and kissed her. Dax closed her eyes in delight. She hadn't felt so at home in lifetimes.

*******

Dax paced nervously. "I can't believe they sent a board out to review this." She tugged nervously at her dress uniform. Julian watched her pace around the observation lounge. "I mean, what needs to be reviewed about my lab's experiments?" She scratched at the corner of her neck in irritation.

Julian sighed. "Jadzia, you know why they came. You reported that the planet we did a biosurvey on has low level amounts of naturally formed trilithium. You know what that means."

"I know, I know." She ran her hands through her hair. "And the fact that I missed it while we were there is a big mistake."

Julian reached and took her hand. "Have a seat," he said. Dax sighed and perched gingerly on his lap. He smiled. "Just relax," he said. "They're more excited than concerned. No one would have looked in the first place. The fact that you picked up on it is nothing short of miraculous." He kissed her and gently pat her abdomen. "Besides, you don't need to be pacing when you're seven months pregnant."

Dax signed and rested her head against his. "I know. It's just this is all happening at once. The board from Star Fleet, the final stages of the adoption, the baby..." She sighed.

Julian gently kissed her. "I know. But things will calm down soon and you'll be on maternity leave then."

Dax frowned. "That's the other thing. I figure this out and I'm forced to go on maternity leave."

"Sorry. Doctor's orders," he smiled. Dax pouted and he laughed. "Sorry, my dear."

"Commander?" Marek walked in and smiled slightly at the scene of a very pregnant Jadzia Dax sitting on Julian's lap. "The board has finished going over your results. They'd like to speak with you."

Dax took a deep breath and stood up. She felt Julian give her hand a squeeze. "Knock em dead," he grinned. Dax smiled and walked out.

"How's she doing?" Gloria turned back to Julian.

"She's tense," he said, standing up. "And understandably so. Between this, the adoption and the baby, she's a wreck."

Gloria managed a slight smile. "It doesn't show."

Julian grinned. "I'll tell her that. She's been obsessing about being the proper joined lately. Apparently it aggravates her that she can't move above the impulse to not scratch her spots." He bit back a smile. "And when she's aggravated, the itching gets worse."

Gloria laughed. "She's driving you up a wall, isn't she?"

Julian bit his lip and shook his head. "No..."

"Ah, you were always a terrible liar Julian. It's one of the things which makes you so endearing." Gloria slipped an arm around the younger man's shoulders. Julian raised an eyebrow.

*******

Dax practically flew into the lounge. "Julian!"

He glanced up and grinned. She was beaming brightly. "I take it things went well."

"They were ectatic," she grinned.

He crushed her in a tight hug. "Of course they were ecstatic. This is the biggest find of the decade, at the very least." Dax grinned and kissed him. He smiled and pulled her close. She pulled back, gently trailing a fingertip down his cheek.

"Um, sorry to interrupt," Liam glanced at the two of them as he walked in. Dax smiled at him. "But Cati cut herself. She's in sickbay."

The two of them started for the door. "Is she okay?" Julian asked.

Liam nodded, matching their hurried stride. "She's fine. Just a little shaken up." Dax glanced up at Julian in relief. They walked into Sickbay and spotted Cati sitting on one of the beds, her legs swinging.

"Catilynn," Julian sighed. She grinned at him sheepishly. "Hi Papa. Hi Jadzia."

"What happened?" he asked, hugging her.

"I got cut," she pouted.

"How?" he asked, tipping her chin up. She knawed on her lower lip and Julian knew it wasn't good. "Catilynn," he began warningly.

"Sheria broke a glass and I tried to help her pick it up." Cati ducked her head.

Julian sighed and glanced at Dax. "Catilynn Marie, you know better than to pick up broken glass. You let an adult take care of it." Dax said, frowning, and smoothed a lock of hair back.

"I know Jadzia," she said, looking down.

Julian smiled and gently kissed her forehead. "Alright. Why don't we go back home."

Cati glanced up. "You and Jadzia are all done with your meeting?"

Julian smiled and nodded. "Yes. C'mon," he smiled. He reached and helped her down. He nodded briefly to T'Sari. "Thank you," he said, smiling. She inclined her head briefly.

*******

Julian kissed Cati on her forehead. "Good night sweety," he said softly. "Sweet dreams." Cati nodded sleepily and snuggled under her covers. Jadzia smiled from the doorway as Julian slipped past her. She padded in and sat down and read Cati her bedtime story. She finished and gently covered her up. "Goodnight Cati."

"Goodnight Jadzia," she yawned. She gently rubbed a hand over Jadzia's stomach. "Goodnight lil brother." Dax smiled and kissed her fingertips and placed them on Cati's forehead.

"Goodnight love." She teasingly ran her hand down over Cati's eyes and grinned when they closed as her hand passed. She stood up and walked out, dimming the lights. Jadzia walked into the bedroom and found Julian sitting in bed, reading. "Hey," she said, sitting on the corner of the bed.

He glanced up and smiled. "Hello," he said, running a hand up her leg. Dax smiled and gently brushed her hand over his chest. "Well," he said, "How do you feel now that that whole thing is over?"

"Relieved," she admitted. "I knew that it would go well but...you know me."

He laughed. "Yeah," he admitted, "I do." Dax smiled and stood up to get changed.

"You know," she said. "We still have to decide on a name," she said. "Or at least pick a few that we like."

Julian nodded. "I know." He set the PADD down. "Okay...what about Daine?"

Dax paused and shrugged. "It's different," she said. Julian frowned. "I didn't say I didn't like it," she grinned.

Julian rolled his eyes. "What about Brian?"

Dax shook her head. "No...I never really liked that name." She paused as she pulled on a nightgown. "What about Caleb?" She saw him quirk an eyebrow and she shrugged. "He was an initiate I knew. How about Devin?"

Julian thought. "Okay, that's an idea." He saw her smile. "What about Ben?"

Dax smiled brilliantly. "Okay. That's two. What about Vaughn?"

Julian shrugged. "Possibly. It's different." Dax laughed at the look on his face. "Jir?"

Julian shook his head. "No...why don't we just list names off and shoot them down later." He picked up a PADD, typed in the ones they had already suggested, and set it on record.
"Brett?"
"Tyler?"
"Christian?"
"Vasili?"
"Patrick?"
"Blake?"
"Lee?"
"Ian?"
Several minutes later, they had exhausted most of the names they could think of. Dax curled up next to him and stared at the list. They managed to narrow it down to Daine, Devin, Ben, Vaughn, Brett, and Ian. Dax gazed at the list. "Hmm. Okay. Personally, my two favorites are Devin and Ian."

"You picked both of those," he grinned. Dax grinned and curled closer. Julian gazed. "I like Brett, Daine, and Ian also."

Dax smiled. "Wow. We actually agreed on one."

"Ian it is, I guess," Julian smiled.

"You realize we should run this by Cati also," Dax said, kissing him.

"Hmm, yeah. What about a middle name? Should we just pick another one from the list?"

Dax glanced down. "Well, actually, I was hoping to be able to chose this."

Julian shifted onto his side. "What?"

Dax gazed at him. "On the Nile, I made a good friend. He was killed in a skirmish with the Romulans though. I was hoping..."

Julian's features softened. "I'm sorry," he said softly. "I didn't realize..." Julian gently touched her chin. "How come you didn't suggest it in the first place."

Dax smiled slightly. "It was a promise we made. He named his daughter Anduma Jadzia and I promised to return the favor."

Julian smiled and nodded. "Alright. What was his name?"

"Lynel," she smiled.

Julian leaned back onto his pillow. "Ian Lynel," he said, rolling it around. "It's different,"he smiled. "I like it." Dax smiled and kissed him.

*******

Julian tugged uncomfortably at his dress uniform. "I *hate* this thing."

Dax laughed and came back out of the bathroom. "Be glad yours still fits. They don't make maternity dress uniforms in my size apparently." She smiled and ran her hands over her navy dress. She had asked the captain what to do about this particular problem and she said to just dress in similar colors. Dax had laughed but now she was glad she had asked, rather than specially ordering a new dress uniform. The dress she was wearing flattered her figure more.

Julian laughed and hugged her close as the door chimed. He smiled ruefully and walked out. "Come in."

Sheria smiled and stepped in. "Hello Doctor. Commander." She smiled at Dax. "Out of uniform tonight?"

Dax grinned and finished with her hair. "They don't make maternity dress uniforms."

"Sheria!" Cati darted out of her room, dressed in her pyjamas and carrying a book. "Sheria, can we read these tonight?!" She held up a tattered copy of "The Hungry Little Caterpillar" and "Green Eggs and Ham."

Sheria laughed and nodded. "Sure. Have a fun time," she said to Julian and Jadzia.

Dax smiled and nodded thanks. She gently ruffled Cati's head. "We'll see you later, okay munchkin?"

"Okay Mum," Cati said, hugging Jadzia around her legs. Dax smiled. Cati had started calling her 'mum' ever since she had legally adopted her and she loved it.

Julian knelt down next to her and kissed her. "Be good."

"I will papa." Cati hugged him. Julian kissed her forehead and stood up.

"We'll be back late," he said. "Diplomatic functions usually run late." Sheria nodded and the two of them left.

Julian gazed at Jadzia and smiled. "You look beautiful," he whispered. She had her hair piled up on top of her head and the navy dress made her eyes that much more blue.

Jadzia glanced at him and smiled. "Thank you," she said, gently taking his hand. Julian smiled.

"In fact," he murmured, pausing for a moment, "the outfit is almost perfect."

"Almost?" Dax asked, curious.

Julian nodded. "Something's missing." He reached into his pocket and knelt down in one smooth movement. Dax's jaw dropped in amazement as he pulled out a ring. "I'd say this would finish it." He glanced up at her. "But, I want you to know that I'm not proposing just because of any obligation I may feel because of the baby. I love you more than anything, Jadzia, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you."

Dax brought her right hand up to her mouth, trying to stifle the sob. "I'm surprised you even felt you had to ask," she managed to whisper. "Of course I'll marry you. Now stop before I turn into an emotional wreck for the reception."

Julian laughed softly and stood, slipping the ring onto her finger. Dax pulled him close, kissing him passionately. Julian pulled back after several moments and stepped back, holding her at arms length. "Perfect," he smiled. Jadzia laughed and swatted him.

*******

Dax sat in the infirmary, looking mildly irritated. "Julian?"

"Just a second," he murmured, not looking up from whatever he was pipetting.

"Julian, I promised Cati I'd be back in a half hour. Either you hurry up or perform an exam on yourself."

Julian glanced up, startled. "A little hostile, aren't we?"

Dax blushed. "Sorry. I didn't mean to snap." She glanced down at her stomach. "I'm not the only one who's impatient."

Julian chuckled and walked over. He rested his hand against her abdomen and smiled. "False contractions again."

"Annoying as hell," she admitted. "Unnerving too."

Julian smiled and picked up a tricorder. "Alright. Lay back," he said. Dax obliged, gazing up at the ceiling. Julian hummed softly as he performed the scan and froze suddenly.

"What is it?" she asked.

Julian tapped a control on the tricorder and glanced up. "Those aren't false contractions. You're three centimeters dilated."

Dax's brow flew up. "I'm what?!"

*******

An hour later, Dax was pacing around the infirmary. The contractions still weren't too severe and she had only dilated to five centimeters. "This is ridiculous," she sighed, glancing at Julian.

Julian gently kissed her forehead. "There isn't much I can do about it for now. Relax. Labor can take awhile."

"You telling me to be patient is a surprising thing," she smiled. Julian grinned. Dax winced slightly as another contraction hit. He smiled slightly and gently gripped her hand. "Are you *sure* you don't have anything to hurry this along?"

Julian smiled tolerantly and kissed her forehead again.

*******

"I swear to God, if you *ever* touch me again...."

Julian raised an eyebrow and glanced at the tricorder again. "Mm hmm," he murmured, noncommittally.

"I mean it," she snapped.

"And you were asking me if we could hurry things along to this point," he smiled.

"Aargghh!" Julian glanced up, wondering whether that was from frustration, pain, or a combination of the two. He simply shook his head and smiled slightly.

*******

"Come on, Jadzia. Just one more push."

Dax shook her head, panting. "I can't. I'm too tired. I..." She shook her head again.

"Jadzia, I promise you, just one more." Julian gazed at her, reassurance filling his gaze. She shook her head again. Julian sympathized with her but this couldn't go on much longer. "Jadzia." She glanced at him, mildly surprised. His voice had changed from the calm reassurance to a sternness she rarely heard. He nodded now that he had her attention. "One more." She took a deep breath and nodded. "On three. One...two...three." Dax closed her eyes and bore down, one of the nurses helping her lean forward. "Yes," Julian said. "Just a bit more...."

Dax collapsed in relief as a tiny wail cut through the air. She smiled and glanced at Julian, who's rapt attention was on their son. "Julian?" He glanced up and smiled brilliantly. Dax saw the nurse cut the umbilical cord and, after the nurse had cleaned Ian up and after he had taken care of cleaning up, Julian walked over and gently handed Ian to her. Dax smiled and brushed her fingertips over his cheek. "He's beautiful," she murmured, feeling Julian gently rest a hand on her shoulder, having stripped his gloves off. She glanced up and smiled at him. "I thought I said I didn't want you to touch me," she murmured, kissing his fingers.

He smiled and smoothed a lock of hair off her forehead. "Sorry," he said softly, kissing her forehead. Dax smiled and glanced back down. Julian gently reached and traced the light spots that ran down the side of Ian's face.

"Papa?" Both Julian and Jadzia glanced up to see Cati standing there with Liam. Julian smiled and held a hand out to her. Cati darted over and stood up on her tiptoes. "I want to see!" Julian smiled and picked her up. Cati peered at her little brother in interest. "He has spots," she said, surprised.

Julian bit back his laughter and nodded. "Yes. Like Jadzia." Cati nodded. Julian smiled and glanced at Jadzia, who looked like she wanted to laugh but was too damn tired. He gently rested a hand on Cati's shoulder. "Come on. Let's go so Jadzia can rest." Cati nodded and kissed Jadzia on the cheek and scrambled down. Julian smiled and turned to her. "I'll be in my office if you need anything." Dax nodded and handed Ian to Julian, who gently placed him in the bassinet. He turned back and kissed her gently. Dax smiled as he pulled back. "Get some sleep, mom," he whispered softly. She smiled and closed her eyes as Julian shepherded Cati out of the room.

*******

Dax stirred much later at the sound of a tiny wail reaching her ears. She opened her eyes and glanced over at the crib and smiled. She was about to sit up and go calm him down when Julian strode in, having heard the crying also. He smiled at her and scooped Ian up. "Whatcha want?" he asked softly, walking over to Jadzia's side. She smiled up at him as he calmed the infant down a bit and ran a finger across Ian's mouth. He smiled at the strong rooting reflex he got. "I think he's hungry," he said, glancing at Jadzia. She glanced up at him, mildly surprised. "Do you need a hand?" he asked softly.

"I...ah, it's been a while," Dax murmured, sitting up. She saw him smile and he handed Ian to her. "Just a moment," he said softly. He went over to a cabinet and pulled out a pillow. He walked back and slid it under her left arm. After a few instructions, Julian slipped out quietly, leaving mother and child alone.

Dax glanced up after a moment, realizing he had gone. She raised an eyebrow and glanced down at Ian and smiled. He gazed up at her with dark brown eyes framed by long lashes. She smiled, entranced.

"Jadzia?"

Her gaze snapped up to Julian. "I was wondering where you disappeared to," she smiled.

He grinned lopsidedly. "I had some work to do," he said. "I was wondering if you were feeling up to visitors." Dax glanced up at him in surprise. He nearly laughed. "I can get a blanket," he said, smiling.

Dax blushed but nodded. "That's fine," she said. Julian smiled and walked out and returned with a light blanket. A few minutes later, Meleria walked in. Dax smiled. "Hello," she said, shifting slightly.

"Hey." Meleria smiled. "How are you feeling?"

Dax shrugged. "Okay. Tired."

Meleria winced. "I heard...four hours, huh?"

Dax winced and shook her head. "Yeah. That's the one part I wouldn't care to repeat."

"Hungry already?" Meleria grinned, nodding.

Dax laughed softly. "Actually, I think he's finished." She shifted slightly and glanced up at Meleria. "Can you take him?"

Her eyes went wide and she nodded. Dax handed Ian to her and adjusted her medical gown as Meleria rocked Ian, amazed. "He's adorable," she said, smiling at Dax. Dax puffed up with maternal pride. "What did you say his name was?"

"Ian Lynel," Dax said, part of her wanting to have him back. She smiled as Meleria handed him back.

"I've always loved the name Ian," Mel smiled. "But I've had a weak spot for the Irish."

Dax laughed softly. Meleria and Liam had been dating for months now. "I hadn't noticed," she said. She could see Ian blinking sleepily. Meleria noticed too. "I'll see you later Jadzia. Congratulations."

She smiled. "Thank you," she said, getting up to place Ian in the crib. She stood there, feeling somewhat weak in the knees but unable to pull herself away.

"Hey." She felt a pair of arms slip around her waist. She turned slightly to face Julian and smiled. "What are you doing up?"

"He fell asleep," Dax said, glancing back down. Julian rested his chin on her shoulder, smiling. Dax smiled and pressed back against him. He smiled and kissed her cheek.

"He looks just like you," he murmured, tipping his head so it rested against hers.

"He has your eyes," she said. "And nose."

"Hmm," he murmured, smiling. "But he has your complexion. And spots," he grinned. Dax laughed softly.

*******

Dax sank down on the couch in their quarters, exhausted. She had just gotten Ian to sleep and Cati was feeling sick so she was watching her also. Dax had barely closed her eyes when the door slid open. "Hello," Julian said softly. He took one look at her face and smiled sheepishly. "Sorry," he murmured, perching on the corner of the couch next to her. He gently kissed her forehead and worked his way down to her mouth.

Dax smiled and gently kissed him back. "Forgiven," she murmured. She closed her eyes slightly and gently scratched at his 5 o'clock shadow. "Long day?"

Julian smiled. "Not as long as yours, it appears," he said. "How's Cati doing?"

"Just fine," Dax said. She managed a thin smile. "I think it was part of a ploy to gain attention."

Julian nodded. "I know. I assumed as much also. But, she's entitled to her tantrums now and then."

Dax smiled. "Like father like daughter," she teased. Julian laughed softly and kissed her again. He pulled back.

"What would you like for dinner?" he asked, gently nuzzling her.

Dax thought, her stomach growling. "Something....different," she said, grinning.

Julian smiled. "How about stir fry?" At her blank look, he grinned. "Stir fry it is."

"What is it?" she asked, closing her eyes as he got up and went to the replicator.

"It's a oriental dish," he said. "Trust me, you'll love it." He turned to her when she didn't reply and smiled. She was sound asleep.

*******

Dax stirred later and glanced around. She was in their bedroom. She smiled and sat up as the smell of food reached her. She got up and walked out into the living room. Julian was stirring something in an odd shaped skillet. "Evening," she smiled, peering into the skillet. "That smells delicious," she grinned. "Where are the kids?"

"Ian's still sleeping and Cati's in her room." Julian smiled at her. "Taste?" he asked, holding some meat out on a spoon.

Dax took a bite and her eyes widened. "This is incredible," she murmured around the mouthful. She swallowed. "Where did you learn to cook like this?"

"The Academy," he smiled.

"You're kidding me," she grinned. "You could cook like this while we were on DS9 and I didn't know about it?"

He grinned at her. "You would have eaten me out of house and home," he grinned. She reached for another piece and he swatted at her hand. "Leave some for dinner," he teased.

"Okay. I can live with you not telling me while we were on DS9. But how come I'm only finding out now?" She snatched a piece of meat.

Julian's grin broadened. "I wanted make sure you loved me for me, not for my cooking." Dax swatted him playfully. Cati darted out of her bedroom.

"Dinner!" she cried.

"Whoa," Dax said, catching her. "Keep your voice down. Your little brother is still sleeping."

"Sorry," Cati whispered. She peered over Dax's shoulder. "Stir fry!" she exclaimed in a whisper. Julian grinned and swatted Dax's hand from the wok.

"Stop that!" Dax laughed and grinned at Cati.

"Is he always like this when he cooks?" Cati nodded, grinning.

"Hey," Julian protested, smiling. Dax smiled and kissed him on the cheek. She glanced over his shoulder at the sound of crying. "Ian's up," Cati announced.

Dax smiled and kissed her cheek, setting her down. "I'll be right back," she smiled. She walked into the bedroom and lifted Ian up. "Ooh. Did we have a nice nap?" she asked, gently rocking him to calm him down. She walked back out into the living room to find Cati bouncing in her seat as Julian served her some dinner. Dax smiled and set Ian down in his bouncer and sat down to eat. Cati practically inhaled her dinner and knelt down next to Ian and started playing with him. Dax smiled and glanced at Julian. He smiled and gently took her hand.

Both jumped when the deck shifted underneath them. Dax's eyes went wide as the red alert went off. Julian was already clearing the table. Dax scooped Ian up and turned to Julian. "I'm going to take them to the designated safe area," she said. Julian nodded and gave her a quick kiss.

"Be careful," he said.

"You too," she said, taking Cati's hand and rushing them out.

*******

Dax stepped onto the bridge and gazed at the screen in shock. "You've got to be kidding me," she murmured.

"I'm afraid not," Marek said. Dax watched as two salvos of torpedoes lanced out from the Melbourne and connected with the alien ship. "I want to know who they are," she snapped. "Disable their engines."

"Aye sir." Dax didn't miss the pleasure in Arnwar's voice at the thought. She saw the two torpedoes lance out. "Main engines are down," he announced.

"Hail them." Marek stood up, striding forward.

"Hailing frequencies open."

"This is Captain Gloria Marek of the USS Melbourne. Identify yourselves and explain why you attacked my vessel."

There was a long tense pause before a voice came over the comm. "USS Melbourne, you are in violation of our space. Leave or be prepared to be destroyed."

Gloria raised an eyebrow. "*Your* space? Just who are you?"

"That is not of your concern. Leave our space at once."

"Gladly," she said. "But there seems to be a problem exactly where your space begins and ends as my ship has been attacked now on three different occasions by your people in three very different areas." There was no response.

"Captain, they're powering phasers." Arnwar sounded completely shocked.

"Just where do they think they're going to go?" Marek frowned. She was completely baffled by this reaction. She glanced at Dax, who was frowning intently. "Commander?"

Dax glanced up startled. "It's nothing...yet."

Marek raised an eyebrow. In the months that Jadzia Dax had been on board, Gloria had come to value her quick mind, especially in situations like this. Dax looked like she was piecing things together and Marek was prepared to give her all the space she needed if it meant figuring out who these people are. She glanced at B'Ler. "What are they doing?"

"Nothing. They've simply raised shields and powered their phasers."

"Dax?"

She was staring at the screen in shock. "It couldn't be," she murmured. "It's simply not..." She caught Marek frowning at her. "Captain, I believe that we're up against the Founders once again."

Marek stared at her science officer in shock. "The Founders? But they went into hiding since the settlement of the Dominion problem."

"I know," Dax said softly. "But if you look at the facts, they make sense."

"Such as?"

"The only major attacks in the last two years have been on the Melbourne while under your command. Each time, the attacker never identified themselves. Now, all of a sudden, they respond to a hail telling us to 'Leave their space' even though the limits of their space have never been defined and, all logic dictates that they can't be a major influence in the Gamma Quadrant as, if they were, their 'space' would consist of a major portion of the 'unexplored' areas. Who would claim that their space consists of a major portion of the Gamma Quadrant but the Founders? Also, you played a major part in the talks with the Dominion after the defeat of the main incursion force. You're a key player." Dax had gained confidence as she spoke and was now leaning on the railing of the upper bridge, addressing Marek with forcefulness.

Marek stared at her. She didn't want to believe that the Founders were becoming major players again. However, what Dax said made sense. "You don't believe that they've decided to take matters into their own hands, though," Marek said slowly. "That's not in their nature. They'd rather let someone do the dirty work for them."

Dax nodded. "Probably. I do believe that a Founder is on each of the ships they send out though," she said softly.

"Captain, they're preparing to fire," Arnwar broke in.

Marek nodded and turned to B'Ler. "Arnwar, disable their weapons capabilities," she said. B'Ler nodded, trying not to look too stunned. Marek watched as the phasers lanced out and hit the other ship. "Weapons disabled," B'Ler said.

Marek nodded. "All senior staff to the conference room."

*******

Julian walked in to find the senior staff already there. He sat next to Jadzia. "What's happening?"

"It appears we might have discovered the identity of out attackers," Marek said. She saw his interest double. She glanced at Dax. "Commander Dax feels that, given the present facts, that the Founders are making their presence known in the Gamma Quadrant."

"What?" Julian gasped. He stared at Jadzia. "Are you sure?"

Dax hesitated. "Not one hundred percent," she admitted. She quickly outlined what she had said on the bridge. "It's a solid hypotheses," Meleria commented. "But, if it is the Dominion, they've really advanced their weaponry. I don't have to point out that Sick Bay was heavily damaged in two out of the three attacks. That's very difficult to do, considering it's pretty well protected simply by design."

There was complete silence in the conference room. Marek spoke first. "We have set course for some 'friendlier' space for now. I need to talk with Star Fleet Command about this and, if it is the Founders, we need to form a plan of action now." There were nods around the table. "Dismissed."

*******

"The Dominion," Julian whispered, sitting next to Jadzia on the couch. Cati and Ian were sound asleep and they were still en route to the nearest Federation world. "I can't believe they're back," he said, leaning forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "I thought we took care of them all those years ago," he said, glancing at Jadzia.

She nodded, wrapping an arm around him. "I know. I contacted Kira....she was shocked also. I don't think anyone thought this would happen."

Julian sighed and pulled her close. "Jadzia, from your theory, it sounded like they were targeting the Melbourne because of Gloria," he said softly.

Dax sighed. "Yes. If I'm right, that's what's happening, most likely."

Julian furrowed his brow. "Gods, as much as I hate to say it but, if that's the case, I don't want Cati or Ian on this ship."

Dax glanced at him. "So what do we do?"

"I'm sure my parents would be more than happy to care for them."

Dax hesitated. "Julian, I...I do understand where you're coming from. I don't want them in danger any more than you. But I..." She trailed off.

Julian glanced at her and smiled slightly, nodded. "What?"

She gazed at him. "Julian, Ian's less than a month old. I don't want to be separated from him. Or Cati, for that matter."

He raised an eyebrow. "Jadzia, there's a strong possibility that we might end up in battle here. I don't want to risk them being killed."

"And neither do I," she snapped. "But I don't think sending them to Earth is the solution."

Julian sighed. "So what do you propose we do?"

"I don't know," she admitted. "But I'm sure we can think of something."

Julian frowned. "Jadzia, I've already lost one person I loved. I don't want to make it two more, dammit."

Dax sat back. "And you think I do?" she retorted. "They're *my* children too, Julian."

His shoulders slumped slightly. "I know." He took a deep breath. "Why don't we wait and see what's going to happen before we make this decision, okay?"

Dax nodded sliding close to him again. "Alright," she whispered. He gently kissed her.

"I'm sorry," he murmured. "I didn't mean to snap. I'm just upset."

Dax nodded. "I know, love." She kissed him back. "I am too." They held each other for a long time before going to bed, each lost in their own thoughts.

*******

"We've been ordered back to Deep Space Nine," Arnwar announced as the 'meeting' began the next morning. "We just received the communique."

Dax raised an eyebrow and glanced at Julian. "They're probably getting us out of the line of fire," Dax said softly. "If this is even correct."

"Yeah," Meleria said softly. "But why all the way back to DS9? It seems like we're running almost."

"Again," Liam interjected.

Dax nodded and glanced at Julian. He was staring into his coffee pensively. "Julian? Are you alright?" She gently rested a hand on his arm.

"I'm fine," he replied, glancing up. "Just thinking."

Dax gently gave his arm a squeeze. A quiet fell over the group. "All senior officers to the briefing room," Marek's voice rang out over the comm system.

*******

Julian gazed out the observation port as the ship approached the wormhole. He glanced down at Cati who was standing between him and Jadzia. "Where Papa?" she demanded, peering out the window.

"There," he grinned, pointing as the wormhole blossomed into existence.

"Oooh!" Cati crowed, leaning forward and pressing her face against the aluminum as they traveled through. Dax smiled and glanced at Julian, gently rocking Ian, who was also staring out the window in wide eyed wonder. Several seconds later, they emerged from the wormhole and Julian immediately smiled at the sight of the old station.

"We should get down to the dock."

*******

"Julian! Jadzia!" Kira rushed forward into the crowd. "Prophets, is it true?"

Julian glanced at Kira in confusion. "Is what true?" he asked as Jadzia stepped forward.

Kira's eyes went wide and she grinned. "Well, I'll be damned. I had been hearing rumors while on Bajor but..." She gently hugged Dax. "Congratulations," she smiled, turning to Julian and hugging him.

"Thanks," Jadzia grinned. "But I can't believe you hadn't heard."

Kira grinned and motioned for them to walk with her. "I've been on Bajor for the majority of the last ten months. I've barely enough time running things here...." She glanced up, suddenly serious. "I have heard the rumors about the Founders though."

Julian nodded slowly, gently taking Cati's hand as they started off. "Well, we don't have much solid proof. But they sent us back here anyhow."

"It's probably best to get you out of the line of fire for now," Kira replied. She allowed a bright grin to cross her face. "On the bright side, Captain Sisko is here also."

Dax grinned and glanced at Julian. She saw his shoulders straighten slightly as he grinned. "Well, that's a pleasant surprise," he said.

Kira nodded. "We're all 'required' to show up for dinner tonight." She grinned at the two of them. "I'm pretty certain kids will be allowed."

Dax laughed as Kira stopped outside a set of doors. "What time?"

"Twenty-one hundred," Kira replied.

"We'll be there," Julian smiled. Kira nodded and walked off.

*******

Dax sat on the couch, brushing out Cati's hair. "Julian?"

"Almost ready," he replied.

Dax smiled and set the brush down. "All done. Unless you want it braided."

"No," Cati said, standing up.

Dax smiled and handed her the brush. "Then go put the brush away," she said. Cati darted off. Dax smiled and stood, smoothing her pants down.

"Okay," Julian said, walking out of the bedroom, carrying Ian. "Let's go."

Dax turned and grinned. "Oh, you look adorable," she smiled walking over. She reached for Ian, who's dark baby hair was neatly brushed and he was impeccably dressed in a small tan pants suit. She glanced at Julian and grinned. "Oh, you too," she teased.

He laughed and wrapped his arms around her waist. "Sometimes I wonder why I put up with you," he murmured, pressing his forehead against hers.

"Because I give killer backrubs," she grinned, kissing him.

"How would I know?" he teased. "I've never had one."

Dax laughed and pulled back. "Come on. We're going to be late."

Julian smiled and glanced over to Cati's room. "Cati! Come on!"

Cati darted out of her room and headed for the front door. Julian chuckled and motioned to Dax to go.

*******

"Benjamin!" Dax grinned broadly at the sight of her old friend.

"Dax," he smiled and hugged her. "Is this Ian?" Dax nodded, smiling. She and Julian hadn't had a chance to let people know as both were preoccupied but they had put the news out. "He's adorable," Sisko smiled. He turned to Julian. "It's good to see you again, Doctor. I heard about what happened."

Julian smiled and nodded. "Yes, well, it's good to be back. You remember Cati, right?"

"Absolutely. Although last time I saw her, she was about this tall," Benjamin smiled, lowering his hand to about his knee. Julian chuckled in amusement and nodded. Dax sent Sisko a curious look but said nothing. A few seconds later, Kira and Odo arrived and Sisko took great delight in serving his guests a new recipe his father had created.

After dinner, the officers sat talking quietly about the new situation and how the original problem was solved. Both Bashir and Sisko were conspicuously silent. Dax gently rested a hand on Julian's arm. "You're awfully quiet," she said softly as Kira and Odo bickered about the situation.

Julian glanced at her and smiled weakly. "I'm sorry. I guess I just don't want to talk about it," he said softly.

Dax's eyes went wide and she gently squeezed his arm. "I'm sorry." He smiled and gently kissed her.

"Dax!" Both their attention spun forward. Kira was staring at her hand. "You never mentioned that," she said, nodding towards the ring.

Dax glanced at her hand and then at Julian, who was trying not to laugh. "I didn't?" she asked, smiling at Kira.

"No. I sort of expected it but...." Kira leaned forward and examined the ring. Julian raised an eyebrow and glanced at Sisko, who was trying not to laugh also. "Very nice," Kira said, leaning back. She glanced at Julian and noticed the odd look on his face. "I'm sorry Doctor," Kira smiled.

He tipped his head slightly, an amused grin lighting up his face. "Don't worry, I'm used to it. If it's not the ring, it's Ian." Warm laughter rang out through the quarters. "Speaking of which, I should go check on him and Cati," Dax said. Both of them had fallen asleep and Benjamin suggested taking them into the bedroom. Dax set her coffee on the table and slipped into the bedroom.

"How are you doing Doctor?" Odo asked.

Julian glanced up, mildly surprised. "I'm fine. Why do you ask?"

"Your hands are shaking," Odo pointed out.

Julian glanced down, mildly startled. "Oh," he murmured, setting his coffee down and clasping them together.

"Does that happen often?" Sisko asked, concerned.

"Actually, no. It hasn't since long before I got back to the Melbourne." Julian glanced meaningfully at him and Sisko's eyes widened fractionally and he nodded.

"That's odd," Odo commented idly. Julian glanced at him, suddenly feeling his nerves fray a bit. Odo had never liked a mystery.

"It's probably just from stress and fatigue," Julian said. He glanced at the coffee. "And caffeine." Odo nodded, seeming to accept that. Dax walked back out and slid back into her seat.

"Still sound asleep," she said, smiling. "What did I miss?"

"Nothing much," Julian said.

"So when's the date?" Kira asked.

Dax glanced at Julian. "Well, we haven't really talked about it yet."

"Why not get married while you're here?" Kira suggested, leaning forward.

Julian raised an eyebrow. "That's not a bad idea," he said, glancing at Dax.

She frowned slightly. "Well, we haven't really even discussed what type of ceremony we're using either."

"You have time," Sisko said. "You know how bureaucrats operate."

Dax grinned and nodded. "True," she admitted. "We'll think about it."

*******

"Okay, what's wrong?" Julian asked once they were back in their quarters and the kids were in their own beds.

"What do you mean?" Dax asked, combing her hair out.

"I mean," Julian said, coming over to rest his hands on her shoulders, "why did you avoid Kira's suggestion?"

"I didn't avoid it," Dax said. "I said we'd think about it."

"Dax, something's bothering you otherwise you would have leapt at the chance." Julian crossed his arms and leaned against the door to the bathroom.

Dax glanced at him in the mirror. "Nothing is wrong. I just said we'd think about it. What's wrong with that?"

Julian shrugged. "Nothing. But you just didn't sound too enthusiastic about the whole idea."

Dax sighed and set the brush down. "What type of wedding did you have in mind?" she asked, glancing at him.

Julian gazed at her, puzzled. "Something small with just some close friends present. Nothing too fancy. Why?"

"I meant the ceremony," she said, studying him.

"Well," Julian said slowly, "I don't know what Trill customs are like as far as weddings go so it's been a typical terran ceremony. But I'm not closed to the idea of a Trill wedding."

Dax gazed at him and smiled slightly. "It's amazing how easily you can remind me of the reasons I want to marry you," she said.

Julian smiled and shook his head. "You thought I wouldn't want a Trill ceremony? What gave you that idea?"

Dax shrugged. "Nothing in particular. I guess I jumped to conclusions."

Julian smiled and kissed her. "Yes you did but, since we're on the subject...what exactly is involved in a Trill ceremony?"

Dax smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck. "Oh, nothing major. It's actually pretty similar to Terran weddings." Julian raised an eyebrow. She paused and sighed. "But, there is one thing that might be difficult."

"What's that?" Julian took a step back, leading her out of the bathroom.

Dax smiled. "You remember my z'hantarra, right?" Julian nodded. "Well, it's similar to that....only it's a bit different."

"You're being ambiguous, Dax," Julian murmured, kissing her.

"You're distracting me, Julian," she retorted teasingly. He chuckled softly and lifted his head to face her. "Basically, a guardian will assist in exchanging our memories," she said. "I'll have access to everything that happened to you and you'll be able to see everything I've done."

"'You' would be...?"

Dax smiled. "Jadzia Dax. And perhaps a few memories from past hosts." Julian nodded, relieved she had known what he was asking. "But this is usually done between two joined Trill..." She saw him smile slightly. "And it's very...intimate," she said. "Not many off-worlders are comfortable with the idea."

Julian nodded. He had to admit, the thought of Jadzia knowing everything about his life was a bit disconcerting, especially the time since he had been posted to the Melbourne. "How long would it take for a guardian to reach DS9?"

"If I contacted Trill right away, perhaps a week."

Julian nodded slowly. "Would we be under any obligation once we contacted them?"

Dax thought for a moment. "Well, considering the uniqueness of this situation, probably not. I'd have to check."

Julian nodded. "If we aren't, go ahead and arrange for one to come out. That will give me more than enough time to decide."

Dax gazed at him, eyes wide. "You're actually considering this?" Julian nodded. Jadzia grinned and kissed him. "Alright. I'll look into it. What about the rest of the ceremony?"

Julian glanced at her and grinned. "Well, you said they were similar so we can reach a compromise about that in the following week. And, unless I'm wrong, a guardian would perform that too, right?"

Dax flushed and nodded. "Yes," she admitted. "I'd forgotten."

Julian laughed and pulled her close. "So it's decided. We'll marry in a week, regardless." Dax nodded, smiling. He kissed her, pulling her close. After a moment, he pulled back and grinned. "You mentioned something about 'killer backrubs' earlier?" Dax laughed softly, shaking her head. "What?" Julian laughed.

*******

Julian sat in his old office, compiling a list of people to contact about the wedding. "Doctor?" Bashir looked up to see Sisko standing there. "May I have a word with you?"

"Of course sir," Julian said, setting the PADD down. He blinked, trying to brush back the sense of deja vu that swept over him. It was apparent that Sisko felt the same way as a ghost of a smile crossed his face before turning serious. "I wanted to ask you a question about last night. You never told her, did you?" Sisko studied the doctor.

Julian sighed. "No. It turned out not to be an issue the Federation had to explore. Why should I tell her that I advised that we surrender and came this close to deciding to hand that information over to the Dominion?"

Sisko sighed. The two of them had talked about the situation several times since it had happened all those years ago. At the time, they had both agreed that it would be best to keep it quiet. "I suppose. But you might want to tell her before she finds out some other way."

Julian hesitated. "Perhaps. But right now isn't the best time." He gazed thoughtfully at the screen. "I just hope, for everyone's sake, that this isn't the Founders. No one is more dangerous than a group of people who are hungry for power and has the firepower to get it."

Sisko gazed at the Doctor. "Is that why you reacted at the dinner last night?"

Julian sighed and nodded. "Sir, I've seen first hand what those ships can do...I hope to any deity that's out there it isn't the Founders."

*******

"Parent Dax." Guardian Treala regarded her with a calmness. "What is it you need?"

Dax straightened. "I require your presence on DS9 by the end of the week," she said.

"For what reason?"

"To be married," Dax replied quietly. The guardian raised an eyebrow. "There is something you should know however. My fiance is human."

Treala studied her carefully. "And do you still wish to proceed with the bonding?"

Dax paused. "He's still unsure of whether he wishes to proceeded with that aspect or not. And the wedding itself will most likely be a hybrid of Trill and Terran customs."

The guardian nodded. "I will prepare for the journey under the assumption that you will go through with the bonding but you are under no obligation to do so if he is uncomfortable with the idea."

"Thank you," Dax smiled. "I appreciate this."

"Of course." The connection cut and Dax leaned back in the chair. She had contacted Treala because she was one of the more liberal of the guardians on Trill and would understand the delicate situation. A joined Trill marrying an unjoined, especially an off-worlder, was very rare and frowned upon. Some guardians refused to support such joinings but Dax knew Treana had a reputation for being an open minded person in general and had never refused to perform a marriage unless there was sound reasoning to do so.

"Hello," Julian called as he walked in their temporary quarters on DS9. They were having some remodeling to their quarters on the Melbourne done so they had requested guest quarters on DS9. It was an odd feeling to walk into the once familiar rooms.

"Hello," Dax smiled, standing up to kiss him. "I contacted Treala. She's on her way out."

Julian grinned. "Wonderful. Now, speaking of wedding plans, what exactly are we doing? I don't think we ever agreed on a ceremony."

Dax smiled as Cati tore out of her room. "Papa!"

Julian grinned and knelt down to hug her. "Hello Catilynn. Did you have a fun day?" Sisko had offered to take her and Ian for the day so they could get work done. Julian had gone and commandeered his old office and spent a lot of the day calling their friends and family while Jadzia had gone through and gotten a hold of Treala and compared the different traditions, looking for places where they would overlap.

"Yes!" Cati cried. "Uncle Ben took me and Ian onto his ship and showed us around and we had lunch on the Promenade and then we went for horseback rides in the holosuites!"

Julian smiled and glanced up at Jadzia, who was laughing silently. "Ian went horseback riding?" he asked, trying not to laugh himself.

"Well, no," Cati drawled. "But I got to go while Uncle Ben and Ian watched."

"Ah," Julian smiled, ruffling her hair. "Sounds like you had an exciting day." Cati nodded excitedly. "Speaking of Ian.."

"He's sleeping," Dax and Cati replied at the same time. Julian glanced from Cati to Jadzia, his eyebrows raised in amusement. Dax chuckled and gently rested a hand on Cati's shoulder. "Why don't you go get a book and calm down from your day," she said. Cati nodded and darted into her room. Dax stared after her, shaking her head.

Julian laughed and stood up, pulling her close. "Come here," he murmured, kissing her. Dax leaned against him, gently running her hands through his hair.

"Hmm," she sighed softly, pulling back. "Did you get a hold of everyone?"

Julian nodded. "Your parents said they'd be on the next transport out, as did mine. They're both going to arrive in about a week."

"Where are your parents?" Dax asked. A trip from earth took a week and a half.

"Betazed," Julian replied. Dax nodded. "And, I managed to reach Miles. He says hi and he, Keiko and the kids will try and make it, but they aren't sure. They're coming regardless though. Most of your friends from the Nile said they'd try and get leave but that 'Commander Shetley is still the same blowhard that he used to be.' That's a direct quote, by the way."

Dax smiled and nodded. "Okay," she said. "Now, what about the ceremony?"

"Well, why don't you tell me more about Trill custom," he said, releasing her. He went to the replicator and got two raktaginos and walked over to the couch. Dax sat next to him and he handed her a cup.

Dax took a sip. "Well, the main part of the ceremony is actually very similar to Terran tradition. We have a section where promises are made and bands with the words "Eternally joined in the eyes of Kele and Tosa" enscribed on them." She saw him tilt his head to the right, smiling. "What?"

"Nothing," he smiled. "Go on."

"Well, there's only one main difference...the beginnings. Trill tradition has two people, who represent Kele and Tosa begin the ceremony. And two people called Kelans, one for the bride and one for the groom, tell why they feel they should be married."

Julian regarded her. "Sort of like the toast at receptions," he commented.

Dax gazed at him and shrugged. "I suppose." She studied him. "What do you think?"

"Is this what you've sorted out?" He was smiling. Dax nodded. He grinned. "I'm beginning to like Trill traditions," he said.

Dax smiled and curled next to him. "So we're agreed on that?"

"Absolutely. I'll go see Geshi tomorrow on the Promenade about the bands...are they rings or bracelets?"

"Well, bracelets actually. But I was thinking of doing rings instead."

"Okay." He rested his head against hers. "So, who are you picking to speak for you?"

"I don't know," she admitted.

"Hmm," Julian murmured. "What about the reception?"

"Well, that isn't a problem. The length is different."

"How so?"

Dax grinned. "Trill weddings usually last three days."

"Oh," Julian said. He hesitated. "How about we keep it to two days?"

Dax laughed and nodded. "That's fine," she said. "I've already talked to Quark about it."

Julian smiled and glanced up as he heard Ian crying. "Hmm. I'll get him," he said.

"Okay," Dax murmured, kissing him tenderly.

He smiled and gently touched her chin. "I love you," he said softly. Dax smiled back.

"I love you too." She kissed him again. "Go get your son." Julian smiled and headed into the bedroom. Dax smiled and stretched out on the couch as the door chimed. "Come in," she called, sitting up.

Liam walked in, smiling. "Hello."

"Liam," Dax smiled warmly. "Come on in. Can I get you something?"

"No, I'm fine. Thanks for asking though." He raised an eyebrow. "What's this I hear about the two of you tying the knot before the week is out? And you didn't tell me?"

Dax grinned. "We're getting married in a week," she teased. He laughed and spotted Julian walk out with Ian. "Hey," he said. "I've got a bone to pick with you."

"What?" Julian asked, smiling slightly.

"You didn't bother to tell me about your wedding," Liam grinned.

Julian's brows flew up. "I haven't had a chance to tell anyone from the Melbourne. I've been trying to see if the long distance people can make it. How did you find out?"

"Captain Marek was talking with Kira."

Julian grinned sheepishly. "Oh. I suppose I should let people know then."

"Don't bother. I told the others saying you were busy with plans."

"You're a godsend," Jadzia smiled. "Do you want to join us for dinner?"

"I'd love to," Liam smiled. "Where's the other one?"

"In her room reading." Jadzia went over and tapped the controls. "I hope," she grinned as the doors slid open. She smiled at the sight of Cati coloring on the floor. "Cati, come on out and say hi to Uncle Liam."

"Uncle Liam!" Cati skiddered out of the room and threw her arms around his legs. "Hi!"

"Hello muchkin," he said, swinging her up in the air. Cati shriek with laughter.

"And she was all nice and calm," Julian murmured, setting Ian in his bouncer with a few toys.

"I can't believe how big he's gotten in a month," Liam said, setting Cati down. He knelt down. "Then again, you've grown too. How tall are you now?"

"Thirty seven inches," she replied seriously.

"Oh, my goodness," Liam gasped in mock surprise. "You've grown a whole inch since the last time I asked." Dax smiled and glanced at Julian. She raised both brows at him and he smiled understandingly. "So," Liam said, ruffling Cati's hair, "have you decided which type of ceremony to use?"

Dax smiled and nodded. "We're blending the two," she said. She briefly explained and glanced at Julian as she explained about the Kelans

"It sounds interesting," Liam smiled. "I like the idea of the engraved bands."

Dax smiled as she programed the replicator. "It's a sort of play on words....Usually, a joined Trill marries another joined Trill. Marriages outside of your 'caste' are frowned upon and marriage to off-worlders is almost non-existent."

Liam frowned. "That seems a bit odd for a Federation planet."

Dax glanced up. "It's not forbidden, although there are some that feel it should be. And, of course, there are people who could care less." Liam nodded. "Does hasperat sound good?" Dax asked.

"Fine," Julian said. "Liam?"

"Never had it," he admitted.

"You'll love it," Dax said. "I'm not in the mood for a large dinner tonight anyhow."

Julian chuckled, playing with Ian. "You're never in the mood for a large dinner."

Dax shrugged and programed the request. "I've just not been very hungry lately." She tossed a smile over her shoulder at him.

Julian sighed and glanced at Liam. "Explain to me why I tolerate this?" Liam laughed. Jadzia raised an eyebrow, looking like she wanted to comment but didn't dare.

Liam grinned. "Should I leave so you can tell him?" he teased. Jadzia blushed and turned back to the replicator. She heard Julian laughing behind her and shook her head, laughing softly.

*******

Dax curled next to Julian later that evening. "So everything's settled?" she asked.

"Pretty much. We just need to ask people."

"Speaking of that, why didn't you ask Liam earlier to be your Kelan?" Dax propped herself up, studying him.

He smiled. "It honestly slipped my mind," he said, gently brushing a lock of hair back behind her ear.

"Hmm," Jadzia murmured, gently leaning into his touch. "Okay."

"Who are you going to choose?"

"I'm not sure," she said. "I haven't had time to think about it. Probably Kira."

Julian nodded. "You mentioned that there are two officiators?" Dax nodded. "Who are we going to chose to be the second officiator?"

Dax gazed at him. "I assumed Benjamin."

"What about Gloria?" Julian studied her.

"Oh," Dax murmured, her eyes widening. "I'd forgotten." She rested her chin on his chest, thinking. "We've a problem, don't we?"

Julian nodded, gently tracing the line of spots. "Sort of."

Dax sighed softly. "So what are we going to do?"

"Sleep on it," he said. "We have time."

"Not much," Dax pointed out.

Julian nodded. "I know. I'm just finding you particularly beautiful right now so I don't think I'm going to be able to concentrate."

Dax laughed and kissed him. Julian tightened his arms around her. "So," she murmured, "Have you figured out why you tolerate me yet?"

"Refresh my memory," he teased. Dax smiled and kissed him again. "Computer, lights off," Julian smiled when she pulled back.

*******

Dax paced nervously by the airlock, Julian studying her with a mix of curiosity and amusement. "Why won't you tell me what you've decided?" she asked.

"You'll find out soon enough," he replied. "And stop twisting your ring. You're going to give yourself abrasions."

"Yes, Doctor," she murmured, balling her hands into fists.

"Will you relax? You said Treala was one of the more liberal guardians on Trill."

"She is," Dax said. "That's not the problem."

"Then what is?" he asked as the doors started to open.

"They give me the creeps," Dax admitted, moving to stand next to him. Julian smiled at her and gently squeezed her hand.

"Parent Dax." She snapped her head towards the airlock as a shortish woman dressed in guardian robes stepped through.

"Guardian Treala," she said.

Treala turned to Julian and fixed a steady, piercing gaze on him. "You must be Dr.Bashir."

"That's right," Julian said, fighting the urge to offer his hand. Treala continued to study him intently and Julian mentally fidgeted. He now understood why guardians gave Jadzia the heebie jeebies. He hadn't felt so under scrutiny since the board tests at Medical School.

Treala finally turned back to Jadzia. "Where are my quarters?"

"This way," Dax said, gesturing. They walked quietly for a moment when Treala turned to Julian. "Have you decided?"

Julian straightened at the sudden question. "Actually, I have."

"And?" she asked, stopping to face him.

Julian could feel Jadzia's gaze on him and he felt his throat tighten. "I'd like to go through with it." He saw a tiny smile light up Dax's features.

Treala remained impassive, still studying him. After several minutes, she turned and continued walking. Julian raised an eyebrow and glanced at Dax. She shrugged and continued walking. The rest of the trip was in silence. Dax hadn't been so relieved in her life when the doors to Treala's quarters slid shut.

"I see what you mean," Julian murmured, rubbing the back of his neck.

"That was nothing," Dax murmured. "Wait till you meet my father. He has these eyes that just go through you. I could never lie to him. Drove me crazy as a kid."

Julian groaned and slumped dramatically against the wall. "Great."

Dax laughed and wrapped her arms around him. "You'll manage," she murmured, brushing her lips over his.

"I suppose we should get the kids," he said. Liam and Meleria had offered to watch them while they met Treala at the airlock. Dax nodded and they headed off. "I'm curious as to how your parents and Treala managed to get on two different liners."

"Sheer luck," Dax said tensely.

*******

Julian shifted as Jadzia's parents regarded him for a moment. Her mother was the first to turn her attention elsewhere. "Is this Ian?" she asked, cooing at the infant Jadzia held.

Dax smiled and nodded. "Do you want to hold him?"

"Absolutely," her mother smiled. Jadzia transferred Ian to his grandmother's arms. Julian smiled slightly, trying to ignore her father's scrutiny.

"So you're a doctor?" he asked after a moment.

Julian nodded, meeting his gaze. "That's right. I've been CMO of the Melbourne for over five years."

He nodded thoughtfully. Julian felt his shoulders loosen up slightly. "Father," Dax said, turning back, "Is that all the luggage?"

"Yes," Aroal said, shooting a look at her mother. "Your mother managed to limit herself to two bags this time."

"And your father limited himself to three," teased Danel. Jadzia laughed and picked up a bag. "Why don't we show you to your quarters?"

"That would be wonderful. We've been cramped on that liner for far too long." Aroal picked up two bags.

Julian smiled wryly and picked up the other two. "And now you can be cramped into a Cardassian station." Dax laughed and shook her head. She saw her father smile and she gently nudged Julian as they walked. He smiled and said nothing.

*******

"Well, two good first impressions for you." Jadzia collapsed on the couch in their quarters and smiled at Julian who was sitting and playing with Cati and Ian. Ian was laying on a blanket that had various activities and Cati was taking great delight in showing him everything. Julian smiled and reached for her hand. Dax took it and gently brushed the back of her hand over his cheek. "I have to admit, I'm impressed."

"It's a gift," he said, kissing her hand. Dax smiled and glanced at the kids. "When do your parents get in?" she asked.

"In a couple hours." Julian leaned against the couch, resting his head against the cushions. Dax ran her hands through his dark hair, smiling. "I think I'll take a nap to recover," he murmured, closing his eyes. "Just keep that up and I'll be asleep in no time."

Dax laughed and glanced at the kids. Cati was still entertaining Ian. She smiled and gazed at Julian. His eyes were shut and his breathing was even. "I thought you were kidding," she murmured, smiling amusedly. She shifted and sat up to play with Cati and Ian.

*******

Julian scrubbed at the back of his neck. "I can't believe you let me sleep like that," he murmured.

"I'll just have to give you another backrub tonight," she murmured, gently rocking Ian. Julian gazed at her, grinning. "Get rid of that grin before your parents see you." She was fighting her own laughter.

"Is that a promise?" he teased, keeping an eye on Cati who had made a game out of hopping over the dividers in the hallway.

"Absolutely," Dax murmured, craning her neck as the airlock opened and passengers began to file out.

Julian smiled and shook his head. "Cati," he called. "Come here!"

Cati darted over. "Where's Mima?"

"She's coming," Julian replied, resting a hand on her head. "Just be patient."

"Julian!" He smiled as he spotted his parents walking through the airlock. He hugged his mom as she reached his side. "Hello," he said.

"It's good to see you," she smiled, pulling back. She glanced at Jadzia and smiled brilliantly. "Oh, my. He's gotten so big," she said.

Dax smiled. "That he has." She transferred Ian to Amsha, knowing she'd want to hold him. She glanced at Julian, who was talking with his father.

"You look good," Amsha commented, glancing at Dax's figure.

Jadzia smiled. "Thanks. I'm close to being back to normal."

"And in a month," Amsha smiled.

"Star Fleet," Dax said, grinning. "It's amazing how easy it is to get back in shape." Amsha laughed as Julian turned to them.

"Why don't we get the two of you settled in," he said, motioning to them. Dax smiled and raised an eyebrow. He picked up a couple bags and his father grabbed the others.

"Did you bring me a present?" Cati asked, bouncing around them as they walked.

"Cati," Dax said admonishingly. "Don't be rude."

Amsha laughed. "It's okay. And you'll just have to wait and see."

Cati pout slightly and continued to do so until they reached the guest quarters. Julian set the bags down inside the door. "Why don't you come over for dinner?" he suggested to his parents.

"That's a good idea. Why don't you invite Jadzia's parents, if you already haven't." Amsha smiled and produced a brightly wrapped package and handed it to Cati. "And you wait until you get back before opening that up," she said. She handed Dax another one. "Something for Ian."

"Thank you," Dax smiled, glancing at Julian, who had accepted Ian from his mother when she had opened the bags. "We'll see you around 2100 then," Dax suggested, glancing at Julian. He nodded in agreement.

"We'll be there," Amsha replied.

*******

Dax paced nervously once again. She glanced at the table which Julian was finishing setting. "What time is it?"

"Twenty-thirty hours," he replied, walking over. "Relax."

Dax sighed and straightened her shoulders. "This is ridiculous. I'm forty-one. It's not like my parents can do or say anything that would affect this."

Julian laughed and wrapped his arms around her waist. "However, if you were forty, that would be completely different, right?"

Dax smiled and tipped her head back. "You are a royal pain sometimes, you know that?"

He smiled and kissed her lovingly. "I try." Dax laughed and kissed him back. They pulled back as they heard Ian crying. Dax smiled.

"Poor thing," she murmured. "He's not used to Bajoran time."

Julian nodded and watched her walk into the bedroom to rock him. He was startled as the door chimed. He walked over and tapped the controls and the door slid open to reveal Dax's parents standing there. "Hello," Julian smiled, trying to hide his surprise. "Come on in."

"Thank you Julian," Danel smiled. "Where's Jadzia?"

"With Ian. His internal clock is a bit messed up with the longer days on Bajor." Julian closed the door. "Can I get you something to drink?"

"Just some water," her mother replied. Julian nodded and glanced at Aroal. "Nothing, thanks," he replied. Julian nodded and walked to the replicator.

"How come the two of you are staying on the station?" Danel accepted the water he handed her. "Thank you."

"We're having some renovations done on our quarters," Julian said.

"Oh," she smiled. The smile faltered slightly. "We've been hearing rumors about what's happening in the Gamma quadrant," she said. "What's been happening?"

Julian sighed. "We don't really know. Jadzia has a theory that the Founders are trying to make waves again."

"And it's a well-founded theory," Dax said, walking out of the bedroom. She managed a smile at her parents. "But we don't know what Star Fleet is going to do about it yet."

Danel sighed softly and nodded. "What about the children? You're not going to keep them on the Melbourne, are you?"

Dax glanced at Julian. "I don't think we've decided yet. We don't know where the Melbourne is going to be stationed right now so we aren't going to make any decisions about that until we know for sure."

"You know we'd be more than happy to watch them," Aroal said. He glanced at Julian. "As would your parents, I'm sure."

Julian nodded. "We know. But, if the Melbourne is going to be kept in the Alpha Quadrant, there isn't much of a point to be away from them."

"Do you think you will be?" Danel asked.

Julian shrugged. "We have no idea. It depends which track Star Fleet decides to take."

Danel nodded. "I remember all those years ago there was a rumor flying around that they had gotten advice to surrender to the Dominion. Thank all the joined gods they didn't."

Julian nodded slowly. "Yes. Things turned out differently than predicted." He caught an odd look from Jadzia. He took a deep breath and was about to tell what had happened when the door chimed. She got up and answered it, admitting Julian's parents. There was a round of introductions and Julian got his parents their drinks while they settled themselves on the couch. They made small talk but Julian could feel both Jadzia's and her parent's eyes on him. The small talk lasted through dinner and eventually switched to the upcoming ceremony. Both sets of parents were pleased with the blend of rituals that had been decided on.

After dinner, the conversation turned towards the attacks in the Gamma Quadrant. Dax found herself fielding questions as Julian cleared the table. She studied him as she responded to his mother's question of how she felt Star Fleet would respond. His shoulders were tense and his face was a very careful blank. She knew him well enough to know there was something he needed to tell her in private. Dax managed to redirect the conversation until both their parents left. She took a deep breath and smiled. "That went well," she said, hugging him from behind.

"And you were worried," he teased, gently kissing her.

Dax smiled and rested her chin on his shoulder. "So what is it that you need to tell me?"

"Am I that transparent?" he asked ruefully.

Jadzia laughed and pulled back, sitting on the couch. Julian sank down next to her. "Only to me," she said.

"No, I think your parents knew something was up too," he admitted. He took a deep breath. "Do you remember all those years ago when Dr. Loews brought Jack and the others to DS9?"

"Of course," Dax smiled. "What about it?" She hesitated. "Wait a minute. You got all tense when my parents brought up the rumor that a group of people suggested surendering to the Dominion based on the fact that billions of people would die otherwise and it was all based suppositions and probabilities...."

Julian raised an eyebrow. "Apparently you have a firmer grasp of the rumor than your parents."

"It was flying here on DS9. Those were the only things people agreed on. You should have heard some of the variations." She regarded him. "It wasn't a rumor was it?"

"No. Except the part of it *all* being based on suppostitions. We probably would have been right if things hadn't worked out the way they did." Julian leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees.

"*We*," Dax murmured. "You and Jack and the others figured it all out and presented that idea, didn't you?"

"They had figured it out. I double checked the work." He furrowed his brow. "And I presented the idea to Captain Sisko. He sent it to Star Fleet without his backing and it was rejected. When Jack, Lauren, and Patrick found out, they decided to turn over classified information to the Dominion based on the fact that there would have been at least eighty-eight hundred billion lives saved that way."

Dax sat up slightly. "And you almost went along with it. In the face of saving all those lives, I would be shocked if the idea didn't appeal to you."

Julian nodded slowly. "For the briefest of moments, I thought they were right. But Star Fleet training kicked in for a moment and then I realized that it was wrong to sign the death certificates of two billion people to save nine hundred billion." He rubbed his jaw, remembering the punch Jack had thrown. "They almost got away with it too."

Dax rested her chin on his shoulder. "But they didn't. We managed to defeat the Dominion with a negligible loss of lives."

Julian managed a smile. "I know. Part of the plan was Jack, Lauren, Patrick, and Serina's idea." He puffed a short breath out. "But I came *this* close to agreeing. It made sense, from a statistical standpoint."

Dax nodded slowly. "But people aren't statistics," she said quietly. Julian nodded and glanced at her. She smiled and gently kissed him. "Thank you for telling me. I had always wondered about that. It was one rumor that I could never find out the answer to."

Julian laughed softly. "Captain Sisko and I decided it would be in everyone's best interest if it didn't get out. It would only fuel the fear and prejudice that exists against people who are genetically enhanced."

Dax nodded and rested her cheek against his shoulder. "Two more days," she said after a pregnant pause.

Julian glanced at her and smiled. "Are you panicking yet?"

"No. And I don't need to so you'd better pull your own weight," she teased. Julian laughed and kissed her, pulling her close. Dax pressed close, her fingertips gently working at the fastenings of his shirt. Julian pulled back. "I've got a question for you," he said, nuzzling her neck. "When do we go through this thing with Treala?"

"Tomorrow evening," she murmured. "I've already asked Liam and Meleria if they'd watch the kids for us for the night."

"Hmm. You think it will take that long?"

Dax pulled back. "The actual bonding itself doesn't take that long but...well, I said it was *very* intimate."

Julian raised an eyebrow, one corner of his mouth turning up. "And, obviously, there's a physical release."

Dax smiled and kissed him. "You have no idea," she murmured. He laughed softly.

*******

Julian paced nervously, Liam's eyes following him. "You wanted to go through with this," he pointed out.

"I know," Julian murmured. "I guess it just hit me. The finality of it all."

Liam nodded seriously. "You know you're under no obligation to..."

"No, I'm going to go through with this." Julian straightened his shoulders. "I just hope she'll have me afterwards." Julian grinned at Liam who laughed.

"Julian?" He turned to see Jadzia standing there, dressed in a simple white gown. Julian regognized it. He walked forward, his eyes widening slightly. "Why...?"

"It's traditional," she admitted. She glanced at Liam and smiled. "Thank you," she said.

"It's no problem." He stood and nodded at them both. Julian turned to face her.

"Are you sure you're okay with this?" she asked.

"Yes," he said, gently taking her hand. She smiled back and kissed his cheek before walking into the room that had been set up. Julian could smell the vaguely familiar scent of the symbiont pools. "Why?.."

"Tradition," Dax hissed. She straightened as Treala approached them. Dax let go of Julian's hand and stood silently as the guardian said something in her native language. Julian stood quietly, not really knowing what was going on as Dax responded.

"Julian Bashir." He straightened as Treala turned her attention to him. "It is your wish to be bonded to Jadzia Dax. Before this, you must complete the Jhi'tara, the joining. You understand that if, at any time, I feel this wedding should not go forth, I can break the bonding?"

Julian nodded slowly. "I understand."

"Good. Let us begin." Treala moved forward and rested her hand on Jadzia's abdomen briefly and then moved to her forehead. Jadzia closed her eyes, amazed at the sensations she was feeling. She felt like she was floating, tethered down by Treala's mind.

Treala waited a moment and then turned to Julian. She placed her hand against his forehead. "Relax," she said reassuringly. Julian started at her reassuring tone. "Sit down," she said softly. "Dax is adjusting right now. When I tell you, take her hand." Julian nodded and sat at the same time as Jadzia. After several minutes, Julian felt the slightest tugging at his mind. "Take her hand now," Treala said softly. Julian closed his eyes, taking Jadzia's hand tightly in his. He could feel the ebb and flow of her thoughts brushing over his mind. He felt an odd sense of calm fill him as her mind touched his. He opened his eyes and found himself staring at a two level house, unfamiliar yet so completely home it was unnerving. He glanced around and the scene changed to a severe looking room with two beds and two desks and shelves filled with books.

"You're an initiate now! Remember your control!" Julian spun to see who it was but found himself at Star Fleet Acadmey staring across the green at...himself?

"That's Julian Bashir," a female voice said, nodding in his direction. "Medical student. Just starting his internship and supposedly completely full of himself." He felt a wash of curiousity run over him before the scene shifted again. He saw a familiar face gazing up at the ceiling. 'Curzon' he realized. 'My God, I'm her!' He felt vaugely rediculous at that idea but...

The scene swirled around him and found himself on the transport that had brought himself and Jadzia to DS9. He turned and saw himself sitting, studying a PADD. "Julian Bashir?" He glanced up, curiosity in his own gaze to be replaced by...

"I won't have any part in this!" He saw himself jerk away from Yeto. 'Dear gods, no,' he though. 'Not this.' He could hear Jadzia saying something, feeling her fear and horror at what was happening. The scene swirled and they were in the infirmary. He saw Verad refuse the inducers and himself walk over to the bed. "Jadzia, I..." Time stood still for a moment as he felt a rush of emotions, his own and Jadzia's, fear, anger, shock. He saw a hand reach out and grip his and her voice....and then complete and utter lonliness. The familiar voices were gone. Julian choked quietly, willing this to end. "The operation was a complete success..." "I'm so alone..."

The scene shifted again, moving rapidly through the years, the endless talks together, drinks at Quark's. "You're a dear man, Julian..." He felt it slow again and saw Renhold briefly before it flipped forward to his last day on the station. He felf a wash of emotions run over him again. Sadness, lonliness, and something he couldn't put into words. The scene changed and moved through her various posts, images of friends and enemies ran through his mind at an amazing pace yet he could remember each one. And then their meeting again on DS9. The tour of the Melbourne and discovering he had married. The trip to Bajor. Dancing at that dreaded formal affair. Sitting and reading with Cati the morning after they had discovered the cure for her fever. Julian could feel Jadzia's memories merging with his own.

They sat quietly, their eyes shut, neither moving. After several minutes, Jadzia's eyes opened to see Treala gone and Julian sitting across from her, his hands clasped around hers, his eyes shut tightly. Her mind was whirling with memories, images from his life. The hospital on Adigeon Prime, medical school, Palis, meeting on the transport, life on DS9, meeting Lara and subsequent events. She closed her eyes again, trying to sort things out.

"Jadzia?" She opened her eyes and gazed at him. He was studying her, a mix of curiosity and confusion filling his eyes.

Dax smiled and gently squeezed his hands. "Odd, isn't it?" she said softly.

"Overwhelming is more like it," Julian said softly. He glanced around. "Where's Treala?"

"She left. Which means she approves." Dax stood up and pulled her up with him and walked over to a sofa. "I can't sit in those chairs any longer," she said. Julian managed a laugh as they sat back down. Dax curled close to him, feeling him lean back against the couch. "You're tired," she said softly.

Julian nodded, glancing at her. "Yes. I thought this is supposed to be energizing." His eyes glinted wickedly.

Dax laughed and pressed him against the couch. "Get some sleep and you'll be amazed. Your mind just needs time to adjust." Dax curled up next to him. She felt his breathing even out after several minutes and she smiled. 'Most definetly amazed,' she thought gently hugging him.

*******

Julian stirred the next morning, and reached for Jadzia. He opened an eye as his hand hit a PADD. He picked it up and squinted at it slightly, his eyes still blury from sleep.

*My love-

As is apparent from last night, you aren't the only one who's been doing research into customs. I found out yesterday it's bad luck for you to see me the day of the wedding. A bit inconvenient, isn't it?*

Julian grinned and shifted onto his stomach to finish reading.

*A part of me can't believe that we're getting married. In a practical sense, I know it won't change anything between us whether we were or not but I have to confess, I am glad we are.

When I met you all those years ago, I would have never dreamed that we would be here today, thirteen years later, with two children and are about to be married (although you should already know this). I thought you were too young for me, too immature, that our worlds were far too different. In truth, I think I was the one who was immature. I didn't realize until long after you had left that I needed you in my life. When I found that photo in your room two years ago, I could feel the deck give way beneath me. I had thought that we might have had a chance to start again. I know it sounds horrible but I was relieved in a way when you said that Lara had passed on. Now, I can't imagine my life without you. You've been my best friend and confidant for almost two decades (doesn't that make you feel old?).

When I was on the Nile, Lynel played this song for me, trying to get me interested in Terran music. I remember being completely floored by the lyrics...and it was then when I realized how much I needed you back in my life. He nearly called the infirmary I was shaking so badly.

You're about to wake up so I have to go. I love you.

-Jadzia*

Julian glanced at the lyrics she had included and felt his hands start to shake.

Not That Different
by Collin Raye

She said "We're much too different. We're from two separate worlds."
And he admitted she was partly right.
But in his hearts defense he told her what they had in common
was strong enought to bond them for life.
He said "Look behind your own soul and the person that you'll see
just might remind you of me.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try.
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry.
And I know you do the same things too.
So we're really not that different, me and you.

Now she could hardly argue with his pure and simple logic
But logic never could convince the a heart.
She had always dreamed of loving someone more exotic
And he just didn't seem to fit the part.
So she searched for greener pastures, but never could forget
What he whispered when she left.

"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And I know you do the same things too
So we're really not that different, me and you"

Was it time or was it truth?
Maybe both led her back to his door
And as her tears fell at his feet, she didn't say I love you.
What she said meant even more.

"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And I know you do the same things too
So we're really not that different, no we're really not that different,
me and you"

He leaned forward as the door chimed. "Come in," he called, resting his head in his hands.

"Julian? Christ, you're not even out of bed yet!" Liam was grinning evilly until he saw Julian sitting in bed, staring at a PADD, tears running down his face. "Are you alright? What's on the PADD?"

"Nothing," Julian smiled. He shook his head and scrubbed at his face. "Get out so I can get up, huh?"

*******

Dax paced nervously at the back of the Bajoran shrine. Arnwar studied her trying not to look amused. "You know he's in there so don't worry."

"I just want things to go well," Dax said softly. She stopped pacing and stood next to Arnwar. The Kelan was traditionally to symbolize a younger brother so Dax had decided against asking Kira. Nerys had laughed when she found out why Jadzia hadn't asked her. Julian and Liam had already gone in, per tradition. Dax and Arnwar were waiting for Liam to finish speaking before they could walk in. Dax ran her hands down her dress uniform, smoothing it. She could hear Liam finish up and she took a deep breath. Arnwar smiled and offered her his arm. "Ready?"

Dax smiled and took it. "As I'll ever be," she replied. They walked forward and Dax felt her heart start to triphammer. She reached Julian's side and knelt down next to him. She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye and smiled slightly as she caught his gaze.

"I've known Jadzia Dax for over a year," Arnwar began. "The first time I met her, she decided to clean Quark out at Dabo and then myself out at poker." Jadzia ducked her head, trying not to laugh. "In the past year, I've come know know Jadzia Dax rather well, having served with her on numerous missions but mostly through her relationship with Julian. It was apparent when I first met her that they were close friends and it's been interesting to watch their relationship develop, to say the least." Dax smiled and shook her head slightly. She glanced at Julian and smiled. "She wanted things to go well, to make things work. And although things didn't go as planned, I can't think of any two people that deserve each other more." Jadzia smiled softly and glanced up at Arnwar. He winked and glanced at Sisko and Treala. Sisko nodded and motioned to the both of them to stand.

*******

Dax stood, her hands firmly gripped in Julian's. She felt her stomach knot up in anticipation as he repeated the vows. Dax gazed up at him, mildly amazed that this was happening. She felt him gently slide the ring onto her finger. Dax smiled up at him, taking the ring he had had made. She repeated the vows, her throat tight. She couldn't believe how nervous she was. She felt his hands gently tighten on hers and she glanced up at him. She finished softly, smiling. She barely heard Sisko conclude the ceremony. She felt Julian's mouth press against her and she leaned against him, kissing him back. She pulled back and heard the applause ringing out. She glanced at Julian and smiled. He gently took her arm and led her out. As they reached the exit, he gently slid an arm around her waist. "A bit warm in there?" he asked softly, smiling. Dax glanced up and smiled slightly.

"I suppose so," she admitted as people started to file out. Julian smiled and gently released her to hug his mother. Dax took a deep breath and stood straight. Amsha gently pat her arm.

"Are you alright?" she asked quietly.

Dax raised an eyebrow. "Is it that apparent?"

"Julian mentioned. Do you need something?"

Dax smiled and shook her head. "No. I'll be fine. Thank you." Jadzia gently touched his elbow. "You're very sweet," she whispered.

Julian glanced at her out of the corner of his eye. "Are you sure you're okay?" he asked as Kira walked out.

"Just fine," Dax smiled. "Nerys," she said, hugging her.

"I can't believe the two of you are finally married." She smiled at Julian, who shook his head, smiling.

"I believe I won the pool, Major." Dax and Julian turned in suprise as the O'Briens walked out.

"Chief," Julian smiled. They hugged. "I thought you couldn't make it."

"We managed to get a transport out," he said. He turned to Jadzia. "Finally snagged him, huh?"

Dax laughed and hugged him as Julian hugged Keiko. "It's good to see you, Miles," she said.

"What's this I hear about you being a mom?" he asked, stepping back. "You don't look like you just had a child."

Dax blushed slightly. "Believe me, it wasn't easy. Hello Keiko."

"Dax," she smiled. "You look fantastic. Speaking of which, where is the baby?"

"Right here," Meleria replied, walking out with Ian and Cati. Cati wrapped her arms around Julian's legs and he scooped her up.

"Oh, he's adorable," Keiko murmured, smiling. She glanced at Cati. "Hello. You must be Cati."

She nodded solemnly and reached for Jadzia. Dax gently took her. "Someone's tired," she said as Cati rested her head against Jadzia's shoulder.

"She didn't sleep very well," Meleria admitted, moving out of the way. "Probably from being in a new place."

"Hmmm," Dax smiled. She glanced at Miles. "What pool?"

*******

Dax sat next to Julian, resting her head against his shoulder. "We have another day of this?" she asked, smiling.

Julian chuckled and gently kissed her. "You'll survive." Jadzia sighed and leaned against him, watching their friends talk. They had had the 'reception' in the holosuites. They both were taking a break from the meet and greet of the gathering. Dax spotted Cati playing with Yoshi and Molly and gently nudged Julian. "They're getting along rather well," she said softly.

Julian smiled and nodded. He gently took her hand in his. "Would you care to dance?" he asked, smiling.

Dax smiled back. "I'd love to," she said. Julian smiled and stood up, taking her arm. They walked out from the corner they had retreated to and headed to the dance floor. Julian pulled her close and Jadzia smiled. "Everyone's staring," she said softly.

"Get used to it," he said softly. "Besides, I don't think they can help but stare at the most beautiful woman in the room."

Dax laughed and leaned close. "You know, deliberate flattery isn't really necessary anymore. It's nice, but not necessary."

Julian smiled. "Who said anything about that being deliberate," he said softly. Dax smiled and kissed him. Julian pulled back and smiled. "I love you."

Dax pressed the tip of her nose against his neck. "I love you too," she whispered.

"Mumma?" Dax pulled back to see Cati standing near them. Dax glanced at Julian and smiled.

"Yes, Cati?"

"Can I dance with you and Papa?"

Dax grinned and extended a hand. "Absolutely," she said. Dax bent and picked her up. Julian gently wrapped his arms around them both.

Liam smiled and shook his head. "Did you get it?" he asked.

Meleria held up the imager. "Absolutely. It should turn out rather nicely." She glanced at Liam and smiled. "Although, this is just as adorable," she teased. She raised it and snapped the photo.

Liam made a face at her and turned back to Ian. "Very funny. You're too busy playing photographer. Someone had to feed him."

Meleria laughed softly and gently squeezed his arm. "My point exactly. I'll be back." Liam shook his head as she weaved her way through the crowd. "She's interesting, isn't she Ian?" Wide brown eyes stared back at him over the bottle and Liam smiled slightly.

*******

Dax smiled and hugged Benjamin. "Thank you for everything," she said.

"You're welcome," he said. He nodded in Julian's direction. "It's good to see you've finally found someone."

Dax raised an eyebrow in amusement. "What's that supposed to mean?" she teased.

"Dax, I've known you for years. You aren't one who likes to be alone." He rested a hand on her shoulder. "At least, Jadzia doesn't."

She managed a slight smile and nodded. "I'll see you tomorrow Benjamin."

"Not too early," he said. "I'm going to sleep this off."

Dax laughed and hugged him once more before he left.

"Okay, finally." Meleria and Kira walked over. "We need to speak with you."

"What?" Jadzia smiled.

"About our gift to you two." Meleria tugged on her arm. "We'll be right back," she called to Julian, who was talking with Liam. He nodded and Dax found herself ushered into the hallway.

"What is this all about?" she smiled.

"This," Mel replied, keying the lock to the holosuite next door. She handed Jadzia a program rod. "And, this," she said, pulling a box out of the corner it had been tucked into.

"What is this?" Dax asked, glancing at the both.

"This is for tonight." Meleria laughed at Dax's look of shock. "Traditionally, it's the matron of honor's job to plan the wedding night but I had a feeling Arnwar wouldn't know about it so Kira and I took it upon ourselves to take care of the details."

Jadzia's eyes were wide. "You've got to be kidding me. What about..?"

"I'm taking Cati and Ian for the night," Kira said, amused. "It wouldn't be much of a wedding night if you had to take care of the kids."

Dax regarded the both of them and smiled. "I don't believe this. Does Julian know about all of this?"

"Absolutely not," Mel said. She motioned to the box. "Aren't you going to open it?"

Dax shook her head. "I'm almost frightened to," she chuckled. She slid the top of the box off and her eyes went wide. "My God this is beautiful," she murmured, pulling out a blue silk nightgown. "Where did you get this?"

"A shop on Bajor," Kira replied. "A friend of mine told me about it."

Dax smiled and set it back in the box. "Thank you," she smiled. "I can't remember the last time Julian and I had a romantic night to ourselves."

"Last night," Mel chuckled.

Dax grinned. "Last night was interesting...but I wouldn't say romantic."

"Really? One would think that knowing everything about each other would help."

Jadzia chuckled and shook her head. "I didn't say it didn't." She pocketed the datarod. "Thank you," she said again. Kira nodded and took the box from her. They walked back to the other suite to find the last of the people leaving. Dax paused to bid them goodnight and then walked in. Julian was sitting at one of the tables, Cati sound asleep in his arms. Dax smiled and walked over and rested her hands on his shoulders.

"Hello," he smiled, tilting his head up to look at her.

"Hi," she replied, sitting next to him. She gently smoothed a lock of hair of Cati's head and glanced up at him. "Should we get going?"

Julian nodded, wincing. "I'm going to hate to see this bill," he murmured. Dax laughed and gently kissed him. "It was worth it," she said softly.

"Agreed," he smiled.

"Here," Kira said, appearing. "I'll take her and then we'll get out of your way."

Julian glanced from Kira to Dax. "Thank you Nerys," he said. Kira nodded and lifted Cati. "Is this your idea?" he asked as she and Meleria walked out with Liam, who still had Ian.

"Nope," Dax replied, curling close. "I had nothing to do with any of this." She pulled out the crimson rod. "Or this," she said. "Or that," she said, nodding to the box in the corner.

"What's that?" he asked.

"You'll see later," she smiled. The doors to the holosuite slid open to reveal Quark standing there. "Quark?"

"I need your thumbscan," he said, stepping forward.

"I thought you said that you needed it when we were finished," Julian said, pressing his thumb to the padd.

"Your friends said they were going to cover the cost for the rest of the night," Quark replied.

Dax raised an eyebrow and glanced at Julian. "We're going to have to get them something," she murmured, curling closer. He smiled and glanced at Quark who was still standing there. "Uhm, Quark?" The Ferengi glanced at him and suddenly nodded.

"If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask."

"Of course," Dax smiled. Quark slipped out and Dax shook her head.

"He's devistated," Julian smiled.

Dax smiled and kissed him. "What do you say we find out what this program is?" she murmured.

Julian smiled. "Only if I get to find out what's in that box," he teased. Dax laughed and picked it up and Julian pulled up the new program. The dining room shimmered around them and turned into a dark street. Julian glanced around and grinned. "New Orleans," he said softly.

"How can you tell?" she asked.

Julian tipped his head towards the street signs. "We're in the French Quarter," he replied. He tipped his head to the right. "And I hear jazz," he said.

Dax smiled and gently wrapped an arm around his waist. "Lead the way," she said. They walked down the street and found themselves in a small cafe, listening to the smoothest jazz either of them had heard in a long time. Jadzia glanced at Julian and smiled. "Dance?" she asked, setting the box on a table.

"Absolutely," he said softly. He folded her into his arms, moving with the music. Dax rested her head against his shoulder. After several minutes, the song wound its way to the end and soft applause rang out from a few patrons. Dax smiled and reluctantly pulled from Julian's tight embrace.

"Newlywed?" one of the band members asked, amused.

"How'd you guess?" Julian asked trying not to laugh.

"Those shiny new bands on your hands," he replied with a crooked grin. Jadzia laughed and glanced at Julian. "That and only newlyweds dance like that. All glowing. Blind the rest of the establishment."

Dax laughed and tipped her head, picking up the box. "Well, in that case, we should be going."

"Up the street, take a left. There's a charming bed and breakfast."

Julian raised an eyebrow in amusement and tossed a 'thank you' over his shoulder. Dax shook her head. "You are hopeless," she smiled, twining her fingertips into his.

"So what if I am," he said, coming to a stop. "Incredible," he smiled, studying the building. Dax gazed, enjoying the smell of magnolias and roses. "Come on," she said softly. They walked in and were led up the stairs by the owner. "What did they do, design this themselves?" Julian asked as he opened the door to the room.

"Oh," Jadzia breathed, walking in. "If they did, we really have to buy them all something nice," she said. She opened the french doors that led onto the balcony. She turned to Julian and smiled. He had found a bottle of champagne and two glasses and was regarding them with a mix of amusement and astonishment.

"I second that motion," he said, opening the bottle. Dax walked back and accepted the glass he poured. She smiled and wrapped her free arm around him as he set the bottle down. Julian smiled back and gently tapped his glass against hers. "To us."

"To us," she echoed, smiling. She took a sip and smiled. "Incredible."

"That you most certainly are," he said softly. Jadzia glanced at him, her gaze softening. She set her glass down and gently kissed him. She felt him shift slightly to set his own glass down and wrap his arms around her. Jadzia gently undid the tunic to his dress uniform. Julian pulled back and nuzzled her neck. "What do you say you go change into whatever is in that box and I'll find some music and build a fire."

"That sounds wonderful," she murmured. She stepped back and picked the box up and retreated into the bathroom. Julian gazed after her for several moments before setting about building a fire. He had finished doing that and had just put some music on when the door opened again. He glanced up and strugled not to let his jaw drop.

"My God," he breathed. "You look beautiful."

Dax smiled, stepping out and crossing the short distance to his arms. "You're overdressed," she teased, sliding her hands under his shirt.

"It certainly seems that way," he said, kissing her. Dax leaned against him, her hands roaming. She could feel his hands exploring and she pulled back, teasingly. "Hmm," he murmured. "What's this?"

"I'm freezing," she smiled.

"Well, come here," he said, reaching for her. "I can take care of that."

Jadzia laughed and reached for a blanket. "I know. But so would curling up in front of that fire."

"That wouldn't be nearly as enjoyable," Julian grinned.

"Well, if you joined me," she teased. He laughed and sank down next to her. "But you need a reason," she said, tapping at his chest. Julian raised an eyebrow and pulled her close.

"You're all the reason I need." Jadzia's eyes went wide and she grinned.

"You win," she murmured, kissing him. Julian smiled and pulled her close, pressing her back to the floor.

*******

Dax stirred slightly and glanced at Julian. She gently rested a hand on his shoulder. "Julian?"

"Hmm?" He opened an eye and glanced at her.

Dax smiled and gently brushed a lock of hair off his forehead. "Don't you think we should go?"

Julian sighed and glanced up at the ceiling. "What time is it?"

"Oh, three hundred," Dax smiled.

Julian glanced at her and smiled. "Really? I suppose we should then." Dax laughed and rested her cheek against his chest.

"Why do I put up with you," she teased.

"I thought we covered that already," he teased back. Jadzia laughed and kissed him. Julian wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close. Dax pulled back after a moment.

"Hmm. Okay. I suppose I can keep you."

Julian burst out laughing and pressed her back against the bed. "Why you..." he murmured.

Dax laughed and twisted out of his grip. "Come on. We've stayed here long enough."

Julian's eyes followed her as she got up to get dressed. "Are you certain?" he said, not attempting to keep the desire out of his voice.

Dax turned to face him finishing with her uniform top. "The faster you get dressed, the faster we get to our quarters," she teased. Julian smiled slightly and raised an eyebrow as she tossed him his shirt. *******

Dax stirred late the next morning and reached for Julian. She lifted her head when her hand his air. "Julian?" She propped herself up and glanced around. She could hear soft murmuring coming from the main room. Curious, she got up and pulled on her robe and walked into the main room. Julian was standing near the replicator where two mugs of coffee rapidly growing cold. Dax's gaze swung to Captain Marek standing in the entrance. "Captain," Dax said, startled.

"I've just gotten a communique from Star Fleet command. They believe your theory about the Founders." She took a deep breath. "And they've ordered us to the front lines."

Dax's eyes went wide and she glanced at Julian. "When?"

"Soon. That's why I'm here. I wouldn't have dreamed of interrupting otherwise." She glanced at them both. "I'm afraid I'm going to need you both to report back onto the Melbourne by 1800 hours. That's all the leeway I could get us."

Julian took a deep breath and nodded. "Thank you," he said softly. Marek nodded and stepped out. Julian sighed and glanced at Jadzia, who was still staring at the door. "Jadzia?"

She glanced at him, startled. "Oh, Julian. I'm sorry. I was just . . . wow. I can't believe. ." She sank down onto the couch. "So much for our honeymoon," she said, trying to lighten the mood.

Julian managed a thin smile and came to sit next to her. "Yeah. How come it seems the gods like conspiring against us?"

Dax smiled and rested her head against his shoulder. "So, who gets the kids?"

Julian glanced at her, startled. "What?"

"I hadn't expected to be sent into the thick of things," Dax said. "I don't want them on board if we are."

Julian nodded. "Agreed. I suppose either of our families would be more than willing to care for them." Dax nodded and shivered. Julian wrapped a protective arm around her. "We'll ask them later. Why don't we shower and then pack things up." Jadzia nodded and glanced at him. He smiled and gently touched her chin and kissed her. "Don't worry," he said softly. "I have a feeling everything will be fine."

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